Mental Disorder

[Dragon #103]

Hello again. I hope that I am not posting too often. I'd hate to be an annoyance to anyone.

I've had this irrational fear for eight years which disallows me to feel safe while alone. I can not be in a room by myself without having to (and frequently) look over my shoulder. I do this because I fear someone may be sneaking up behind me with a knife or a gun.
The killer I imagine sneaking up on me looks a lot like the killer from the movie Scream 3. This is the movie I watched when I was in grade 3, and that's when this fear began. For some reason, it has never gone away, and as strange as it may seem any horror movies I see now seem really cheesy and tawdry to me despite my fear.

All of the trance inducing techniques I've heard of require that I close my eyes for a long period of time, yet my fear makes me open my eyes to check beside the bed, or in the closet to make sure nobody is there, breaking whatever progress I have made.

I've been to many doctors, and tried a few different kinds of medication: Melatonin, Resperadol, and now I am using 2.5 mg of a mood stabilizer like Serotonin. Each one helps with the fear, but as a tradeoff, they reduce my ability to think or feel emotion, which I don't want, I'd rather have the fear. Yet I still beleive that there is a way for me to get rid of my fears without having to make compremises by reducing my mental or creative ability in some way. I don't think I will be too successful with OBEs while I have this fear.

What should I do?

Thanks!

[The Present Moment]

Would you still turn around if you had a mirror in front of you, reflecting what is behind? You could also put tinfoil down on the floor so the noise would wake you if someone stepped on it.

[Novice]

You could also meditate with your eyes open. This can be done while staring at an object (flower, picture of nature scene, whatever) or you could simply stare in to space at nothing. Your eyes do not need to be closed to meditate. In fact, you do not need to be still to meditate either. There are moving meditations, from simply walking to tai chi.

[green_fairy]

Hello again. I hope that I am not posting too often. I'd hate to be an annoyance to anyone.

I've had this irrational fear for eight years which disallows me to feel safe while alone. I can not be in a room by myself without having to (and frequently) look over my shoulder. I do this because I fear someone may be sneaking up behind me with a knife or a gun.
The killer I imagine sneaking up on me looks a lot like the killer from the movie Scream 3. This is the movie I watched when I was in grade 3, and that's when this fear began. For some reason, it has never gone away, and as strange as it may seem any horror movies I see now seem really cheesy and tawdry to me despite my fear.

All of the trance inducing techniques I've heard of require that I close my eyes for a long period of time, yet my fear makes me open my eyes to check beside the bed, or in the closet to make sure nobody is there, breaking whatever progress I have made.

I've been to many doctors, and tried a few different kinds of medication: Melatonin, Resperadol, and now I am using 2.5 mg of a mood stabilizer like Serotonin. Each one helps with the fear, but as a tradeoff, they reduce my ability to think or feel emotion, which I don't want, I'd rather have the fear. Yet I still beleive that there is a way for me to get rid of my fears without having to make compremises by reducing my mental or creative ability in some way. I don't think I will be too successful with OBEs while I have this fear.

What should I do?

Thanks!

i know how you feel, I've been scared for years ever since i saw the movie, the exorsist.
i think im going to be possesed. Im on lots and lots of medication and the medication helps, i had the same problem with feelings in the beginning i felt less and less almost nothing. but now im on other medications and im not empty and neutral anymore. i feel good, but i still have problems. with or without medication you have to work on your problems. go to therapy people with ocd and social anxiety do it and get well, and if they can you can do it too , trust me.
I don't know a lot about magic or meditation but you should find a big thick three you like and sit with your back against it for a while and try to feel how it calms you down.
Threes always make me feel safe, it's like getting a big hug from someone that says: i know you like me and i like you too and there is nothing you can do to change that.
Kind of like how a pet like or love you.
You should find a way to feel calm  and to take back the control again the first step is to
Realize that your fear is a disease or if you don't see it that way a irrational fear. which you know, so jippieyay for you (hehe)
  Try to imagine that this someone is holding a flower or rubber knife or is dressed in pink. And tell him/her or think that your telling him/her your not dangerous cause your just a pink elephant with a stupid rubber knife. My psychologist told me that once and i was filled with doubt but it helped at least a little bit. You may never loose this fear you may have it for a very long time but it can get better, and it will if you are willing to make it so. so dont give up

good luck

[Athelstone]

Problems such as this can be solved very readily with the aid of a professional hypnotherapist. Using drugs to suppress irrational fears is not the answer.

My advice is to put aside your Astral endeavours for the time being and deal with this issue once and for all. Don't delay by trying to resolve this all by yourself. With the help of a skilled hypnotherapist you can be rid of this problem with relative ease.

If you are near the London area, I can recommend one of the best hypnotherapists in England to you. Whichever hypnotherapist you decide to see, be sure that he does more than simply put you in a trance and give you superficial suggestions. If you have had this problem for a number of years, regression will most likely be necessary in order to ascertain the original cause of the fear, so that your conscious mind can better understand it. Suggestions may only then effectively be given once the cause is understood.

[Dragon #103]

Thank you, everybody, for your time and concern! ^..^ -Hugs-