Confused about my experiences

[kuurt]

I've been having more awareness during the dream state of being in the NP.  And that is because I have been trying to set the intention, before going to sleep each night, to travel to a friend. I am concerned about a friend that I haven't heard from in over two weeks. We normally talk on Messenger like every day (for the past couple years) so it is not like her to go this long without talking to me.  I'm worried that something bad might have happened, like maybe she got in a car accident or something.  So I have been trying to set the intent to AP to her before going to sleep, because I want to know if she's alright.  But, being new at this I am confused about my experiences, so I would like to see if any you experienced travelers can make sense of any of my confusions. I put those questions in bold. 

The night before last I became aware that I was in the NP. I remembered my intention to go check on my friend. She lives in the Philippines on the other side of the world.  I thought that if I try to fly or travel to her that I would probably end up waking up before I even get there, because it always seems like once you become lucid or aware you tend to wake up shortly after.  So instead I thought it would be best to just imagine myself at her house and be there instantly. I'm pretty sure i have traveled instantly like that in the past but the last couple of times I can't seem to make it happen - what is up with that?  Is there a reason for that?

Anyway, instead I saw a white fence. And I noticed that on the other side of this fence was a grave yard. Hopefully I saw that because I'm afraid something bad might have happened to my friend, and not because she's actually dead.  That would suck.

Suddenly, the next thing I'm aware of is standing in front of this blonde haired woman in another location. She seemed to be an important person and she had straight blonde hair. She says something about me having questions.  I said, "Who are you?".  She didn't answer but replied with a question of her own which was "how did you get here?"  I had no idea where I was, who she was, or how I got there.  I just appeared there for some unknown reason.  Why does that happen?  Why do we find ourselves in places and not know why we're there?

It was as if she knew who I was, but I didn't know her or at least didn't remember who she was.  I thought maybe I am seeing someone from a past life.  Sometimes I have experiences like that, that I think must be past lives, but yet how could I be interacting with someone in the past from the present?  Does anybody understand these types of experiences?

She said something like "I know you wanted to help, but it's too late, Atlantis is under attack" (or Atlantis is in trouble). She didn't say we were in Atlantis, but there was mention of Atlantis being in trouble or under attack.  Then I saw an image of this attack which was like seeing many lights in the night sky. As if i was seeing all this activity going on in Atlantis on a screen. 

At another point I happen to see myself as if I was seeing into a mirror. I looked different. my neck was all hairy like an animal although I appeared to be human. And I had some orange in my hair on the top of my head. 

At another point, that same woman starting communicating with me again, but this time it didn't seem face to face. It seemed like she was broadcasting a message to me from a distance. And I couldn't make out all that she said. Does that sound familiar to anyone - distant broadcasts?  What is that about? 

Was all of that just a dream? Or could it have been a communication from a past life acquaintance.  Could this blonde haired woman be my friend in a past life? Maybe that's why I appeared before her, because I had the intention of going to my friend (although I didn't mean to travel to a past life her). It didn't feel like a dream.  I was even aware of moving my astral arms and legs during the experience.
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Last night, I again set the intention to become aware that I'm in the NP so that I could travel to my friend and check on her again. This time when I become lucid I thought it best to actually travel to her, since teleporting to her didn't work the night before. Suddenly, it's as if I'm looking at a google earth-like map.  And just like Google earth, I intended to go to her house and it was like I was zooming into the map getting closer and closer to ground level - to her house. I didn't feel like I was flying this time. I have had experiences like that before, but this time it was like I was just looking at a map zooming in.  But, right before getting to ground level it turned black and I thought I had woken up. 

I was so frustrated, I was so sure I woke up and ruined my chance. Suddenly, I'm lying in a bed that I at first thought was mine.  I punched this thing on the headboard out of frustration because I thought I had awaken, but then I realized that I don't have a headboard and that it wasn't my bed. I thought maybe I was lying in my friends bed. I saw some details on this headboard that is hard to describe, but I know I could pick it out of a line up of pictures of beds if I saw it again. 

