Might as Well Introduce Myself

[Blue Glitter Neon]

Hello, I'm Blue Glitter Neon and I've already started a thread or two.

I'm a 40 something European guy who wish there is something, cause this world just ain't worth it.

Got interested in stuff like this relatively recently by way of thinking about the nature of consciousness and realizing that 1) It had nothing to do with intelligence, but in fact that it consisted in sensation and 2) We actually have no idea what sensations ("qualia") really are as understood from a materialistic framework. As of yet at least, neither do we have any way to find out.

So, I sort of conjectured that Descartes might have been kind of correct after all. Maybe there is a soul, our nervous system functions like a kind of interface and experience does not take place in the physical?


My own previous experiences are very few and all took place in my early 20's:

1) Once I was asleep, I realized I was asleep inside my room, and I thought I'd try to get out of bed in my dream to have a look around. It didn't work, since I was unable to leave my body and rise from the bed.

2) A pair of highly detailed and vivid dreams where I thought that if I concentrate on details, like for instance, the texture of the grass, which proved to actually gain in detail the closer you looked, I might break out into some kind of spiritual dimension. However, I never got further than to examining the grass.

3) A very vivid, ultra shiny and crisp erotic dream with a fetishistic theme. I recall it because it felt nothing like an ordinary dream and the colors and surroundings in it were 'realer than real' - surreal, I should say. I saw a single scene in an intensely white lit room. The room consisted mainly of one big shiny bed and the couple in it appeared to want to show me something, their lustful 'reality' so to speak.


That's all I've got to go on. I've recently begun to try and meditate in order to eventually be able to 'phase out' of this state of consciousness. Have no idea if it's working though, and in fact, I have no idea if I'm actually only behaving like a fool. Maybe there is really nothing and y'all are just pulling my leg. 

[soarin12]

I'm a 40 something European guy who wish there is something, cause this world just ain't worth it.

Hi Blue Glitter Neon!  Welcome to the Pulse!  Your above comment reminds me of me when I was 24.  Long story short, I found out (through projection and some prayer experiences in the physical)  that there was indeed 'something' and that something was that I was loved (by God, Source or whatever label you like) more than I could ever imagine and I was here to share that love.  Sound cliche?  lol  Well, it's all true.  I've had quite a few such transcendent experiences over the years, but only really needed one to completely change my life.  I'm certainly nothing special, and I believe any humble seeker can have this (or similar) experiences.  Many blessings on your personal journey!

[Szaxx]

Hi and welcome,
Once you see how immense it all is the realisation will astound you.

[Blue Glitter Neon]

Pleased to meet you, forum residents!

soarin12, sounding cliché? Not at all. I haven't had exactly that kind of experience, but on a related note, I think that from my meditation experiments hitherto, 'receiving' a sense of loving warmth and then projecting that sense outwards can be a good way to set your mood to a tranquil state wherein "phasing" might become possible. I don't know, it's not always possible to genuinely sense that so I guess one shouldn't press oneself in any particular direction either if you want the meditation to be successful.

Szaxx, I can barely wait, hehe!  Just want you to know that I found this forum a bit of a goldmine and the site "Multidimensional Man" by Jürgen Ziewe very instructive and interesting.