Hello, all. From what I recall, regarding my past experiences with out of body travel and lucid dreams, one thing stands out: Every time I did so I felt strangely safe - By which I mean confident, and disregarding any restraint. However, the real world has done it's damage and, despite all attempts, things have become very difficult. I remember my first lucid dream, and some afterwards... I'll describe varying scenarios, and perhaps you or I will find a pattern.
My first lucid dream (ever).: I only just realized it was a lucid dream about 3 years after I had it; It involved a tornado outside my house, and, because I've never had a tornado around my house, and wasterrified of them, I immediately wanted to wake up - but I had a moment of clarity, like, "wait a minute. There's never been a tornado around here, there can't be." There was a blond haired boy standing inside my washing machine, and I did not know him. I told him I don't know him and he replied "yes you do." (Could this have been another form of me? Like, my higher self?). I remember running upstairs to tell my parents about the tornado, and then I saw four rocking chairs in my living room. My grandfather was in the one on the right, and some other relatives were in the other three. I remember being drawn up out of my house and into the gray, dark sky, and everything turning cartoon-ish and fading to black. I woke up and experienced slight buzzing and paralysis. Then it was over, and for the next 2 years I was able to lucid dream on command.
My second / third Lucid Dream.: I was in my basement (Which for some reason is where I always started them) and my friend ( not really anymore, we just stopped hanging out) was over. She lit a candle, and said "Watch". I watched as she manipulated the flame and threw it around like a ball. I tried, and somewhat succeeded. In my third dream, I was able to do this with more skill (Development of mental energy, possibly?)
My fourth lucid dream happened two years ago; I was at school, and I fell asleep (in my dream), and had a dream inside my dream, which was lucid. But, due to the layers of tiredness, I was only able to achieve mild lucidity.
I have not had another experience ever since - until recently, which you can read in my previous posts, where I "phased" for a while. During these "phases" I experienced the same kind of confidence and doubtlessness mentioned above.
I should also mention that I read part of "The Fireside Treasury of Light". Great book, but one thing grabbed my attention. I will now describe it.
For some reason, fall of 08 to spring of 09 was the best time I've ever had in my life EVER, but it did not revolve around any specific event. It was just there... Almost immediately after that, I became interested in spirituality.
The book said, basically, "People report having "peak experiences", in which their life seems perfect or untouched. Once this feeling wears out, they become interested in the brain and spirit."
And after seeing this, I was like... O_O!
THAT'S EXACTLY WHAT HAPPENED TO ME!! :D
And now I'm here, typing this for you, and hoping for a response that will help me to possibly achieve that doubtless confidence that I had before.
-Don
Please reply?! lol...
Hmm... perhaps I missed something in your post.
What is it that you are doubting, and how do you feel this is holding you back?
It's the fear factor, I guess... or doubt that has arisen that "I can't do it anymore because my mind has closed." I'm going to try it tonight, and I was just asking for your assurance that it will go okay, because for some reason random people's assurance means a lot to me... :D
Ah, I see.
Well, to that, I would tell you that you don't need to forget your doubt, as your doubt will not hold you back. Instead, you must rather strongly believe in the possibility.
What if someone told you that they could walk through brick walls, and then demonstrated this to you?
When you went to try yourself following them, of course you would have doubt that you were going to smush your nose up against an unmoving surface. But if you were going to do it at all, you would also need to believe it was possible, or else you wouldn't try at all. You probably wouldn't slam into the wall merely because a small part of you expected you might, but you would definitely not try at all if you did not believe it was at least possible.
Quote from: donzieja on March 13, 2011, 03:43:30
It's the fear factor, I guess... or doubt that has arisen that "I can't do it anymore because my mind has closed."
It is very important to keep an attitude of "Lets see what happens" or "I wonder if this is possible, lets see" or "Is it so difficult, let me try", and let the thing happen. Take it as a game, but a very important game, as if it must be done.
Too much anxiety , too much want and too much of any emotion will block you. Taking it too lightly or halfheartedly will also not work. Balance is the keyword...
Of course you can dissect bisect and postmortem your experience
after it has happened, but judging it before or during will most likely end it.