I seemed to be stuck on my right side, I couldn't move to get a good look around to see her.  That might have had something to do with that fact that my physical body was actually sleeping on my right side.  I saw something next to the bed.  I reached out to feel it because my vision was blurry. At first I thought it was a desk chair, but I think it must have been some kind of exercise equipment because it had like a pulley thing on the underside of the arm.  Then a person came around the bottom of the bed where I could see them and it startled the crap out of me, and I came out of the experience.  And I worry that someone might see me as an apparition or something.  I don't want to give anyway a heart attack? 

I'm pretty sure btw, that I'm unintentionally haunting my childhood home because I have had so many lucid dreams where I go back there for some reason.  I guess because I lived there for the first 16 years of my life, so it makes up a large part of my life. Is there anyway to make sure nobody can see me?

[EscapeVelocity]

Kuurt, you ask some complex questions. I will offer my opinion, but remember it is only that.

Why we don't receive answers sometimes or can't complete our destinations? It's beyond our knowledge, sometimes by purpose apparently. Our guides may be stopping us.

Your friend in SE Asia... The symbology doesn't strike me as good. But you may be right, it may be an overdramitization of some current issue. Maybe she's dealing with a loss and is shut down emotionally. The graveyard may be literal or it may indicate change, an old idea or viewpoint has died and been buried.

Honestly, the blonde haired woman strikes me as the introduction of a guide. Does she keep showing up? I don't get past-life, I get current teaching. Again, jmo.

Best regards,

EV

[kuurt]

Hadn't even occurred to me that the blond haired woman could be a guide, although I guess it's possible.  That's the first time I recall seeing her.  There was another time when I saw a woman in the NP that I thought might be a guide, but I don't think it's the same woman.  Although, both times it was as if they were communicating with me and I wasn't able to recall anything said later.     I hate that. 

If she was my guide though, why would she have asked me how I got there?  Wouldn't she have already known the answer to that? 

[EscapeVelocity]

Guides apparently take many shapes and sizes. Early in our experiences, they may represent our higher self or subconscious self sneaking little messages and hints to us. If it comes through as outright gibberish, I'd ignore it. The next is they say something half goofy and half serious, it can be hard to figure out whether you should be paying close attention to it. Personally, I think it is often your subconscious playing little jokes, like some forms of hypnogogia.

One thing to start looking for now that you are encountering characters, is to establish criteria for determining if they are real, independent beings or dream constructs. The more robotic their actions, the more monotone and simple their responses, they're likely dream characters. Also look closely at their eyes. What do you detect?

Whether the blonde was a dream character, a higher self guide, or a real-deal guide isn't really important; the question was a valid one. Think about that. If she was a real guide of course she knows how you got there. So what was her point in asking that question?

[Lionheart]

 This statement says it all "I've been having more awareness during the dream state of being in the NP".

What did you expect to happen when you started down this path?

I find it strange how people question something that they themselves initiated.

You have decided to learn AP. Well, congratulations, this is what happens wish to be more aware. Those questions have to be answered by you. Our answers for your questions would be based on what we "perceive" to be true. That's why you are experiencing this and we are not.

[kuurt]

What did I expect to happen when I started down this path?  Well, I didn't expect to understand everything right away.  But, all of my questions that I asked (which I put in bold), I figured were probably common experiences.  I just thought that more experienced Apers might have a better understanding than me about why some of these types of experiences happen.   

Here are the questions I asked.  I didn't mean for them to sound complex.  To me, they all sound like they're probably common experiences. 

Questions about struggling to teleport (traveling issues)
Finding ourselves in odd places and not know why we're there.  (I know I've seen some other posts on that one) 
Seemingly communicating with people from past lives.  (happened to me a few times - I can't be the only one)
Distant communication (not face to face)
Worrying about people seeing me while out of the body (don't want to freak them out)

[EscapeVelocity]

I wasn't complaining about the complexity of your questions, just commenting on the complexity of the experiences leading to them.
You've got a lot going on there!  

Why you can't simply teleport to your friend is a tough one. From your description, it should normally work. You know and have an affinity with this person, so that shouldn't be an issue. Her circumstances however might indicate that something or someone is preventing you from traveling there.you could try and ask for a clarifying sign or dream.

Ending up in unexpected places--- At some point in our travels, this begins happening. What possible reasons can you come up with?

