curious but scared

[tod]

Hey everyone first post 

I lucid dream every so often and also astral travel, but i always thought when i astral travel it was a lucid dream, i now know the difference because i had a lucid dream in the morning and i astral traveled later that night.

Basically when i astral travel i have sleep paralysis and i just roll out my body but when i am out my body it is very scary. Last night i had a migraine when i fell asleep i realized SP, it felt as if someone was pushing my head into my pillow hard but then suddenly it stopped and i rolled out my body. When i was out i saw a little girl looking at me kind of in ghost form. i was scared so i tried to strangle her but fell straight through her. i then continued to to through my house cause i could hear my mom and gran but i could not see them any where. i then saw this figure in the kitchen i could not tell if it was my mom or gran or a stranger, it was a old black lady. i shouted at her demanding where my mom was and she told me it was to late and started coming towards me so i grabbed a knife and tried to cut her and run  .  i then walked out my front door and flew up into the air but i could not go high up only to my rooftop. i then flew past some real life kids walking in the street.

When i astral travel it is very dark there is hardly any light only from the stars and moon, it is always night time. It feels as if i am in hell and this really scares me. If i look in a mirror my face is a wreck,my eyes look terrible very droopy and bloodshot, i look somewhat dead.

I can always just think back to my body and roll out at any time to kind of restart the experience but i cant wake up.
This is also affecting my sleep because i am scared to fall asleep now

so here my questions:
1) Why is it so dark and evil atmosphere, why is there no light.
2) Why cant i fly high
3) How can i have more confidence.
4) What is the point of astral travel, its very intriguing
5) i cant see my body or a "silver cord"

[Lionheart]

 You are experiencing what most people do during their first OBE's. Fear, fear will control your entire experience if you allow it to. You must confront the fear to be able to get past this stage. Your experience with the knife wielding old black lady has left you PHYSICALLY unscathed, remember that. You could have easily turned that knife into a bouquet of flowers or a toilet roll, anything that would be non-threatening would have worked. In the Astral thought =action, if you show fear, then fearsome things you will find. If you hear a door creak, it likely will manifest a scenario of what you fear the most being behind that creaking door. When it is dark, ask for "clarity now", that should clean up your view a bit. Deepening the experience by using your senses touch, hear, smell etc. will also help in this. You can fly, you just have to handle the other things first. Confidence will come with practice and success. I have never seen a "silver cord" either. I have seen physical parts of my body though, like arms, hands, legs and feet.
Congratulations you have made it through your first experience. May you have many more, but enjoyable ones this time!
Good Luck and Safe Travels 

[CFTraveler]

Hey everyone first post

Hi Tod.  Nice to meet you.

When i astral travel it is very dark there is hardly any light only from the stars and moon, it is always night time.

When you first start projecting you usually end up in the RTZ (etheric).  Since it's a replica of the physical it will be dark if it's nighttime.  So project in the morning (or at daybreak) and it'll break the pattern you have inadvertently fallen into.

I can always just think back to my body and roll out at any time to kind of restart the experience but i cant wake up.
This is also affecting my sleep because i am scared to fall asleep now

Doing it in the early morning will also help with this.

so here my questions:
1) Why is it so dark and evil atmosphere, why is there no light.

I already answered this.

2) Why cant i fly high

Because your mood is literally 'bringing you down'.  Fear will keep you where you are until you get over it.  Also try doing energy work.  This might help with the navigation.  Also, remember that you don't have 'astral eyes'- that your energy body is like radar, and the information it receives is purely energetic- so what you see is what your vehicle sees, and this is influenced by how you feel physically.  The migraine could have caused some of the problems, I know that when I have headaches (I get migraines too) my projections are not as fun and I don't have control of the vehicle either.

3) How can i have more confidence.

Every time you project, every time you have a negative experience, and come back unscathed, is evidence that there is nothing to fear, and that fear itself is a barrier you have to overcome- once this becomes true to you (as in, you realize you are safe) it becomes easier, and the easier psychologically it is for you, the more fun it is, and even meaningful.

4) What is the point of astral travel, its very intriguing

You said it- it's possible and doable, so why not do it?  I can give you a list of benefits but I think that just doing the practices (energy work, meditation) that go hand to hand with it are beneficial in many ways- and self examination is the most important benefit, IMO.

5) i cant see my body or a "silver cord"

I have never seen a silver cord, I personally don't believe in one.  My worldview regarding OBEs is not tied to other's interpretations- I have seen my own body (a few times, but not always) but I think the silver cord is a poetic way to describe the fact that you are always connected.  But since in the projection state the subjective is objectified, it doesn't surprise me that some people do see it.

Edit:  Looks like we cross posted.  Hi Lionheart.