I'm new, HI! Tiny bit about me & my first step... fear! :)

[Mini stapler]

Hi! I'm quite excited to give this a go!! A little about me; I don't tend to believe what I read or hear, I like to experience things for myself and then make my mind up, though I am sure there is something to this, based on people I have spoken to & trust & my own odd experiences. I also study psychology, though even with that I don't take it all in as fact... which probably makes me a bad student... LOL I'm very open minded and tend to interpret things in my way rather then how they are presented to me.

I have posted before, but noticed the introduction section & figured I would introduce myself. So I've known a little about this topic for a few years from some reading of sites like this, but never had the intention to go down this path till now. I had an experience a year or so ago, which is what I posted about originally & thanks to a couple of very helpful members I now know what I had experienced was the state focus 21 aka the 3D blackness, which was the entirety of my experience, due to my lack of intent. (lack of intent is the story of my life) So I held on to that for a year or so pondering on it once in a while, then a couple days ago thought to myself there are plenty of people out there who could help me get an understanding of this, and now it is really something I want to explore and am very excited about doing so! 

So I have done a bit of reading from this site, about basic stuff and I have seen that fear is a bit of a factor in the beginning, as from what I have read my fears will probably manifest themselves in some way at some point and scare the hell out of me! & I'm pretty sure I know exactly what form these fears will take. A man, that even now as a 22 year old guy, still freezes me in my tracks, like a deer in head lights when I see his face in pictures... Though I have no reason to fear him, he's actually a fictional character as it goes... The irony of being a student of psychology & this terribly irrational fear is not lost on me! 

Anyway, I'm really glad I have ended up here, & I'm sure I will be talking to a lot of very wonderful people in my time here, I look forward to it! So this is my 1st post for the beginning of my journey... And my first step is facing this 'fear' in a location I feel completely comfortable in with the lights on & a sofa I can hide behind! with a massive smile on my face! 

[NoY]

Welcome to the Pulse 


:NoY:

[Mini stapler]

Hi NoY!!! I have to say, not 5 minutes after making this post, I'm checking facebook & see someone has accepted a friend request I made I click on them to see who it is & I have not a clue who it is or that I even added them! So then one of the people on their friend list caught my eye, I clicked on their profile (cause I'M NOSY!) having a little flick through their pictures, & right in front of my eyes pops up a picture of the very same man I have just been talking about that scares the hell out of me!! Gave me a bloody heart attack!! LOL

[BlueHalcyon]

Hello and welcome

[Szaxx]

Hi and welcome to the pulse.

[Greytraveller]

Greetings Mini stapler and welcome.
You obviously already have considerable knowledge about this subject. Also it would be a good idea to read some of the threads in the FAQ forum because there is a considerable amount of good info in there.

Regards 
Grey

[Mini stapler]

hi everyone, thanks grey I will do, will be reading lots and lots!