First Fumblings

[Ident]

Hi everyone. I had an experience many years ago when I caught myself dreaming and willed myself to go visit a girlfriend in another country. I found myself in a room long enough to look around before the sound of my mother calling me summoned me back. I sent her a letter (before email existed!) and she said that I'd accurately described her bedroom. It also turned out that my mother hadn't called me back.

Anyway, that was long ago and I've only recently regained an interest. I've been listening to the Monroe HemiSync discs and have had several instances of high-frequency whole-body vibration and one instance of vibration accompanied with a feeling of being wrapped in "webbing". Sadly, I've not been able to take them any further but I think that's okay for only a couple of weeks of trying.

Last night I had two instances of "Mind Awake, Body Asleep" during the night, while I was asleep. I dismissed the first one, since I really thought that I had woken up, and simply lost consciousness again. On the second one it occurred to me that I really wasn't awake, despite the fact that I could feel my body.

I found myself in an apparently featureless greyness and willed myself to a recently deceased loved one, whilst also calling for her. I suspect, however, that I was doing more calling than willing. I felt myself moving within the greyness for a while but nothing more. At some stage, I found myself feeling angry and frustrated and decided that "this is all fake, a huge con" and elected to will myself awake by way of proof that I wasn't already awake. I awoke with a gasp of air.

I'd expect to feel more disappointed in myself than I do, so I have to assume that I really did need the "proof" that it wasn't simply a dream, by willing myself awake from there. I don't know why I felt the anger.

I invite comments and suggestions.

[Summerlander]

Hi everyone. I had an experience many years ago when I caught myself dreaming and willed myself to go visit a girlfriend in another country. I found myself in a room long enough to look around before the sound of my mother calling me summoned me back. I sent her a letter (before email existed!) and she said that I'd accurately described her bedroom. It also turned out that my mother hadn't called me back.

This is very typical of visits during the OOBE-state. It seems like in the state we are able to get the gist of what the visited are doing in actuality, OR/AND, we are able to see what is in their minds (imagination/dreams/thoughts). These experiences can prove to be telepathic as they usually make more sense to the visited than the visitor.

I found myself in an apparently featureless greyness and willed myself to a recently deceased loved one, whilst also calling for her. I suspect, however, that I was doing more calling than willing. I felt myself moving within the greyness for a while but nothing more. At some stage, I found myself feeling angry and frustrated and decided that "this is all fake, a huge con" and elected to will myself awake by way of proof that I wasn't already awake. I awoke with a gasp of air.

My friend, I can be quite sceptical but here's a piece of advice: whatever you think or believe you can do in that state, just DO it because all is possible there. I have contacted my deceased stepfather several times. Whether it is really him or not, I don't know, but, once he provided me with some information which checked out in reality and this seems to provide me with a validation. Of course, there are other explanations to be considered other than real contact with the dead but the experience is whatever you make of it. If you want to believe that it really happened so be it.

More often than not...and I've said this before...such experiences deliver results whilst bringing more questions than answers at the same time. But then again, we also have a lot of unanswered questions about the physical world we inhabit...

[Ident]

Questions tend to be good things, since they are an indication of events having transpired which were not anticipated. They lead to fresh knowledge or to fresh understandings of our lack of knowledge. To be utterly honest, it's the passing of my loved one which has re-ignited interest in trying to enter astral or etheric focii.

Thanks for your response.

[Tee1234]

Questions tend to be good things, since they are an indication of events having transpired which were not anticipated. They lead to fresh knowledge or to fresh understandings of our lack of knowledge. To be utterly honest, it's the passing of my loved one which has re-ignited interest in trying to enter astral or etheric focii.

Thanks for your response.

Thats a powerful feeling to want to see a loved one that has passed. I to have been successful in making this happen as well.
The motivation you get from this will not be satisfied until your successful at making contact. For me, I also got validation enough to believe it was real, but even if it wasnt, Just the opportunity to interact with this person is enough gratification for me.

GL, I hope u succeed.

[Summerlander]

Well said, Tee1234.

[Ident]

... I to have been successful in making this happen as well ...

The surge of excitement I got at reading this was gratifying. I feel that it has to happen for me, else... Well, I cannot countenance any "else".

The motivation you get from this will not be satisfied until your successful at making contact. For me, I also got validation enough to believe it was real, but even if it wasnt, Just the opportunity to interact with this person is enough gratification for me.

GL, I hope u succeed.

Many thanks and I agree on the aspect of motivation. I'm also studying mediumship. The proxy-writings of Conan Doyle and the Rev. Owen have been very interesting alongside those of Monroe.