Hello!

[Ellury]

Hello everyone, I'm Ellury (not my real name) and I'll be turning 20 in July. I first heard of AP in 2009-2010 and became really interested in it. I became super obsessed with spiritual stuff and would try to AP a couple hours every night, unfortunately with no success. The only thing that I benefited from was increased remembrance of dreams and trying to AP actually got rid of my SP.

When I was a kid I would get really bad SP and the only thing I could do was open my eyes, I couldn't shift them, so I would generally be staring up at the ceiling fan panicking. I would try to scream for help and try to get the signals through so my body would move. I was terrified of the thought of never being able to move again and when I finally woke my body up I would be nervous to go back to sleep, since it had a tendency to happen more than once.

Well time went on and I doubted if any of the stuff existed or that if that it did, maybe that it wasn't something that I could do. I stopped messing with AP and all my dreams went away with it. I stopped hearing words that I never heard before while sleeping, I stopped dreaming of people passing away and I stopped seeing unexplained things. Now that I've been drawn back to everything, it's even more difficult to do anything and I have like almost no results, and no guidance. I hear people say to just ask your guides, but either im deaf, they aren't there, or they don't want to help me.

Whatever ever the case is, I'm going to keep trying. I'm so jealous of people who progressed already.. Not with envy but an excited jealous-ness that makes me smile.

[deepspace]

Welcome to the group!

I can assure you that you can AP without guides or any kind of guru's teaching using fairly basic techniques. The important thing to remember is that AP is natural, but learning to be consciously aware and completely awake during it does require dedication and a strong, focused intent.

Good luck and  keep us posted on your progress.

[Szaxx]

Hi and welcome to the pulse.

[Ellury]

Thanks for the welcoming! : ) Can't wait to share any experiences I have and maybe get some guidance with what I'm doing wrong.

[AAAAAAAA]

Who says you're doing anything wrong? Things will come in time.

[Ellury]

I don't know, I just feel like if I'm not making progress, then I must be doing something wrong.. Not that I am, my mind just tells me I am.