hey guys and girls, i'm not back, but i want to drop in to ssy hi

[Chaos Mage]

hello
mologi here
got no internet yet
been doin lots of writing
can't phantasy anymore
xanth, sorry for acting like an idiot with you, I still care about you
I tried to help people
I swore at people on facebook, got into gross porn, the internet had a definite opinion about all that
have to type like this, time and space is limited for me
more memories came back to me, and i'm still fighting the voices of schizophrenia
I can't get drugs, I smoke so much that I have nothing
if you want to believe that 'we are one consciousness' I don't blame you, I used to think the same thing
i'm sorry if I hurt anyone, and i miss the chat rooms and forums and stuff
I still try to play, I made a game for myself with my magick sword, which is based on six hundred ad in chrono trigger
I called it 'zenan bridge', and I use dragon ball z style power attacks, phantasy battle magicks, all based on the principle of 'forming sky energy
i'm so angry and frustrated, and the medicine is only making me worse, and I can't do anything, so angry and frustrated all the time, no matter how much I practice my Christianity, Buddhism, and thelema
I miss you people, and i'm sorry if I was persecuting anyone, but honestly, I too was being persecuted, it doesn't matter anymore, I know who, what, and why I still exist

my life is, in most, about me, being smart, and trying to be nice, kind, and honest with people
I tried to help, so sorry that i was so angry that it was powerless and ineffective
so many things have happened, and i thank you all for being you
since, it took me a year and thirteen days to read the internet book of shadows, a lot of which I learned from, agreed with some, disagreed with others, if it works, good
I can't phantasy, I have only nightmares, every thought is hindered, but i love everyone where i am, and i love people
sorry that i can't be with you anymore, this might look like flowers for Algernon, but it's not, just typing like this because time is limited
may the blessings of earth and heaven meet in your focus, and have astral adventures and everything that is good and true, thanks for keeping the pulse active
bye for now'

[AAAAAAAA]

You poor thing. Your problem seems to be that people haven't had a loving attitude for you. That, ultimately, is THEIR problem, not yours. I'm not saying your perfect, we all have flaws, me included. A ton of them, lol. None of the above mentioned things make you a bad person. You are equal to everyone else, and I have no idea what anyone else on this forum thinks, nor do I care, but no matter what you do to yourself, I for one will always be kind and forgiving to you, and people like you. And you are always welcome. you were probably registered here before I was, so I haven't a clue what you have said to any of the people on here, but I can tell you that you are still equal with everyone else. Don't waste your time with anyone who thinks any less of you

[Chaos Mage]

Hey, thanks Tons Of A.
Everyone who reads this!  I'm back online for a little while, got an hour in the morning, an hour in the evening, beyond that, I have to fire up the religious compy at meh own house.  I find it slightly wiley and fun that I got to get back on here at this specific day.

So, that's it.  I had just started a practice of routine and overkill banishing, fell asleep, had a dream of being burned with acid, and woke up, then all of this stuff happens.  Kewl?  Or, no kewl, no, bad!  I dunno.  So anyway, after I snoop around, look at stuff, it's time to be very naughty and swear at people on FB....  ().o!!!  NOT!  BWAGH HAGH HAGH HAGH!!  Yeah, ditch that FB... rabble... and cleave to the AP and wherever else I can find.  So there, huff.

I've got lots to say, this post won't scratch on it though.  There is so many things, limited to this language and astral type phenomena, yet there is so many things!!  I'm happy, I still sing, I dance, I fling myself into bed like a whirlwind. 

Last time I came here, on a friend's poot, I got this hard telepathic backlashing, a message that plainly said... "Stay off the Pulse!"  I dunno.  I'm sorry for being a tackle box full of peanuts.  Let's try to stay on the straight ascension.  So that's it, my buttocks is here, awaiting YOU... YOU.  Now, prepare, for the Omnimetamatrix is ready to burst with aeonic pulsar power, a ripping of space and time, full powerrr, charge!!  MAXIMUM POWER!!! SUPER EXPLOSION WAVE!!!  AAAAGH HAGH HAGH HAGH!!!  Yep... well I guess.... 0.0

[AAAAAAAA]

Hey, thanks Tons Of A.
Everyone who reads this!  I'm back online for a little while, got an hour in the morning, an hour in the evening, beyond that, I have to fire up the religious compy at meh own house.  I find it slightly wiley and fun that I got to get back on here at this specific day.

So, that's it.  I had just started a practice of routine and overkill banishing, fell asleep, had a dream of being burned with acid, and woke up, then all of this stuff happens.  Kewl?  Or, no kewl, no, bad!  I dunno.  So anyway, after I snoop around, look at stuff, it's time to be very naughty and swear at people on FB....  ().o!!!  NOT!  BWAGH HAGH HAGH HAGH!!  Yeah, ditch that FB... rabble... and cleave to the AP and wherever else I can find.  So there, huff.

I've got lots to say, this post won't scratch on it though.  There is so many things, limited to this language and astral type phenomena, yet there is so many things!!  I'm happy, I still sing, I dance, I fling myself into bed like a whirlwind. 

Last time I came here, on a friend's poot, I got this hard telepathic backlashing, a message that plainly said... "Stay off the Pulse!"  I dunno.  I'm sorry for being a tackle box full of peanuts.  Let's try to stay on the straight ascension.  So that's it, my buttocks is here, awaiting YOU... YOU.  Now, prepare, for the Omnimetamatrix is ready to burst with aeonic pulsar power, a ripping of space and time, full powerrr, charge!!  MAXIMUM POWER!!! SUPER EXPLOSION WAVE!!!  AAAAGH HAGH HAGH HAGH!!!  Yep... well I guess.... 0.0

Be careful about backlash. It isn't fun.

[Xanth]

Chaos,
I'm just gonna be super blunt here and say that you should probably listen to that message to stay off the Pulse.
You're not healthy, and this place isn't going to EVER be of any assistance to you.

We've also issued a new addendum to the AUP:
http://www.astralpulse.com/forums/welcome_to_astral_chat/aup_addendum_must_read-t44680.0.html

Please PM me if you have any other questions.