my first attempt at an obe--

[surgeline44]

was unsuccessful; but highly motivating, to be sure.

ive read up on all the material this past month, and felt fairly comfortable in giving it a shot.

to be quite honest, i expected to sit in my bed and have absolutely nothing occur; however, such was not the case.

i applied the relaxtion technique, and after that was over i sat there and cleared my mind; or, at the very least became an observer. soon, i felt the back of my head pulsating, as i concentrated on it, it became more intense. after a few moments my neck joined the party. slowly but surely my heart started up, and i litterly thought i was going to have a heart attack. it felt as though my heart was pounding out of my chest. my body became extremely heavy, as though  i sunk deep into my bed. ive never had this feeling in my life - i knew i had a body, but i was unable to feel it - i simply 'knew' it was there. my eyes started flickering uncontrollably. at this point i attempted the "climb the rope" process, but i couldnt concentrate hard enough. i kept ' seeing' the rope, rather than 'feeling' it. i also kept 'expecting what to expect' - the harder i tried to be passive, the more involved i became. i can tell this is going to be the major hurdle for me - any tips would be greatly appreciated. suddenly my eyes opened and i decided to abort - as i was exhausted at this point.

very cool experience. now i can assure myself i am on the correct road to having an obe - can't wait!

-rob