Salutations

[Th13rteen]

Good morning all.

Just registered and thought I would introduce myself and give a bit of background info.
Out of Body Experiences have always intrigued me. I saw Shirley McClaine's "Out on a Limb" when it aired for the first time on network TV a long time ago.
I was preteen at the time but I understood the concept behind it all, and the mysticism.
A few years later (early teen, 14ish) I started waking up to hypnagogic vibrations. I did not know what they were at the time and I was a bit freaked out.
I told my Dr at the time about it and she looked at me with a confused face and said "Oh it is just anxiety.."
After dismissing it as just that, I mean she is a Dr right? What do I know? This went on for about another week and then they subsided.
At the time I wasnt concentrating on having OOBE's, at the time I knew very little about them.
Fast forward about 5 years later. One day I was at a mall on my lunch break. I had finished eating and had about 30 more minutes left and was bored.
I went into the book store and passed up the New Age section. At the time I was unsure why, but for some odd reason, as I passed this section, curiosity got hold of me. I stopped and wondered what kind of books were in this odd section called "New Age". I was 20 yrs old at the time. I happened upon a book called "Out of Body Adventures" by Rick Stack. It seemed the only subject there that interested me so I gave it a look. I got to the part in the book where people describe feelings and symptoms of OOBES, and I saw that people were having the same sensations I was having 5 years prior! Needless to say I was very surprised, then i thought, well no wonder the doctor looked confused! Anyway, I bought the book, and went back to work - elated that I seemed to shed some light on something taboo. As I got home that night I spent the whole night reading. I got through half of the book the first night.

In the coming weeks I started practicing some of the exercises in the book, and it started producing results. First, just as the book said, I would start remembering more dreams each night, then they would start to become more real. Then the book said that I would eventually have an OOBE. I had some struggles with this because I was able to make the vibrations come back but when I would try to get out while in this state, I would feel something holding me down. I could feel my astral body trying to come out, literally - but it felt like I was being held back. I started losing hope and getting discouraged but I decided not to give up. This thought paid off, because a few days later I had my first and one and only fully conscious OOBE. It happened on Nov. 27th 1995 at 11:30PM CST. The way it happened was I was in a dream at first, then I became lucid somehow. Then I had a feeling enter my mind, it was almost like I said to myself "my body is in danger", then the dream ended and I was lying in bed asleep but mentally awake with the vibrations.

I realized this was an opportunity to have an OOBE. So I concentrated on rising out of my body. I had some difficulty at first and was getting annoyed but I mentally calmed myself down and said mentally "I am going to do this". With that very thought, I instantly saw through my closed eyelids. It was almost like I opened my physical eyes but I somehow knew that wasnt the case. At the same time this happened an unseen almost magnetic force, almost as if gravity inverted pulled me out of my own body and I flew into the ceiling into my bedroom and could see myself lying in bed and then total darkness. I was in total darkness for like 3-4 seconds and started wondering what would come next, maybe at this time I really did get anxious because the next thing I knew, I was in bed physically awake, but with the knowing that all of this is possible. My life has never been the same. You know its like they say in that movie "Constantine" there is a difference in believing and knowing. Once you cross that threshold, things can never be the same.

I feel like I have been gifted/blessed with the single experience of being able to look beyond the veil, see across the void of death, and gain a glimpse at what awaits us when we move on. That was 13 years ago oddly enough. I still remember that experience as if it happened an hour ago. I have had many many people ask me "Well how do you know it was real and not a dream?" or "How do you know you just didnt want it so bad that you imagined it?", well I tell them its like this. Once you can distinguish between real reality and fantasy, then you KNOW. Because once you do THAT, you are able to set the bar, or precedent as it is, and know that its real or not real. I know it was real because I had full and total of self awareness. When I am in a dream, every time I dream unless its a lucid one, I feel like I am seeing myself through someone elses eyes. I feel like I am watching a movie, or I am an unwilling participant that has a part to play in some drama unfolding before me. This was not the case in my OOBE. I guess you just have to be there. 

Ever since then I have been trying very hard to have more. I have only had partially conscious ones though. I stopped trying a few years afterwards, partly because I was looking for validation and I got it. I had my answer. It felt like it was time to move on. But here lately, ever since my 33rd birthday back in september, I have been wanting to get back into it. So, here I am. I belong to several boards. I have been studying ascension also, but it is slow going so far. I have been able - I feel  -  to activate my 3rd eye chakra, because every time I do "lie down" meditation, I get this tingling sensation where the 3rd eye is said to be and I can control it. A few weeks ago I was having pressure/pulling on my solar plexus, someone suggested it may be an energy blockage and to visualize the blockage as ice, and the energy trying to run through it as water, and the energy melting the ice away. I did this and ever since then, I have been having the third eye feeling.

I used to be a member of one ascension forum, and things were great for a couple weeks, then this one member joined and started talking about nothing but negativity. He would go into ascension threads and challenge everyones beliefs, say they are psychopaths, or they are immature, etc etc. He upset alot of people, including myself. We tried to be nice to him, and reason with him, but he was so closed-minded, all he would do is say how illuminati rule the world and civilization is doomed... Now ask yourself this, what kind of person goes to a metaphysics and ascension forum and tries to stir up nonsense such as that? He would personally attack members, very good people, he would talk down to them like they were children and say they didnt know anything and they were wrong. He was so disrespectful I decided to cancel my membership there and I have never looked back. I am all for free speech and everything, but when someone abuses that right and they seem to be setting out to upset the peace and balance of a forum and the moderators do nothing about it, well lets just say I would rather be spending my time and energy elsewhere.

Anyways, I hope I dont have to deal with that here. If anyone has an questions, please let me know. I will try to help out where I can. Even though I have only had one true OOBE, I have read alot of books about the subject, the occult, brainwave acitvity dreams, and life after death experiences. I know I have written alot, I try to be as forthcoming and detailed as I can, its a flaw of mine 
Thanks for having me on this forum!

-13

[Stookie]

Welcome to the Astral Pulse Th13rteen! It sounds like you fit it well around here.

We don't have too many problems with negative people or personal attacks - it's against our AUP.
Good to have you.