(to boyster only : if you are reading this, please email me as some of the things i say here doesn't apply to you, you are a exception. Also i am still waiting for the reply of my last email, did you received it? Because this is serious, i continue to suffer a lot.)
to all :
Well, i know that this might not be a good idea because of psychic attacks, but i think i have to take the risk. Is there anyone here that can do long distance psychic scans, more specifically, on me ? (for free, of course)
It's that i absolutly need this, because after almost two years of training of trying ALL kinds of psychic training, almost nothing changed on me, and this is NOT normal, nothing is working on me (i am even ultra resistant to hypnosis and to brainwave generators, nothing do any effect on me), not even visualization do any effect. I most admit that the ONLY thing that works it's the energy manipulation of n.e.w, but the only thing i ever feel is physical sensations, i was NEVER affected psychologically by this or any improvement of psychic perceptions (which i don't even have, i am also unable to feel a person presence in a room).
And not only i have a strong health, but according to a T.A.C. (i don't know what is the correct english name for this medical exam, but it's something like this : computurized axial tomography) my brain is PERFECTLY normal, and according to shrinks psychologically i don't have any disorders (unless the obssessive sexual desire, but this maybe is not the cause).
I know that psychic abilities take a long time to develop but TWO YEARS of almost nothing is ridiculous and too much frustating, specially considering i have a strong health and almost never got sick (altough i am overweight, but not much) and that i am even unable to do a simple psiball, something must be wrong with me, so that's why i would like VERY MUCH to have a psychic scan to see what is wrong with me, or if this is because a neg influence or even a "jhynx", which i doubt. Also i would like to know if i have any ultra strong natural shield which keeps me from even having e.s.p., because i don't have any e.s.p, not even after meditation, yes, not even meditation do anything on me, it's been several weeks i do it (not daily, tough). I am even able to not think in nothing for almost a minute, but the only special thing that happens in meditation is image streaming, but i never have improvement in trying to control it, by the way is that the key to remote view, by trying to control those images?
Also it's been several weeks i do almost daily third eye chakra (and other chakras) direct stimulation (like in the aura view manual by robert bruce) and i don't ever feel any bad side effects, simply nothing happens. Just lots of tingling and being sore there but nothing more, it NEVER affects me psychologically, even when i do the arm and leg work of n.e.w and any major stimulation of primary centers.
According to the chakra test (which some people here probably remember, in which we reply a few questions and it gives the percentage of opening of charkas ?) the results is that ALL my chakras are underactive, except the root chakra which is 0% (open), but i don't trust those values much, but they sure reflect my lack of results.
There's gotta be something wrong with me, it's also possible that i have a massive mental block about being skeptical about psychic abilities in my subconcious, but as i am ultra resistant to hypnosis how do i remove this if during almost two years i truly believed on psychic abilities CONCIOUSLY and nothing changed ? Don't tell me it will take ANOTHER 25 years to remove it... (yes, until my 23 years i was skeptical all my life for the simple reason i have NEVER witnessed any paranormal event and never knew any real psychic) Could this explain all my failures?
Also i would like if someone could remote view me, JUST FOR A TEST and a description of my physical characteristics in the face just to confirm that this ability is real (it's not exactly that i don't believe it but it's just for motivation) but also to see my aura because i NEED to know if my energy body is reacting well or not to the psychic exercices i do, because so long time without results makes me desperated and always thinking this is not working, and i would like if my energy body is developing or not, or if the exercices i am doing are all USELESS or if i am going too fast in the exercices.
So, can anyone do a psychic scan on me, send me a ULTRA STRONG psiball to see if i can feel it, try to communicate telepathically to me, because i NEVER witnessed anything "paranormal" and my biggest dream (besides having the psychic abilities themselfs) is to experience something like that. I someone could astral project near it would be very good also, to see if i can see or feel anything.
Oh, i am already guessing what will happen : or no one will reply this post, or everyone which CAN do such psychic scans or some of those tests i asked will say that is not able to do so or will say that those tests are useless or even recommend me to quit trying to be a psion. such kind of comments only makes me think that it doesn't exist such thing as real psychics or psychic abilities, because EVERYONE that i ask this, they always refuse even to admit they have psychic abilities, and this only makes me, each day a little bit, that are just excuses and that it DOESN'T exist real psychics. I am sorry if i am being rude, but i can't believe that such tests are SO HARD to do, considering all i have readed about psychic abilities.
