A Frightening Message from Liber Al Vel Legis?

[Jenadots]

Dear Enrapture:  perhaps you are experiencing some kind of possession which can happen when one dabbles in the occult, particularly related to Crowley.

Try any of the many cleansing techniques here or on the web.  You may need some assistance getting rid of whatever it is that has attached itself to you.  

Wish I knew someone who could help.  Just look for someone who isn't going to try to talk you out of thousands of dollars.  

Good luck....Jena

[Enrapture]

Thank you for your advice! I will certainly follow up. This would definatly explain my difficulties in willing myself into higher states and other strange things that happened after the incident.

[Eol007]

Hi Katherine,

If you are really having problems that you are beyond being capable of dealing with by yourself - it may be a good idea to contact Nita. Nita is one of the moderators here, but you may find it useful to contact her direct via her web site. http://www.astralhealer.com/ and see in particular her article Removing Negativity http://www.astralhealer.com/index.php?module=PostWrap&page=5

Also take time to study the magical self defence articles on the main site: - www.astralpulse.com or http://www.astralpulse.com/magick/magick.htm

You will be fine, just trust in that!

Hope this helps,


Stephen

[Enrapture]

Thank you so very much! I will definatly contact her immediatly, as it is growing quite irritating now that for nearly a whole year, I've had problems meditating and indeed seem to be experiencing some serious short-circuiting.. You are most likely so right in directing me this way.

[RedDragon_GoldPheonix]

this sounds like a party for me here. a woman screams delightfully followed by horrible HORRIBLE screams? sounds like justice to me. think about it. read my user name. and remember who came first the chicken or the egg? how long have we been held high in society to a minimum.
and why do you feel dread?
pray to isis.
she is the goddess of the underworld. and it sounds like you woke up the dragon.
and at what time can you remember this happened at? 2003?[8][}:)][8]
beginning of 2004?

[Quiet Storm]

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[Orchild]

Talking about being possesed.. Apparently I've been it aswell, I got rid of it because of a dramatic change.. You don't really need someone els to help you with it/ do it for you. You just have to re-discover yourself

Btw, if I hadden't been possed I wouldn't have changed either.. then it would take me another 4 years to achieve this.. think about it

[Enrapture]

Having had 23 trips around the sun, you have all thought me to be more conscious of what I say, due to being shunned, judged and condemned. Say what you want, however I believe that there is definitely some very critical event or events which are to soon befall mankind that is inexorable. Despite the possibility that no amount of prier and pleas for forgiveness will save a huge sum (perhaps the whole?) of humanity, why is it that we do not cease to impose our theological, societal, emotional, delusional, neurotic, illnesses, weakness and infirmity upon our fellow man? Anyway, I digress. Heaven forbid you lose your patience with my observations.

I will not say I know for sure what this all means and I know I've written a lot here, however I feel it is necessary to explain events leading to this and I no longer care about the repercussions of recounting my experience with this book, do to the possible importance of it. I know the warnings. Perhaps all I experienced was something that only applies to me, however it felt like I had been taken somewhere for an instant where everyone around me was dying, horrifically.


The anniversary of my chilling and disturbing experience with Liber Al Vel Legis is approaching, causing me to think much more strongly on what it really was I had experienced. Was I crazy? Did I have some kind of brain seizure for the first time which happened to occur at the very same moment I was experimenting with The Book of The Law?

For those of you not familiar with this book, it was 'given' to Aleister Crowley in the form of a chapter a day, dictated to him by a voice, seeming to come from behind him, called Aiwass.

If you don't know about Liber Al Vel Legis (Book of The Law), I suggest you follow the link.
http://www.fact-index.com/t/th/the_book_of_the_law.html


The Sigil, Inspired by the Order

For about an entire month before the event, I had been working with a sigil, which I had carefully designed, based upon the Thelemic seal, featured on holy Thelemic texts and used to represent the Ordis Templi Orientis (O.T.O.). Now, I really take Thelemic magick with a grain of salt, Being without fear of it, nor rejection, nor do I feel that I truly embrace it. However, having had been a participant and guest at countless several Southern California masses, plays and gatherings, I have learned that very few members of this "Order" are truly gaining any valuable or enriching experiences from it. Once you're done being serious with mass, it's party time.


I now tell you this, I had suddenly been driven by some unknown compulsion to create this sigil, backed with a strong feeling that (to me) it  is is an obvious fact that the order should be reformed, starting with the use of stories through symbols. Hence, the sigil http://www.killyouall.com/images/arachne.jpg. It may not have any powerful meaning to any one other than myself. That is fine, of course. It seemed to work fine with me!

DECEMBER 16, 2003

On this date of December 16, last year I decided to bring my first draft of the sigil to a group of individuals, who are actually musicians in a band I will only name upon inquiry. The lead of this band is reputed to have a history of working with magick in different forms, not to mention I find a great deal of their music enchanting, yet chilling all at once. A man who lives in my town, works with this artist whenever they come here and usually even tours with them. He is reputed for being very much into the occult and also writing heavily misogynist and pro-patriarchal articles. Although I like the music, their near fundamentalist pride in controversial and what I believe to be destructive ideals disturbs me.

Despite this, I had them sign the first draft of my sigil, which I felt was an act of having them unknowingly "approve" of something very powerful which they (likely even myself) do not fully understand. (this first draft was stolen from me during the aftermath of events which followed)

Being that the location of the signing was a place where many people from all over the state had gathered to say "hi" to their paganistic idols, I had discovered that there happened to be several active members of the OTO present. I brought my sigil to their attention, showing it to them. Before I could even explain myself or it, they exclaimed and laughed uproariously at me like I was just some random nut case. I was shocked, yet somehow gratified that what I felt about them had been confirmed just then. They are lost.

My Will, My Actions, The Book... WHAT HAPPENED??

Going straight back home, I suddenly had a strong compulsion to pick up the Book of the Law. I then grabbed a black marker and followed the mysterious urge to just write whatever I felt was perfectly justified to write in it. Being very particular about what meant a great deal to me at that moment, I was only writing, drawing, crossing out and replacing words in the first few pages which don't even touch the prose which was dictated to Crowley by this angel. As I wrote, I could feel an exhilaration growing within myself. Finally, I went back to the first page in the front of the book and noticed that there was a perfect place there, right next to Baphomet's Autograph. "BAPHOMET'S AUTOGRAPH?" I didn't realize how much I had overlooked that. Where did it come from? Why is it there and what is the strange criss-cross symbol to the left of it? Suddenly it hit me. WOW. The criss-cross was  like a guideline that seemed to practically say "Make your mark here". So without giving it a second thought, I immediately did it. As soon as I had done that, I heard some screams from behind me outside that sounded like excited and almost delighted female screams. On top of that, more.. like another layer of screams, more intense, seeming to rush through my bedroom window, into my room and into my head. As I was surrounded and emerged in these horrible screams, I suddenly grew VERY, VERY HOT. So hot I felt as if I was on the verge of bursting into flames and the screams... My memory of them still haunts me. I was so scared, the following night I could not sleep, as I felt that I had possibly awakened or angered something which was coming for me. I was falling into trance-like states and at a point nearly had to fight not to allow myself to reach a 'catatonic' state. Being that I don't know what it truly meant, I will continue to assume that absolutely anything is possible. All I know is that I need to STOP BEING AFRAID.

[AuslaD]

Enrapture,

Does the title of the band you mentioned start with T and the lead singer's name start with M?