Past life people---Why do you think past life? Is it because you feel a certain familiarity with the person? If they are past life, what could that indicate?

Distant broadcasts--- In the NPR, communication does not have to be face to face or with words.

Being seen--- The only people who might see you or sense you are going to be the psychically-sensitive ones. I wouldn't worry about it much. You might startle a dog or a cat, now and then.

[kuurt]

I intended to travel to my friend Ellen to make sure she's alright, but instead ended up in front of the blonde haired woman.  The only reason I can come up with for suddenly appearing in front of this blonde haired lady is that maybe she was my friend Ellen in a previous life, and for some reason I accidentally traveled to her in another time (not sure if that kind of thing happens).  Or perhaps she was a guide who's not doing her job. 

The reason I think past life is because there was mention of Atlantis, plus any time I appear different looking in a dream or NP experience, I always consider that it could have been a past life.  Although, I realize that time is an illusion and so all of our lives are actually happening simultaneously, they still seem to be sequential to us. 

I guess I need to let go of that fear that people are going to see me.  It's just that if they happen to see you suddenly appear while they are driving or something it could cause an accident. I'm definitely not psychically sensitive.  I have lived in a house that was haunted at one point.  I could sense a presence, but I never saw it.  I also worked in a restaurant where employees and customers have reported seeing ghosts in there.  But, I never saw them, as badly as I wanted to.  I even looked around for them.   I have seen my dog's astral body on a couple of occasions while he was sleeping though.  But, only for a brief second out of the corner of my eye.  Maybe that's why I fear someone my see me and freak out.

[Szaxx]

You are learning and translocation is an art in itself. You require as many precise details as possible time is an Earthly issue and will distort the destination. There's another big issue too, that's within your subconcious. Most attempts are just that, attempts. They have the try and see if... about them. This is an almost certain fail. In the old system of travelling you have to command your intended destination. This gives it a very strong purpose and the level of intent required to command your desires should be off the scale. You wsnt this to happen then put your life on the line. It gives results.
Mindset, intent and determination are paramount. Fear, doubts and a weak mindedness are useless.
Even in the physical, a strong minded person gets what they want. This isn't always good for them as many have found out. It's also made many into millionaires.
Tact is required, this applies to both worlds.
Your subconcious also has a say in where you end up. This one is very difficult to solve quickly. A permanent desire with enough intent will aid you tremendously,.doubt your ability once and you need to start again.
I hope this puts things into a clearer perspective.
I was waiting for you to work it out for yourself.

[kuurt]

I have no doubt that you have to have a strong purpose and level of intent, since I had to keep repeating my intent over and over to myself before falling asleep.  I have tried to do it again the following nights but have failed.  I think that's because I didn't build up my intent like I did the first two nights.  I had a much stronger desire the first two nights.  I think that by repeating my intention over and over like an affirmation before falling asleep, it helps to get the message to the subconscious so it will make it happen for me - make me aware when I'm in the NP that I'm in the NP. 

I noticed you mention "the old system of traveling".  Is there a new system of traveling that is perhaps easier? 

Xanth describes 3 levels of awareness that we experience in the NP - dream awareness, lucid awareness, and astral awareness.  You mentioned that our subconscious also has a say in where we end up.  That got me wondering if that is true in all 3 of those levels of awareness or is that just the case in dream awareness and sometimes lucid awareness?  Clearly the case in dream awareness.  And I have had lucid dreams where I had some control but not complete control.  But, what about in astral awareness.  Maybe we never fully have control, I suppose the subconscious even effects our experience while we're awake. 

[Szaxx]

The old system was taught over 100 years ago and was deliberately made complicated by those teaching it. You had to be a member of 'the society' or evil things would happen. We know this isn't true but back then these people charged for the information and twisted the truth.
The subconcious has control when you are normally sleeping, it's believed to be responsible for the content of your dreams. As you are not fully concious, the you thats fully in control during the day is active slightly during a dream, moreso in a lucid dream and when projecting it can be 100% in control. Anything less than 100% gives way to your subconcious performing actions that it sees as appropriate.
This can interfere with destinations and actually getting out at times. It's a mix of the two and programming the subconcious by repeated afgirmations ect is one way to get some aid in what you wish to experience.