Also, i garantee, i am NOT skeptic, if i was and i didn't believed in psychic abilities i would not spend 2 years wasting time in psychic training and doing n.e.w., but common, after almost two years of almost no results it's everyday becoming a very little more difficult to not be skeptical again as my frustation is growing each day a little more, but now i have a kind of renowed hope as i am finally for the first time doing n.e.w. a lot :
i do 2-3 hours of n.e.w. everyday, if this does not work (for, let's say, 2-3 months), and if no one does to me some tests like i asked, i will have to search for a forced kundalini arousal, i know it's very dangerous (i am very aware of the risks), but i am really DESPERATED of seeing almost EVERYONE here being so successful (with very few exceptions) in developing psychic abilities or having minor results in just a few days and with me NOTHING working in almost two years, if this continues like this it will be really hard to continue fully believing in psychic abilities, because in the last year i truly believed on them even tough i never witnessed any, and each day i believe a very little less.
I know it's much easier to just stop trying to be psion and forget about this, but having psychic abilities was a dream that i haved a long time (mostly becuase of those movies with persons which could levitate objects with the mind, that impressed me a LOT even before knowing that psychic abilities were real) and since i discovered they aren't fantasy it became my biggest dream, and now i would NEVER accept to quit this, i would never be happy in trying to continue to be normal and missing all that wonderfull world of psionics, even me knowing very well the disavantages and dangers that exist, even like that it's MUCH better than continue to be so LIMITED. And yes, i do know that it's not possible to levitate huge things.
Please someone help me and do those tests, i am not demanding this it's just a request, i am sure that is not a sacrifice for any of you that have psychic abilities, don't worry because i am not like those skeptics that don't belive in nothing and that will question everything, i don't demand 100% accurancy in esp like they do, it's just for my motivation and to stop my future attemps in taking drastic measures like the kundalini, which is very probable to happens if no one replys this or do the psychic tests.
Another strange thing is that some people say to me i am not having results because i am training too little and that is necessary a lot of work. Others say i am going too fast and that i risk having a premature opening of the crown chakra (when i was practising psychokinesis), this is very confusing.
If no one replys, if this post is deleted or that people just recommend me to forget about being a psion, i think it's useless to me continue going in these forums, and in that case these forums are just for helping gifted persons, and that these forums are USELESS to help ultra-beginners like me.
Sorry for being rude and talking like this, but this is desperation and because i am really sure that no one will be doing such kind of psychic tests to me and that this will be ignored.
One thing is certain, i will be VERY gratefull to the person that provides me a "paranormal" or psychic experience, by doing those tests.
The only reasons that i don't go to a professional healer is:
1. It doesn't exist any psychic healers in the place i live (algarve, portugal).
2. Even if they exist, how can i know if they are not charlatans, specially those that ask for money ?
3. I can't afford to pay one even if it was genuine.
I have readed somewhere that it exists real psychic healers that do healings for free, but it's almost IMPOSSIBLE to find them, and most of the times it's not in long distance.
so in case no one here can help me at least indicate me a website of someone that does a psychic scan or psychic healing by long distance and for free (which i sincerly don't believe it will be easy to find).
I can slap you in the physical if that would help? It sounds to me like you are listening waaaaaaaay too much to what others have to say about you and how far and fast you are learning or not learning. (http://www.clicksmilies.com/s0105/aktion/action-smiley-002.gif)
I also think you need to take a break from everything. Seriously, you need to step back and take a deep breath. You have too many expectations. I'm sorry I'm not boydster, but IMO, you just need to take a break and start over with a more relaxed attitude, and stop expecting to have some kind of powers.. :shock:
Nay
sheesh dude its no big thang It takes alot of work wth this to get anywhere
Have you tried supplamatory techs? like Yoga?
Hey try this site serpent40.com
(I think that what it was)
His idealogoy isent important but he gives excersises and shtuff that helps stimulate and unblock chakras. maybe with your energy work you could do a few of these it might help out who knows?
Wow dude you need to chill I spent longer than you without any reults three years but I continued with the excersises and now I Excersise himes and get rid of negs lol I can do all the minor stuff but not much of the large stuff expect empathy. Relax and take a breather dont freak out about everything.
Today I just purchased and started reading The Logic of Failure: Recognizing and Avoiding Error in Complex Situations (http://www.amazon.com/exec/obidos/ASIN/0201479486/qid=1109971499/sr=2-1/ref=pd_bbs_b_2_1/102-3118805-6009722), by Dietrich Doerner.
It was not in the self-help section. It was in the science section, just below the physics books and next to the psychology books. I opened it up - definitely not a self-help book. All sorts of complicated graphs and logic diagrams and stories about city planners, physicists, and economists screwing up brilliantly. "Chernobyl" is mentioned more than once.
This book says absolutely nothing of AP, but it's just abstract enough to have some applicable principles. The introductory chapter makes a very indirect jab at Fritjof Capra's book, "The Turning Point: Science, Society, and the Rising Culture." He says Capra attempts to introduce a new way of thinking, "but maintains a strict silence on what this so-called new thinking really is." Capra is the author of the "Tao of Physics," so I suppose he would attribute that silence to the vacuum of Tao. I understand, but in my failure to consciously create reality, I have found that silence to be particularly inane.
