Hello everyone!
OK, well, basically everything I am about to tell you about took place early in the morning. It all started when I first started to awake early in the morning, around like 6 a.m. I had woken up from a very good dream, where I was with all of my friends, and we were just having a good time. So it was one of those times, when you wake up smiling because your dream was so good, only to realize you can't go back in your fantasy because you have work/school, and you have to get up in 3 MINUTES! Well, luckily for me, it's Saturday! Anyway, so I went back into my dream, and I'd wake up now in then in a dreamy sort of state to go pee, or whatever. I'd wake up like every maybe 20 - 40 minutes or so, and kind of just think about how good it feels to lay in bed in light covers with the fan blowing on you, just enjoying the feeling of pure relaxation.
Well, every time I would wake up, I would realize my dreams were getting stranger and stranger, and were no longer the ones with my friends, but they were getting more detailed. For example, me becoming a worm and playing soccer in one of my tunnels, but it was different because I could kick the ball and it would go on the ceiling, then everyone would sigh, because that meant we would have to reverse gravity again, which took a few minutes. So about 30 minutes before I am writing this, I woke up to the relaxing state again, and went back to sleep. It's funny because right before I did this, I recalled this is how I had my first OBE.
So I started dreaming again, but this time it was DIFFERENT. I sort of somehow became aware of what I was doing, and it kind of unfolded to the point of me realizing I was in a dream like state, but laying in my bed somehow. I started to hear this intense ringing like someone was crashing 1,000 musical triangles in my ear. And then everything went silent, probably because I was slipping deeper into sleep. I started to hear a voice that sounded like an old jazz player talking or something. And I kind of thought to myself... "What is that"? And of course, the voice answered, saying " Well, I'm your subconscious mind, nice to meet you". At first I was shocked because by now I was fully conscious, and I couldn't believe this was happening! "It" then said " Nice to meet you, I know we don't get to meet that often being that your conscious mind is so picky and protective about where YOU go". I was still in disbelief because I could sense that I was laying in my bed, but I was having this unbelievable conversation. I then said " Am I going crazy or something"? And "It" responded saying "Of course not, here, I'll prove it to you, listen as I let you feel and hear what I do all day, and everyday". And right when he said that, I could feel all of a sudden that I was in control of my heart beat/ breathing/ oxygen regulation/ cell movement/ everything that I normally am not aware of going on in body. It was so OVERWHELMING, I screamed for it to end right away. "It" said " Alright, now do you see why I like to get away sometimes?". OF COURSE I DID!
"It" then asked me something weird, "It" said, "OK, so now that your conscious mind is asleep, how about me and you go away for a while, huh?". I then immediately got what "It" meant. All of a sudden I felt this huge SHOCK of energy SURGE through my body. I am telling you right now, all the times I have "thought" I have felt vibrations, I was wrong! For anyone that has never felt them, YOU WILL KNOW! It was like someone turned on some internal 9,000 watt engine in my body, connecting it to every atom, and charging it to full power. I could hear it too, it was like the buzzing of a million mosquito zappers all at once, but constant. At first I was scared, but I decided to go with it. I could hear my subconscious mind laughing like a madman, and I started to hear the intense ringing again, and children laughing like they were right next to me. I could feel a wind blowing across my body, and I started to see my room come together like bits of a puzzle. I then started to have that uncanny, "I'm about to leave my body" feeling. You know the feeling when your on the verge of leaving ,and everything else seems like it never happened, and anything besides you leaving isn't important? It's a very weird feeling, it sends tingles down my body every time I have projected, but this was the first time I have consciously done it, so the feeling was more intense. I started to get that familiar butterfly in my stomach feeling, and the same feeling in my limbs. I was just lying there, waiting for it to happen, and it did, I rolled out like an alligator for like seriously, half of a second, and I felt like I couldn't breathe or something, so I was SNAPPED back into my body like a whip. I woke up, at first, shocked that this had all happened, it felt like I was being reborn or something.
OK, so basically that is my story, lol. Sorry if it was long, I just thought it was interesting. And the weird thing is, the more that I think about it, I think I remember having multiple OBE'S during the night, from my dreams. I just remember having that uncanny butterfly in your stomach happy feeling many times during the night, lol. The only thing that stopped me during this projection was the feeling that I couldn't breathe. It was like I was drowning? Any suggestions or comments on what I should have done?
Thank you very much!
Tony
Has anyone else had an experience like this?
