Unspoken Energy & Attraction

[tides2dust]

I have a serious, mostly unrealized and untrained manifestation ability.

     >This morning my energy, the unspoken and unrealized, has attracted a similar vibration with such intensity that someone outside of my self was manifesting what was happening inside me. IE, I was caffeinated playing a game and feeling extremely aggressive ready to take on the random player I'd be paired against. Strangely enough, the player came off as super aggressive and ready to unleash his potential on me by turn 1- spamming me with his aggressive emotes lol.

 Fortunately, I believe I caught onto this realization and tempered the rising and meeting forces by not engaging further. And I won the match. But he was so upset he tried adding me as a friend right away to continue to proliferate his anger and impatience. We aren't always aware of what we're harboring and blame others for our misfortune or off-putting behavior.


     >This morning, a girl I found attractive, has made such progress with a significant other that he wrote Hermosa on her car and left it as a surprise. But it's the timing of it all that makes me question reality more. It seems I have an uncanny ability to become attracted to someone, and then, they find a romantic partner the same time my attraction begins entering into the environment. It sometimes upsets me. The immature side of me, the selfish me, wants a fun partner who can reciprocate. It's rare that I am attracted to someone who is attracted to me. I know this may be a type of human nature, wanting what we can't have- ignoring what we do... But I want to feel real reciprocation. Call me childish, whatever. And it really seems- through out my life... Any girl I've found interesting, the moment I do, someone else is there to fill the role. I've tried being with a girl that has found me interesting, and I could not reciprocate- I could not love her the way she wanted.


     >Sometimes, if I'm talking about something- the world around me will manifest it. Example... I'm talking to my friend about the peacock angel when suddenly a car with a peacock license plate pulls up in front of us. I'm talking about death with friends when the radio says, "do you want to die? be my angel, help me jesus."

 Or even if I'm thinking something... Example, I'm unsure where to live when I find my initials engraved by the apartment I end up moving into- or a car identical in model and color to mine. What else? I share this with others, and they begin to manifest or experience the manifestations.


 Will I ever find my ideal partner? Is my ideal partner Spirit and not a woman to procreate with?

 I am having thoughts about dissolution, but also notice I am not quite ready to do so. I have desires to fulfill, and abilities to understand. Good for the woman who find their ideal partners the moment I am attracted to them... And this is not woe is me, though somedays it feels that way- but this is curiosity.

 And if I have a partner speaking to me from unseen realms... How can we meet? How can we fuse? How can we satisfy each others longings... Is that something we're even supposed to do?

 What is this crazy manifestation- I should know it's not me. I know it's not *just me. Even now, the time shows my partners signature... 14.



More thoughts later... 
     

[tides2dust]

And by becoming aware of this... I also recognize this
     >Every moment is an opportunity to become more alive to the present. The present is something we are hardly aware of- if we were, we'd feel the real magic and communion with God in ways that lift our physical bodies off the ground. Believe it.

I've been given taste of magic that is the present. As you can see, my ruminations and longings are not what is present. It shows me I have a long way to go. 

When I slow down and breathe... And remove these exterior longings, I am filled with a type of peace and understanding which brings me back into the magic that is the present- that is communion with the Beloved... The ideal partner... What a struggle its been, being the unique personality incarnate I am- and being gifted the unique host body I've been.

[tides2dust]

I've had crazy manifestations recently, things outside of my control... Power of attraction working through me/through others- Sharing, perfectly, seems to be of Gods Will.

Recent example I can give... I am taking an interest in investing.
So... At the coffee shop yesterday I met a fellow who is identical in age as me. Total stranger. He comes up and ask what I'm doing on my phone... We begin talking and after a couple hours of good exchange I learn he's been investing since he was 17 years old. We're 36 now.

But it's more than just being given a positive sign. A real exchange occurred. This is a good man with a very strong spirit shining through his eyes. Yet everything he was sharing with me was that he was just coming out of an all time low. He was raised on cruise ships. His sister kicked him out of the house he was in, and he ended up moving to a temporary stay in the ghetto waking up with two strangers standing over his bed. None of that deterred his spirit, and he was giving me really solid advice on investing. He shared all his wins and all his losses with me(and the story of his loss was quite humbling) and I watched him make accurate predictions in real time.

On the same day I met him- he ended up signing his renters agreement and moved into a really nice and peaceful place, away form the ghetto and was given a space to commit to and play with his investing knowledge and take on new gains.

In our exchange we talked about God, I learned he's a believer- and I got to share some Sufi wisdom with him too. I think we were destined to meet each other and exchange in a way that would be positive for the both of us.

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This occurred again today except I was that something of acknowledgment for someone else. I will try to explain what I mean. It was very interesting, I was beginning to feel a level of attraction and magnetism, I was beginning to feel very present and alive. Very focused in the moment and simultaneously overcome with a profound sense of comfort and wonder. That's when a customer walked in- we made pleasant exchange... I complimented him on his voice. It reminded me of the perfect radio voice. I told him he should seek a career in public speaking.

That's when he told me he's a pastor. There are some unique identifiers here as well that serve my interest and a sign that I am on the right path.
Prior to my meeting him I have been trying to learn Spanish. I've become a bit lazy in my efforts... But I think I need to get back on track with that... I see how I must align my energy with my will and greater desires. Anyways. He's a spanish pastor! And he was giving me advice on reading a spanish and english bible side by side. Another stranger to me... Someone that hadn't been in our store in a long time- and now he's here and helping me in my personal endeavors and I his.

As he was talking I was again inclined to say something else to him... "Maybe you should start a youtube channel, I really think you will do great."

This shocked him. He told me he just started his youtube channel- I was feeling great energy between us, so I told him I'd follow him and support him. He told me he was receiving a lot of inspiration in the moment. I told him it wasn't me... and he followed it up with it is the holy spirit.

So... Here's his channel if anyone would like to support this young man...
https://youtube.com/shorts/pTNQ2D4uycM?si=i6CxOv8tHLaDKCad

Really it is amazing... Today other people have confirmed to me a great feeling of Hope and Inspiration...

I shocked another customer later in the day. I didn't know why I was asking this woman how her recent move was. She asked me how I knew that? I thought she told me all that time ago(she hadn't been in the store for months) but apparently I was getting confused with someone else... And yet, it is true that this woman just moved recently so my confusion still served a purpose. But what's more? Our exchange served an even greater purpose. There were smiles and kind energies(the unspoken stuff) going on behind the scenes... Behind what was happening.

Many interesting things happening- strengthening... I have a lot to learn. I am grateful to God for this style of communication and teaching.