JoWo, in the quantum metaphysics forum, attempts to fill in Capras gaps with "Holistic Logic," and I suppose that's fine if you want to be passively servile to a Holon, and pretend there's no such thing as failure (except possibly for your ability to not see failure). However, if what you see is failure, you may want to try the alternative studies of "Failure Logic."
I really wish I could help you. I've only started this book and haven't had a chance to apply its principles. But I thought I should offer you the at least the suggestion of an alternative methodology, if I cannot yet recommend it.
hum... that's exactly the kind of replys i was expecting (but not prefering) to receive, at least i got advices. It was impossible and too good to be truth that anyone would do such psychic tests or accept to do them. That just reinforces the idea of the skeptics (which i was in the past as i said) that psychics and psichic abilities doesn't exist, as i can't belive there is NO ONE here skilled enought to do any of the tests, what i asking i am sure is not ULTRA advanced that requires DECADES of training. But anyways that's ok, of course i won't try to force anyone to do the tests on me, but without that it will be harder to not being skeptical again, because as i never witnessed anything paranormal/psychic it still LOOKS LIKE everything psionic is fake just like skeptics say. At least until i am really sure that the results i have are really psychic development or not.
Anyways thanks a lot for the replys anyways as it's better than nothing.
I guess my last hope is to continue doing n.e.w. daily, as i already got new physical sensations for the first time ever in these almost two years (after 2-3 days of doing sub-navel raising for 1-2 hours each day), this gotta do something on me, because i won't wait 50 years to be able to see any results in psychic abilities! If two years is not enought 50 it is ? I can't even imagine, i am glad i am not expecting to be able to make heavy objects fly in the air, because in my case that might well take all my life to be able to do it, if anyday i will ever have any psychic ability.
I must admit that i ALREADY got results, but it's just that i am so "afraid" it's just wishfull thinking and that it's too good to be truth that i always consider that it's just a coincidence or normal optical illusions and that it's nothing related to psionics, and i need help to know if the few results i am having are indeed related to psychic developement or not, this is crucial for motivation. But if it is really psychic results, then in that case i am developing better than i tought, but i am afraid they don't mean nothing. (you know, i am very pessimist, and unfortunately most of the times i have reason when i am pessimist)
Now, i am going to make a list of the results i got so far, and i HAVE to know if these mean anything to psychic development, so please anyone reply about this, specially if they understand well about this. Also if many people here (of those that don't have any psychic abilities) are UNABLE to do most the things i will say next, then this is probably the psychic development results at last :
1. Regarding psiballs : the best thing i can is feel a VERY WEAK magnetic repulsion between my hands. How do i know if this isn't just because my hands being still, which some people say that causes the same thing, and therefore not being related to psionics ? I have tried visualizations 100000 times but ONLY when using tactile imaging (i mean, using the touch sense like in n.e.w.) i am able to "manipulate" energy between hands, visualizations does NOT have any effect with my subconcious, even tough very rarely i am able to see (like in image streaming) what i visualize, but that only happened TWICE in almost two years!!
2.1. Regarding the psywheel without hands : when i am sit, i put the psywheel in front of me in a table (on top a pin). After doing several tests in several days (in about the same conditions) i came to the conclusion that it only moves when i am near enought of it (mainly my head, about 15 centimetres). I am now 99% that it's no draughts or breathing, also it moves even when i am holding my breath and keeping my body totally still, and everything in the room is closed and there is no fans. Also if i am not near enought it never moves for minutes, while when close it moves for minutes without stop, but it is constantly changing direction. If this is not psychokinesis, what is it, the influence of the magnetic field of my aura ? (can this indicate the "length" field or strength of my aura?) Also can i use this as training for psychokinesis and this is already actually doing and training psychokinesis or it's always impossible to control things with this "kind" of influence in the psywheel ?
2.2. Regarding the psywheel with hands near between 2-6 centimetres : as many people say, with me it also only moves clockwise with my left hand near and counter-clockwise with my right hand near. Also after DOUZENS of tests in several days, it's really the proximity of hand palm that makes it move (it works also with the underside of my arms), and it's not breathing or the moving of my body. Also it kinda needs a "warming" up time to start spinning, which is weird, sometimes it moves right away and others never moves no matter how much time i away. The movement is fluid and constant (very different from when it's from breathing or draughts or bumps in the table) just like if it was animated by a little engine. Also it's specially the underside of fingers (which is always colder than the center of palm) that makes the wheel spin, when i put just the center of palm near the wheel it never moves but with the underside of fingers it spins non stop sometimes for 1-2 minutes. This is weird, i taught that this was the influence of the main hand chakra in the center of palm, but at least in
my case it seems it's not. Also i never have any mental control of the movement. Some people say it's a subconcious thing or the spining of the hand chakras, but it seems not. Also it's NOT hand heat, specially as the COLDER part of my hand (the fingers make the wheel spin much better). I even recorded a video on a webcam with this, but it's useless to upload it online, it's very similar to those videos in psipog in which the psywheel spin only with hand near. After lots of practise is it possible to control the psywheel when using hands and "change" that behavior of the subconcious about the predifined directions of spining for each hand or this kind of subconcious act is permanent? I ask this because i am "afraid" this is impossible and that i am wasting time on a impossible task, that's the reason of this kind of questions.
