Beard here!
I've been incredibly interested in what our minds/bodies/souls/spirits can accomplish for some time now. I've been attempting to AP for the past two weeks. I've never been able to Lucid Dream. I always fall deep into a sleep and dream state and the next thing I know I'm waking up. When I was very young, I remember a series of dreams I had. Not really a series, but the same dream night after night after night. I was young, and it absolutely terrified me. Basically, I would fall into a sleep state and become surrounded in darkened colors that smeared together. I would experience what I can only describe as my body whooshing back and forth almost violently. I would relate it to one of those carnival rides that slings you and your partner back and forth. It would feel extremely intense and eventually after some time being slung back and forth in this void of smeared, ugly color, I would wake up crying (again, very young). I wonder often if it was a type of AP or LD that was out of my control and I didn't really understand what it is.
I have been trying incredibly hard to AP in hopes of fully understanding what may have been happening to me, and to experience what so many others have. I think I finally hit some milestones a few nights ago. I was laying in bed, still as could be hoping to separate my mind from my body. I was focused on an orb of light, visualizing and counting down from the number 3 (as I had read on a "how-to" site lol). I started feeling light. I almost felt as if I was sinking. I didn't feel light anymore. It was back and forth for probably an hour. Then suddenly, WHOOSH. Insane WAVES of vibrations started blasting my body starting from my shoulders and ending at my toes. Then again, and again. It was insanely intense. Wave after wave. It was an extremely addicting feeling. I then heard a ringing in my left ear, not one that I had heard before. It was dull, but constant. I focused on it while the waves crashed into me. I became extremely excited but tried to hold onto it but everything diminished after a few moments. I tried and tried to reach that state again but eventually fell into a deep sleep and was awakened by my alarm for work. Last night I eagerly tried again but couldn't reach any of the milestones.
I intend on staying the course and trying again and again. The community seems great here and I look forward to hearing from you all.
p.s. Any feedback on what I've written or tips, suggestions, insights, clarification, theories on my younger experience etc. is all very welcome and highly appreciated!
Hi and welcome to the Pulse.
Your younger days experience, although scarey, sounds like a typical uncontrolled one.
The vibrations are normal for most people attempting the art.
Have a read of the stickies on site, these may help you.
You're making progress, allow this to occur naturally, it cant be forced.