Last night i could see while having my eyes closed?

[marc7654]

Hey,

My name is Marc and i'm totally new to this forum and i got a question. Let me explain:

I had never heard of Astral Projection before until one night i woke up at 3:00 sawing spiders on the moment i opened my eyes, i had done a research the next morning and people said it where sleep hallucinations, a sleeping desease, but that is not what i believe because i never had something like this before. So i managed to found someone experiencing the same thing, his biggest fear was also spiders and is also my biggest fear.
Someone helped him towards it and he said something about Astral Projection. So i wanted to found out more and i managed to find someone telling me: Did you ever wonder why you could see this spiders in the middle of the night? So when reading this i was like WTF that's true, i was seeing them in total darkness, i saw their full texture while it was dark. When i smashed the spider and ran towards the light switch the spiders where gone and that was my first weird experience at night.

So learning more about astral projection i found this weird but simple kind of method to astral project. I had to be really really tired and had to concentrate on something whichever i like. So i concentrated on my breathing and didn't concentrate too deep because otherwise i would get itching problems and that sucked, because the man said i shouldn't move my body. He said you are tricking the brain to think your body is asleep and then you are able to step out of your physical body. So trying this method i was starting to tingle and prickle, it started at my feet moving upwards and it stopped at my stomach. It became very uncomfortable so i stopped and went to sleep.

Now yesterday evening i wanted to try it again because i was facinated about the tingling and prickling which i heard was common. so i went to the tingling and prickling point and then i got these weird pulses, my fingers wanted to move and my toes wanted to. it's like some kind of Tourette, some kind of tics... then it felt like i was floating, not really floating but just a bit, really hard to explain. I heard a guy saying:

You can concentrate on the colors and shapes you see in the darkness when you have your eyes closed. So i did, seeing very small weird shapes, like playstation symbols moving towards me. and then at that moment! i totally got something like 'SUCKED' inside of the total darkness. the darkness you see when you have you eyes closed i mean with that. After that, i could see like a very small black hill. i started to move my head and realized it wasn't a hill but it was my 'blanket' i also realized i got my damn eyelids closed and could still see everything. Then i suddenly got very terrified and i was totally back...

My mother had something also, she told me when she goes sleeping on the middle of the day when she is very tired. she sometimes gets paralysed. she cannot say or move everything. she goes back to sleep and when she wakes up everything is fine.

So what could this be? is this normal or is this my way to astral projection.

Thanks in advance.

[Sagar]

Welcome to the Pulse! 

my fingers wanted to move and my toes wanted to.

My idea for why your fingers/toes want to move is its really a test.  Your mind is testing your body to see if its asleep or not.  Its hard, but if you refrain from moving, you'll get into a nice trance of mind awake, body asleep - at least for me.

I heard a guy saying:  You can concentrate on the colors and shapes you see in the darkness when you have your eyes closed.

Hearing spirits talk to me while meditating is how I found my spirit guide so give that some thought 

i also realized i got my damn eyelids closed and could still see everything.

Seeing through closed eyelids - that's something I had for the first time last night.  I was told it could possibly be really advanced hypnogogic images.

Then i suddenly got very terrified and i was totally back...

Don't get terrified.  Fear is your worst enemy, and there's nothing that can hurt you.  Early  on, most people get a fear test.  As far as my experiences go, when there's something to be terrified of, it's not actually there.  Your higher self/spirit guide/ is testing you so you can evolve spiritually.  Based on my experience, the reason you got pulled back, was because you got scared and failed the test. 
I didn't have my first lucid AP until I conquered my fears in not so lucid projections ("dreams")

she sometimes gets paralysed. she cannot say or move everything. she goes back to sleep and when she wakes up everything is fine.

Yes, sleep paralysis.  That is a result of your mind being awake and your body being asleep.


I actually don't think you projected.  I think the floating you felt was an effect of the heavy trance you were in from the mind awake, body asleep.
But, I'd say keep doing what you're doing.  You sound very very close to me

[Bluefirephoenix]

focus on the man  who was helping you.he can help you more than anyone. Hes probably a guide and can see what your doing. 

[marc7654]

Thanks both of you this really helped a lot. Just got one small question, i was seeing these spiders right? Are these 'ethereal'?

[Bluefirephoenix]

probably shadowforms. They're generated by your mind and may reflect subconscious fears or desires.