3. My EXACT top of head hurts (at skin level) and becomes sore ONLY in the SAME WEEK i practise psychokinesis (trying to control the psywheel when NOT using hands, like i said in 2.1). During the last months i could verify that if i didn't practised psychokinesis it never hurts again, but when i do practise psychokinesis, even for only 1 session of 15-20 minutes that pain switches on/off during the next days, several times at the day (kinda randomly), but this never happens when i am long time (about 2 weeks) without practising psychokinesis. Could this be a "proof" or a major indicator that i am actually practising psychokinesis and trying to use the crown chakra? Because there is people that say that this is a ability of the crown chakra, and this is too much coincidence, this always happens like this, and i never had this kind of pain before and i only have it when i practised pk a few time ago.
4. Since some months ago (but after i started psychic training for a while) i started to see "heat waves" everywhere (and seeing the little yellow dancing dots got easier to see in certain surfaces than before, not just in the sky, in the sky now it's so easy that i see them EVERYTIME i look at the sky without effort) specially in a dark background. Sure i don't see the heat waves all the time everydays, but in anyday when i focus enought i can see that again, or just at random. When i try to see auras, besides the afterimages i do see ALL the time even 1-2 seconds after looking, sometimes i am able to see swirling black lines (very similar to the heat waves), specially in the borders of hand palms. But it doesn't seem like a aura like everyone descrives as the lines are isolated and they are very few, it's not like fumes or smoke, it's more like random sparks/lighting. Also this works better after not thinking in anything and the ringing in my ears is louder (because of not thinking in anything). Is this another natural optical illusion and absolutly not related to psionics ? In psipog they say it is. Also many times i do see "flaring" of blue dots/lines in the background of things i am looking at (specially the computer screen, but also in about any surface), it's not those transparent motes on the eyes, it's really something "electric" and i am sure it's not a physical thing, it's like sparks, they even seem to have light, it does look like energy according from posts from people that see energy but i never see this when trying to see auras. The best description i can give is : energy-version of the motes that everyone sees in the eyes, only that these doesn't seem physical.
5. Like i already said i am able to have image streaming almost easely (specially when i am not expecting to have it) after 2-3 minutes of no thinking with eyes closed, but it's always totally random images. And no one ever tells me if trying to control those images or not is or isn't the way to remote view. I need to know that, as i don't want to be wasting time or having too much expectation about being able to control these images someday. I can't believe that NO ONE in these forums is able to remote view ? NO ONE know how to do that ? Then WHY NO ONE ever tells HOW is that done ?! Like i am WASTING time if when i am having image streaming i try to control the images and to be concious without "losing" them ? The few techniques of remote view i see in websites are always "too simple" to work for me, and it's very similar to... trying to sleep!!
6. I have a strange kind of negative intuintion : everytime i am ABSOLUTLY sure one thing will happen, it NEVER happens; and everytime i am ABSOLUTLY sure that a thing will NOT happen, it ALWAYS happens. (for example, before i buy a game and have expectative, it's always the opposite, like if i am glad because it will be good, it sucks, and so on) The problem is that this only apply's where there is only TWO choices : yes or no (or : being sure or not being sure;believing it will happen/not believing it will happen, etc). This is happening too much times to not be coincidence, and might be probably the only kind of "result" that i am almost sure it's psionic (like lets admite that intuintion is a kind of psychic ability, no?). But this is not like e.s.p. because i tried every kind of e.s.p. tests and the results are just like of a average person without e.s.p. ability, even being able to not thing in anything. I just get NOTHING. Even the pendulum is constantly "lying" to me (maybe it's that thing of the subconcious not liking to be tested like i readed in posts about pendulum here on the forums) BUT sometimes i was able to guess the answer, by noticing if i was believing that the pendulum would lye or would not lie, which is incredible : instead of using the pendulum for the answers i was really using the feeling i have in believing the pendulum would got right or not. Anyways this is a bit complicated to explain.