I often experience the "mind-talkingness" in that relaxed state. Some of it I do believe is subconscious, however, it has never said "I am". But a lot of that talking does not seem to be, for me. A lot of it is in different energetic patterns and voices. They usually comment on whatever I am currently thinking or feeling..or will burst in with a completely new thought." It use to be alarming at first. With practice, meditation, and time, you will experience this quite often.
Wow... A follow up to my first post : Well, I just came back from a projection, and I experienced the same thing as I did in the first post, only this time I just rode the vibrations out, and let my legs and hands POP out of my body, then kind of rolled out. This was my first really conscious projection, because all of the other times I have projected, I haven't experienced the vibrations or the projection signs, I was more or less, just OUT.
So I let the intense buzzing just shoot through my body, and I felt my feet and legs pop out, and my arms pop out, by that time, I knew what was happening, and rolled out as I said. At first I wasn't sure if I was out or not, but as soon as I got that weird feeling of uneasy happiness, I knew I was. I tried that writing on your thumb technique that someone posted recently, I wrote a C on my thumb, but when I tried to look at it, it looked like a bunch of dots, not a C. During my projection I kind of just floated around, making it to the expressway and sitting inside peoople's cars. It was fun, because I would hand from the overhead exit signs, and "drop" into the car. Sometimes I would miss, but if I did, I would just speed up, match their speed and get in.
People are right when they say flying is hard to get used it. It's more of a struggle, like I would jump off the ground, go up 30 feet, then come down. Oh, and during this projection, I found out that I can still be scared of heights in the astral. I was balancing on a construction site at the very top, and jumped off, it was scary! lol
So that was my projection this morning, so far, 2 days in a row I have woken up with vibrations. So, hopefully tomorrow will be the third.
Tony
that talk with your subconscious sounds so cool! did its voice sound like you do? A cool idea would be to ask him about an obscure fact you learnt in school/uni/job but forgot about and see if he remembers stuff you dont?
an that dream with the worms gave me a laugh.
be sure to tell us if he decides to speak to you again!
awesome.. I had a similar experience minus the complete obe. I had a very lucid dream and many more dreams and a partial obe and the next night i had a dozen or so dreams and one lucid and here is tonight but tonight ive been drinking alcohol so I dont know. Ill try to do something and I always say my mantra before I go to sleep and ive learned to sleep on my back finally. I can meditate and get very far this way. On my side I just pass out but on my back I can get very far into meditation and calmness and understanding. I can control everything. I can also forget about everything. I am pretty trashed though right now so maybe ill wait a few hours to sober up. Cool stuff man I love reading about first experiences. I dont see them enough. Keep in touch.
Perhaps it's possible to be aware of ourselves with different perspectives, and you just happened to experience yourself with a broader one. Even though it was more expansive than usual, it still seems kind of body oriented.
I don't think I'd want to be conscious of every little thing that goes on within my body. What I experience is enough. I'd rather experience myself as a conscious/energy being that is beyond the body.
At times I guess, it's good to limit our awareness. Imagine that. :D
Dear Milk,
Curious, but not as much as you could think. Your subconscious mind is talking to you continuously in non direct and direct ways. Those thoughts which suddenly pop up in your head, that bitter behaviour when you're unconfortable, those unknown ways of speaking in certain situations,...
Remember that, and according to moderm psychology, our subconscious minds amass the 90% of the total mind measure and they control the most involuntary physiological and psychological aspects of ourselves.
Anyway, in some texts related to well known esoterical societies, as the famous Golden Dawn, I have found information about what is called: talk with the higher self, which I have always supposed it is the communion between conscious and subconscious mind. They commented some cases in which several saints spoke directly, I mean consciously, with their subconscious minds, just as you did asleep.
Being awake there are several ways to talk to your sub, too. Take a pendulum and ask your subconscious which movements it choses to say yes and no, and then go on asking it. This is an ideomotion technique, as they're also: automatic writing and the like (no relationship with spiritism or the like). I've been practicing for years with the pendulum and I've had interesting information about my mind and how my inner organs work (do remember that all automatic organic functioning is directed by it, too) to fix some minor health troubles.
So, even if you're awake now your sub is listening, so you both could negotiate a communication protocol to dig in your relationship.
Man... i loved your experience. That's cool, just kicking it with your subcons.... so your's a old jazz player, wonder what mine is... lol
That sounds real cool though. Can't wait til some crazy stuff like that happens to me man.... been 2 years now and no obe still....