Hey everyone, it's me.Been a long time since I've been here since I had given up on astral projection and focused on other things that preoccupied my life for a while...I...didn't think this would ever happen again but...let me explain.
I went to sleep around 2 am after typing an essay...Suddenly I awoke. My room lay before me exactly as it is in the real world and everything was tinted a perfect blood red. A bizarre, completely devouring terror clutched me as I stared at my room. I had never felt this scared before ever I think. For some reason, every facet of my being was screaming that I had to leave.Escape.Don't know why, don't know what happened before but it just clutched me, an uncontrollable fear.I quickly whipped out of my bed, my soul going back into my body and the world snapping into normal night colors. In a matter of seconds I rushed toward my ceiling light and switched it on. Yellow filled the room and I felt a bit better yet my hard was beating like a hammer and I couldn't stop shaking. I couldn't go to sleep for 2 hours after that, traumatized of falling asleep again.
I can't say why I had that sudden fear but I'm sure I astral projected because when I last did so when I was 12, things were the exact same cept my vision was blue and misty and I was only confused. Something paralyzed me back then and I was scared but eventually that left and I wasn't too shaken up. This one was absolutely terryfying beyond comprehension.
Now to be fair my mind is pretty twisted from various forms of media combined with a very powerful imagination that I've had all my life. That's actually one of the reasons why I'm so scared to obe ever. I know I'd draw malicious and frightening constructs or spirits to me. I'm not as spiritual as I used to be so I feel very on my own in the astral. Even though it seems I always project to the RTZ straight from my body sitting up. I just feel lost and scared and i wish i had a guide but it seems they're no where to be found. Sometimes I wish i could be rid of my sporadic ability to astral project, other times I wish I were brave enough to master it. I'm just so...confused.
A college student with spirits, gpa's and dreams of rock life on his mind. How weird can ya get?
Anyway, I wanted to come to you all cause I know you all have better experience than I with such matters. Could it have been a spirit? Or just my mind going insane? Or maybe even a higher frequency being that made me feel terror. Please gimme your thoughts and also reccomend how I can fix myself...I just want my exploration free.
Much thanks,
Peter.
PS: I remember a strange figment of what might've been a dream before I projected? I saw the half moon up above outside my window as I stood and stared at it. The moon was slowly eclipsed by sheer, darkness and the only thing I could think was..."something horrible is coming." ...Told you I was messed up in the imagination.
Quote from: tetrabane on July 12, 2012, 02:54:44
Now to be fair my mind is pretty twisted from various forms of media combined with a very powerful imagination that I've had all my life.
Hello Peter, you said the reason why right here in this statement. Check out this video here, the part you want to listen to starts at the 1:00:00 hour mark and goes for 7 minutes.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lRar8IOwic8&feature=BFa&list=PLEB923BB17E5849A3&lf=plpp_video
Good Luck and Safe Travels! :-)
Hi,
When 12 your explanation matches what you should see initially.
Since then youve explored your world and the imagination took over, the result is a shift in reality. This not particularly with physical attributes local to you, but your state of mind. You noticed the difference with fear being unexplainably excessive. As the Astral is controlled by your mind and thoughts, anything in your thoughts appears in your surroundings. Thoughts=action and fear exacerbates this.
Welcome to the basic rule.
Learn this and take control. You'll never look back.
I'm gonna try to tackle my fears tonight. The fear i felt last night was so pure and immense, yet maybe because it was in it's purest form, no monster or deathly claw or disturbing being, whoever is guiding me knows that I can conquer the very concept of fear at this point but it'll take me a lot of trial. I've read on many people's fear tests and most seem to take form of specific trials. But to confront an essence...A powerful lesson indeed. Perhaps besides letting go, I'm being told that my fears are making me run away from the challenges I should be facing and that I shouldn't run when i'm alone cause I'll do the same when I'm trying to care for someone else....
I don't know if I will have an OBE for another few years or another few minutes.But I've developed a resolve to change and get past this. I can't simply wish away my obstacless like i so easily do in the physical world. It's time to be Brave I think...
Experience is the greatest teacher.
Thanks guys in advance.Will try to keep yall posted as I hope you all shall in sharing your wisdom and experience as well. It gives me hope :)
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Quote from: Lionheart on July 12, 2012, 03:51:38
Check out this video here, the part you want to listen to starts at the 1:00:00 hour mark and goes for 7 minutes.
Well, perhaps that helps someone, but at the same time you may need to
follow a lot of beliefs to take in all what Campbell says. You have to believe
that you're not in your body, you have to believe that your body is virtual,
you have to believe that your consciousness is not in your brain, you have
to believe that your brain doesn't really exist, you have to believe that
the physical reality doesn't actually exist either, etc.
A lot of beliefs. They could cause more harm.
Quote from: Pauli2 on July 12, 2012, 08:31:28
A lot of beliefs. They could cause more harm.
Very good point Pauli
Pauli, the only belief you have to have is what you "prove" to yourself to be true. This comes from experiencing it yourself, or confronting it yourself. :-)