There this is most of the results that i have THOUSANDS of doubts in knowing if they are psychic development results or just normal things that don't mean anything. Please anyone comment these results and help me to know which is "wishfull thinking" or normal optical illusions or not. But as i said, if no one here (that is not psychic) is able to do those things then this is certainly signals of the starting of psychic abilities, but i am convienced that everyone can do those things above, at least almost of them.
Now comes the personal replys :
to nay :
i already do breaks frequently, thanks to my lazyness. Sometimes during a week i don't do any kind of training, because it's very boring to do training and not feeling anything to comprove it's being worth. And then i resume the training. Altough i understand your point of view... When you say "stop expecting to have some kind of powers.." the way you say that it makes it seem that the skeptics are right in telling that psychic abilities don't exist... unless, of course, you consider "psychic powers" COMPLETLY different from "psychic abilities" which for me is really almost the same time, if not the same thing.
to Major tom :
Hum... thanks for telling me about the FAQ on phasing, i didn't know it existed (is it on this website?), can you tell me the link exactly ? It's because i have slow internet connection and few time to explore all this website.
By the way this is another thing i don't understand : for all of you what does mean phasing ? It's because in PSIPOG they always say that phasing is making the PHYSICAL body go trought solid objects and they say it's very dangerous and to people not try to do that... but for me that's hard to believe, as that is probably as hard as trying to fly... but i think psipog is serious, i am sure it's not a "fluff" website so why they accept phasing like that ? Please read there the two articles about phasing and you probably won't believe what is there !
to star :
I have tried ALMOST everything. The things i haven't tried : just reiki and any kind of yoga, and... i don't remember more, as i don't know all kinds of training that exist. Anyways i will check that out later. As for the moment i will spend about 3-4 months doing n.e.w. daily, this gotta do something, and at least i am getting new sensations which are related to energy blockages so it's possible that this will really work in the furute.
to Burningriver :
How people can train for more than 3 years without results is a mystery to me, it can't be possible, that for me it's permanent suffering, unless you already seen witnessed anything psychic/paranormal ? It's becuase in my case i never had any single indication that psychic abilities do even exist, besides intuintion and the limited results i have. Anyways i am not "asking" too much or to levitate objects in the air, for example it's ridiculous to take 5 years to be able to do a psiball!!
to Telos :
Thanks, but please understand. I won't buy any books related to psyonics. Even Astral Dynamics i would be "afraid" to buy, at least without being really sure that n.e.w. works on me. If nothing works on me, books won't either. I have readed a few books, and the techinques in the sites are even better. Besides i won't spending money in a thing that won't work on me. Anyways thanks for the advice.
Quoteto Telos :
Thanks, but please understand. I won't buy any books related to psyonics. Even Astral Dynamics i would be "afraid" to buy, at least without being really sure that n.e.w. works on me. If nothing works on me, books won't either. I have readed a few books, and the techinques in the sites are even better. Besides i won't spending money in a thing that won't work on me. Anyways thanks for the advice.
That book I mentioned has absolutely nothing to do with psionics. There is no mention of anything new age at all, except for that very indirect reference to Capra (and even that was in an endnote). That's why I mentioned it. It's just straight up failure analysis. Like I said, it was in the science section, not new age or self-help.
I don't think you should have to buy any books either. There might be similar books at your library, if not that exact one.
But it's no big deal. "Whatever works," is slowly becoming my motto.
cesm23, you remind me of me.
With one exception, I've done this for 17 yrs at least now.
Some of us have easy latent abilities and/or the perspective to recognise them for what they are when they happen.
I do not. I don't recognise or notice any real psychic ability. I use NEW, chi kung and kundalini yoga daily for between 1-2 hrs most days minimum. Why I keep it up?
I like the sensatios-which are stronger, deeper and more consistent. Secondly immunity to crap like flu and other nonsense. Thirdly i like the strength enhancement. Fourthly I've been able to use it to perform healing on others, despite the lack of obvious psychic talent. So I've written off the psychic stuff, I don't need it to heal. Or i've got enough of something I don't have conscious knowledge of to use. Fifthly, I've had epiphany (sense of divine presence and revelations) a number of times in my life and can *almost* make it happen consciously-within limits.
I guess what I'm saying is I do it all in all because I enjoy and the results I get are almost enough in their own right.
Let go of the "abilities" thing. Concentrate on the flow now as you've had some success already with NEW and stuff. Expand your knowledge into chi kung, yoga and any other you find. The tactile knowledge in NEW will help you translate the sometimes obscure instructions in older more developed systems. and function as a good BS detector :-).
