I began by mentally preparing myself, and then walking into the dark parts of my new house to sort of eliminate any type of fear. Then I meditated lying down in my dimly lit bedroom. After about an hour, I began to fall into the state between awake and asleepand then tried to feel my energy by sweeping over my body from head to toe. My mind was clear, and I began to achieve making my body feel like it was weightless (and it worked since I have done this for fun since I was a kid), and I did that for about 20 or 30 minutes? It is hard to perceive time when I am meditating.
Then something happened that I have never experienced before. I attempted to take all that energy I was feeling, that floating version of myself I felt, and rotate it forward, to sit it upright. My stomach was very warm at this point (an inside feeling, not warm skin, but from inside) and I began to feel very happy and excited at what I was doing, there was a great sense of comfort. I heard white noise in my ears, and my heart began to beat faster and faster and the sensation grew. I felt so overwhelmingly happy and good within minutes that I thought I was going to break through something, like something had to happen. My heart was pounding in my throat and the warmth had moved to the center of my chest (but was still in my stomach a bit) and it felt like pure happiness was inside me powering me, I cant explain it any other way.
I thought I was about to project and I kept trying to keep my mind clear from the distraction of all this excitement, but a fly came buzzing by me and landed on my face, and I felt it all melt away within 40 seconds or so. I was still in a nice in-between sleep and awake stage, but I couldnt reach the point I just did a few minutes ago. I went to bed so happy that night. I still dont know if I was about to project or what, but it felt like something amazing was building to happen, and I will be trying to reach that point again soon.
Does anyone have any advice or insight about my experience? I just want to understand what was happening and if I should try to do that again. (I will regardless, but it would be nice to know what I did) Thank you guys : )
Hello. It sounds like you are on the right track. Also, I am wondering if the pounding feeling in your chest was not your heart, but your heart chakra. I am guessing that the feeling was rather pleasant, and perhaps felt a little different to you than a normal heart beat. Anyway, even in a waking state, heart chakra activity can feel a lot like a heart beat. But, it does not come with increased breath/anxiety of normal high heart beat rates. Anyway, it sounds to me like you are doing well. I suggest that you try to do it again ... and, perhaps try to relax through it and not get over excited. :-) While this is big to you, it is a common step. So, chill out and go forward with it. Think of it as being parallel to being excited to drive your first car as a kid. Yes, very exciting at the time, but a small, albeit precious, step. Anyway, I don't mean belittle it. Its a great step, and can take you to great places ... just like your first car. Well, kind of like it. :-)