It always amuses me when people threaten to stop coming here if they can't get some solid results in the near future. It sounds to me like the problem is you expect to struggle and you expect to fail. It also sounds like you don't even know it when you do get some results, especially when they aren't what you were specifically looking for.
to tom :
very funnny, indeed. That's not too hard to figure out why some people do that (threatening to not come here). First, when i don't do that most of the times i don't even get replys. Second, for a misterious reason almost everytime i do that i do get new results, which is a strange coincidence, it's again that counter-intuintion in action, even tough with this post that didn't happened.
to all (after reading karnautrahl's post):
what?!? I risk not having anything just like your case ? Hum... let's not get percpitated (i don't know to write well this english word) here, remember the list of results i wrote, sure that most of them i am still not sure if they are psychic development or not, but i can't believe that NONE of them is.
Besides i even met a person worse than me (i mean, worse is just a way to say) which can't even visualize, i think he was a problem in the brain (i think), he also said that he could feel absolutly nothing when he tried n.e.w. Yes he even is UNABLE to have visual toughts, i also couldn't believe him, but after his explanations he didn't misunderstand and really can't even have visual toughts.
Anyways i think it's no point continuing this post, i see that everyone here has trouble to understand so big posts, i see that i have to make 1-2 lines posts to everyone understand, no offense, but this is always happening. the problem is that most of you all have adsl connection and i have a miserable 56k connection so i have to write every post OFFLINE in notepad (and save posts of astralpulse in html file to be able to reply), that's why my posts get big, and that's also one of the reasons i can't help other people in their posts, as every time i am online i have to do everything very fast because the connection is SLOW and EXPENSIVE.
Also i think Robert Bruce himself said that when he began using n.e.w., he also started with no psychic abilities at all, so it's possible that the same happens to me, he said he didn't felt any sensations for several months, but i do feel sensations since the first time. The problem is that this changes nothing psychologically, probably that will take more weeks.
Here are some things I present to you for contemplation.
Don't be mad at us for not being able to help you. You sound like you want attention, and want it badly, which doesn't necessarily mean you do, but it sounds like it. And don't bother saying you don't, because it's the most obvious answer you could possibly give, and you probably wouldn't know it if you were.
Many people on here ALSO want attention. Thus, they embellish their own achievements and pick and choose their accomplishments with nice-sounding words, in order to receive their share.
Consider the possibility that maybe you're an organic portal, sent here to 3rd density to suck the spirit energy of those around you, and that you might be entirely devoid of higher energy centers.
Consider also the more down-to-Earth option that, f*ck it, maybe you just don't have any g*dd*mn aptitude for it. Don't let your mind just dismiss it as, "BUT IVE WORKED SO HARD WHY NOT MEE!!1" but seriously consider it. It's possible. It doesn't matter what arguments you come up with against it, it's possible. Conceive of it.
Take a sabbatical. Artists who get artist's block often find that time off will cure their malady.
Be at peace. If the length of your posts is any indication (and they are too long!), you are quite hectic about the situation. That's not exactly helping.
Desire is the cause of many problems, spiritual and material. Your desire for psychic powers may be jading you, as well.
You sound as though you talk down to yourself constantly. I am not one who will tell you, "That's your whole problem, there you go! Be happy!" but there are those who will. It may or may not be true.
Finally, consider the concept that I know that writing these suggestions and ideas for your contemplation will almost certainly do you no good. Consider further that I still wrote them down, not because I think that they'll help, but because I think that they're the truth. And once the truth becomes apparent to you, I will be able to say that I spoke the truth. I also reserve the right to laugh derisively.
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4. Since some months ago (but after i started psychic training for a while) i started to see "heat waves" everywhere (and seeing the little yellow dancing dots got easier to see in certain surfaces than before, not just in the sky, in the sky now it's so easy that i see them EVERYTIME i look at the sky without effort) specially in a dark background. Sure i don't see the heat waves all the time everydays, but in anyday when i focus enought i can see that again, or just at random. When i try to see auras, besides the afterimages i do see ALL the time even 1-2 seconds after looking, sometimes i am able to see swirling black lines (very similar to the heat waves), specially in the borders of hand palms. But it doesn't seem like a aura like everyone descrives as the lines are isolated and they are very few, it's not like fumes or smoke, it's more like random sparks/lighting. Also this works better after not thinking in anything and the ringing in my ears is louder (because of not thinking in anything). Is this another natural optical illusion and absolutly not related to psionics ? In psipog they say it is. Also many times i do see "flaring" of blue dots/lines in the background of things i am looking at (specially the computer screen, but also in about any surface), it's not those transparent motes on the eyes, it's really something "electric" and i am sure it's not a physical thing, it's like sparks, they even seem to have light, it does look like energy according from posts from people that see energy but i never see this when trying to see auras. The best description i can give is : energy-version of the motes that everyone sees in the eyes, only that these doesn't seem physical.
The "energy-version of the motes" that you describe are inside the eyes, easier seen when looking at a bright or light colored object. They pop in and out and flit around for a second before they pop out again. I figure that they are blood cells traveling through the vessels at the back of the eye or something similar. The ones I see are bright as well. There are also larger, brighter still lights that happen every once in a while to me, but those are from a problem with my eyes.
I can't figure out if you were talking about the colors that are seen at the edges of things, especially when it is a light color and a dark color against each other. You can see a yellow or blue line for some reason, has to do with the way the light mixes or something, because it's picked up on cameras too and is a normal occurence.
You may be trying too hard to find things that are strange and think that they have to do with your training.
Quote from: TomIt always amuses me when people threaten to stop coming here if they can't get some solid results in the near future. It sounds to me like the problem is you expect to struggle and you expect to fail. It also sounds like you don't even know it when you do get some results, especially when they aren't what you were specifically looking for.
Me too, that's actually kind of funny. What do we care if someone leaves? We can cause far more damage by staying around :)
The thing about N.E.W. is that it doesn't matter whether or not you get effects. While it's definitely preferable, at the very worst it's a form of meditation that's fun and gives you a better sense of your body's sense of touch and the way the different parts of your body feel. I knew that before even trying it, and have noticed that I am more aware, which totally kicks butt with all the experimentation with exercises that I do, needing to watch and see which agree with me and which damage me.
Still, results would rule, but N.E.W. to me seems rather subtle, after all it's pretty hard to measure the results of healing faster. Are you going to do it like in Gingersnaps 2 where you cut yourself and see how long it takes to heal? If it makes you happy, it makes you happy, and you can take it as coincidence or the results of N.E.W., whatever.
When looking for results, it would probably be through telekinesis or OBE or telepathy that you would test for real results. Through personal results, general feelings of energy and astral projection and empathy would work.
chill out
remember its up 2 u end of hte day not others to do the work :roll:
i have read something that has helped me out a lot.
it doesnt give answers on how to project or anything. but it has helped me grow in a sense that i understand everything a lot better.
with all this understanding plays a big part in trying to do things psychic at least thats what i found.
its called the Celestine Prophecy.
its a Peruvian Manusricpt and it tells you about 9 insghts, all are different and each one comes sequesntialy.
the first one is nothing is coincidence and that things happen for a reason.
second is how our train of thought came about and how we think like we do today.
third one is about how everything is basicaly made up of energy. when you read it (its basiclay a story that you can follow and try yourself) the one guy actualy tells you how to see your own energy.
i tried it and it worked.
i thought you would like to read this an see if it helped you.
and i didnt find this as a coincidince either as it was the first thing that i found on the page.
:)
peace
The next two books about the 10th and 11th Insights are about how to use the first 9 Insights more consistently and on a larger scale. The 11th Insight in particular is about automating the process by programming the aura to keep your energy high, to attract more of the meaningful coincidences, to elevate other people, and to ask for help from higher sources.
ok, as i see no solution for this problem, i finally tried a thing i never tried before : kundalini-reiki attunements from xehupatl.com
I have just took the 1st attunment last thursday, and OF COURSE i didn't felt anything (i say "of course", because i was really sure i would feel the attunment very well, and again i was NOT right...) at least during the attunment, but i could find a IMPROVEMENT in the energy flow when i try meditation of psychic abilities exercices after (like a stronger pulsating in the back of my head, neck and spine, and when i try psychokinesis my whole head pulsates and this never happened before so quickly...) So this was affected me a little at least...
And it's exactly this i was looking forward to, some kind of long distance "healing" to at least make my body more receptive to the exercices and energy body development, and it seemed to have done some little improvement, but as i have noticed some difference then now i am more patient and motivated to continue the psychic exercices, and besides, i still have about 10 attunments in schedule in the next weeks... And if i combine this with n.e.w. it will be even better.
I wonder why no one in this thread advised me to try the attunments... specially if for some people (mostly those mentioned in the "experiences" section of xehupatl website) those attunements DID awakened some psychic abilities... (like 3rd eye vision, which is one of the things i want most) Anyways in my case i think it's normal to not feel anything in the first attunments, but in medium-term at least i really hope this helps, if it does, then i just recommend to other people here with difficulties to try the attunments also! Even tought almost no one here seems to have as many difficulties as i have...
Yes i know i shouldn't expect psychic abilties with this, but because i have spent 2 years in training, then that should be different in my case, specially if i do the training now with this increased energy flow, and the self-healing i do twice a day, because if even this doesn't work, then NOTHING else will, and in that case it's IMPOSSIBLE to develop psychic abilities in a person that doesn't have natural abilities...
cesm23, it is my opinion that you have already had some psychic experiences and you have failed to acknowledge them due to your higher expectations. Suppose that you had not heard about anyone elses experiences in their psychic development. Would you so readily discount the experiences you have had?
I don't think you would. And there is your problem. You have too many expectations burned into you. I am not going to chide you for this, as I too have been the same before.
I said to myself, until I do not see visuals or hear sounds or voices as vividly and life-like as those claimed by psychics, I will not accept any experiences as proof of psychic ability. I was more afraid of deluding myself, as I have been conditioned by the logical and scientific doctrines.
For several months I got nothing. No images, no sounds - nothing. At some point I had to re valuate my beliefs and expectations and reform them. I had to ask myself: what really constitutes psychic information?
What really is psychic information? It's information that exists beyond your logical mind. Hang on, then shouldn't imagination/intuition/creativity be psychic information?
I simplified it as one single word: imagination. To me psychic information was imagination. All I needed to do was become aware of my imagination, my thoughts, my feelings. By listening to my imagination, I was able to find great insight into my self, into my problems, life, into matters of the universe.
Once, I decided to attempt a psychic reading, and all I did was just say what I was thinking, visualizing and feeling about them, and to be frank, I expected to get everything wrong. No! I got everything right. I tried some more readings with others, some complete strangers, and I was consistently right. Now, don't go asking me for a reading, because I only do readings when I want too, otherwise like in your case, it breeds subconscious fears of not meeting expectations.
I later extended this practice into channeling exercises and healing. Again, I cannot verify, whether the information I am channeling is accurate or from my spirit guide. I cannot verify whether I am really healing people. I do feel it however. When, I channel information from my guide, I feel it to be true. I sometimes even feel energy rushes or sudden tingling when I state my intents to channel my guide. When I learn a truth, I can sometimes feel a surge of energy through my body. When, I heal, I can feel the aura of the subject, I can feel tingling in the palms of my hands. I can feel them heat up significantly and a radiance of heat emanating from them. I can feel the Chakras as magnetic repulsive forces.
All it requires is faith. Faith is what moves you along in any path. It is quite literally the driving force of life. That is why they say 'Faith can move mountains' Now, my abilities, although a shadow of what others can do, seem to be developing even further. I now sometimes see flashes of images(lasting microseconds) in meditation. I remember my dreams more. I have also found how emotionally sensitive I have become and how I can detect emotions. All it has taken is just some faith in my own thoughts, feelings, intuition.
This is what you need - faith. And I know you have little faith, because you keep seeking reassurances from others. You read all your Chakras are blocked - if all your Chakras were blocked - you would not be healthy. When your Chakras are closed, the corresponding physical and psychological aspect it governs, contracts dis-ease, because the Chakra is no longer receiving energy properly.
Your solar plexus Chakra that governs your self-esteem and confidence is the one that seems to be acting up. To remedy this, integrate the colour of yellow into your life style and do meditations on the colour yellow. When you do energy generation exercises use the sun as your source and store the energy in your solar plexus Chakra. You can also supplement this with a tigers eye crystal.
Eat more natural yellow fruit and vegetable such as corn, lemon and do creative visualization meditations using yellow. If you do mantra meditation then use the mantra "Ram"
What good will the above do?
This is based on the ancient esoteric yogic theory that the Chakras correspond to the electromagnetic spectrum and modern colour therapy. Each colour has a certain vibration and a certain effect on our energetic body, which also is comprised of colours. Yet, this is not a panacea for all problems. It's an aid. It also is based on faith.
So, I advise, for what that is worth, is to take a break from all psychic development activities and work on developing your self-confidence, so that you no longer depend on others for reassurances, and trust your 'gut instincts' and simultaneously also work on developing your imagination with some kind of creative activity(I highly recommend creative writing) You will find it much easier to develop psychic abilities afterwards.
I hope I was of some help.
Peace
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cesm23,
I live in Portugal too... Lisbon ;-!
You know, some ppl who have been working in past lives with energy naturally are born much more sensitive. Some ppl really have a bad time getting something out of it. I work so hard to project and then this 14 year old kid (who is clairvoyant) tried in a workshop for the first time and projects... I was jealous :-). But if you are interested in energy work for this life and the next don' give up, start with this:
Well, do you pee your bed every night? I guess you dont! So it means that you can program your subconscious to not tinkle in bed. You learned it, it's a fact, you weren't born with that ability... you ticked your bed for many years. Well, if you can learn to not to peeeeee than you can learn to become lucid in your dreams. Just program yourself before sleeping say to yourself 10, 100, 1000? times that you will know you are dreaming tonight (hey I know it's much easier when you have a father to punish you when you don't do it, but times change).
Anyway, do you want to start having psychic experiences like comunicating with other beings etc...? Start with lucid dreaming because it's impossible you can't do it... you don't pee anymore so... In lucid dreans normal ppl can learn to remote view etc...
Hope this helps, have fun