This is gonna be long, but it's pretty freaking weird....
This all happened last night.. it includes such things as astral pulse island, possible spirits or higher beings contacing me, and me creating a spirit guardian.
edit: you know what, i'll cut the astral pulse island part out and post it in that specific forum.
So about the spirit guardian, is it possible to create on while lucid or in the astral, and then telling it to be your guardian, will it be there every night or will it cease to exist eventually? Or does just the act of creating it and remembering what it looks like and thinking about it in real life keep it alive so all you have to do is say it's name and it'll be there?
Anyway the order this takes is Spirits Contacting me, then the guardian, then astral pulse island, which I have marked like below... this is very long but I'd appreciate a few comments or two, especially on the issue of creating a spirit guardian and this weird stuff about spirits contacting me.
Spirits Contacting me:
First off, I had an incredibly strange dream. I'm in my brothers room sleeping in it for some reaosn, which I dream about a lot, and there is this girl there, I think she's in black, but for a large portion of the dream I couldn't really see her at all.
Apparently I knew her from some message boards (not these) and she was my g/f.... she was really odd and kind of crazy, which is not the kind of girl I'd really be looking to have as a girlfriend..... this dream was so long, like an hour or so, but i remember so little of it. I think we went to the movies, yet, I'm not sure if that may have just been another dream I had of her a long time ago, or just a fictional memory... but most of it takes place in my room...
She shows me this old thread I made, it just kind of comes into existance in my room floating in space... I click on it... it has this video of us messing around with barbie dolls, or... we ARE the barbie dolls, I'm not sure... but the instant I saw it triggered these "memories" and I felt really embarrassed and I quickly shut it off... it was like, I remembered the whole scene that was about to play out from somewhere before... yet I'm not sure I ever dreamed about it.. it was like a fabricated dream memory or something... and I don't really remember it right now at all.
At any rate I closed it and was embarrassed and stuff... more things happened that I can't really recall.. she wanted to show me something.... all of a sudden I went back in time, things were different, but I was still in the same room and grossly disoriented and freaking out... it was like 1955, or 2055, becuase on my watch it said something like 11-can't remember-55... and I'm freaking out.... then my dad comes into my room and he's asking me what I'm doing, and she's like "DO NOT WAKE UP!!!" and I really thought, that, my dad was really in there and he was waking me up... and I was trying to figure out how to explain why I was sitting on my bed cross legged talking to myself.... but I couldn't wake up, she didn't want me to.. somehow I transitioned my dad into nothingness and then she was back... and I wanted to know what in the world was going on...
And what she looked like... she showed me this pic... and it looks familiar like I've seen it before in real life.. and she was pretty good looking, not fantastic, but not bad.... and it was so weird because she's right there in my room, and I somehow "see" her, yet I don't, and I had to ask to see a picture to understand what she looks like... but after that she started taking on a more visible human form so to speak and was in black.
We started spinning around cross legged and transitioned back to the normal time... and I looked at my watch and realized that I was dreaming, so I was kind of flipping out and she told me to calm down and listen to her, or something like that.....
She was explaining something to me, something important I think... and she said "5 weeks and 5 days from now" and she repeated it like three times... then I had a false awakening into my real room and dreamed that I wrote that down, then I woke up into paralysis and forced myself awake and was going to write it down for real but figured I could remember it in the morning.. which I could....
(that would be 1-13-04, 5 weeks and 5 days from now)
However I can't be 100% positive it was 5 weeks and 5 days... i'm pretty sure they were both 5s, and that the first was weeks, though.
Later... I was lucid in my room and I tried to raise my energy levels and activate my chakras, and I ended up kind of false OBEing.. and I thought my room was 100% accurate (WAYYY FAR FROM THE TRUTH) and I thought I saw my body on my bed, only it didn't look quite right, but the more I looked at it the more it matched my body and what I was wearing at the time.....
I went downstairs to try to pull one of my dogs out of their sleeping bodies like I had read about people doing but couldn't succeede becuase I couldn't see their astral bodies, just physical... only... I noticed two of my somewhat recently departed dogs were there... and I was like WTF.... I'm in the past? I went back up to my room and my body was now a little black boy.. he woke up and started speaking to me about something that I couldn't for the life of me understand...
It had to do with my childhood... and he said something like "you were kicking and screaming and begging them not to do it, but I knew it would be good for you" and I think he was talking about having an OBE or something, maybe spirits inducing it, I'm not sure... but I totally didn't understand and I wanted him to SHOW ME, I locked eyes with him and asked him to show me what he's talking about, and he said he could, but that he shouldn't.
Then that kind of ended.
Spirit guardian:
First off, I got hassled and raped again, and I managed to start laying the smack down on the people doing it to me... at first I was paralyzed and couldn't see the person doing it to me, like always, so I started trying to say no in my mind, and eventually my voice got louder and more confident.. I reached out of my body and grabbed the guy doing this to me and started hitting and kicking and slicing at him and eventually I had normal vision and he was like this goblin.. and he was pretty hard to battle off.. I tried to make myself a mirror and reflect all his bad energy, which resulting in us staring each other down, which was pretty scary and I was thinking "i'm glad this is a goblin and not something scarier" and eventually I won, and I threw him into the corner of my bed and told him to never visit me again unless I specifically asked him to, and forced him to promise to... then I just left him there.... then he told me the killer whale was coming.. and it did... I started getting raped again, and again was back in paralysis and couldn't see and such.... it felt exactly the same as it did one night before, which felt like a new presence... I did the same to it, and yeah, it was a killer whale, or something... really screwed up.
I threw it in the corner and said the same to it.... and I did this with a nice handful of creatures... and they now looked like stuffed animals... which later on when being lucid were sitting on some shelf in my room, lifeless.
Well anyway I became lucid shortly thereafter, and I had been intending to try to create a spirit guardian to help me beat these things down when I sleep... so I made "Steve the bear" which is kind of an inside joke between my friends and I... I couldn't make him very big or too realistic, but it was good enough.. I started trying to pour energy into him and he started turning yellow and green and orange and stuff and then he started moving and I told him he was intelligent and capable of speech and that he would obey me and he was to be my guardian and not to kill things unless they are harming me or I ask him to.
He said okay... I petted him and said I loved him, and he said he did not feel emotions.. I told him he should.. but I didn't know how to give him the capacity to...
At any rate, I gave him a chain gun in the middle of his chest so that he could kill things from long range.. and had him test it out.. he fired on my door and it was pretty fricking sweet, didn't do as much damage as I wanted it to though, but it was good enough, I figured if this was for real that he'd grow in power with time.
So... we set out adventuring... half lucid, half not... now and then I'd encounter bad people, most likely fictional, and I'd have the bear lay waste upon them, which he was pretty good at, though you'd think one claw to a guys face and he'd be gone, which wasn't the case, Steve had a lot of work to do and wasn't as lethal as a bear with a chain gun should have been.
At one point I decided I was going to ride Steve, i asked him if that'd be okay and he said yes, so I mounted him and tried to teach him to fly, which worked, but not too well... so here I am flying around atop a bear... and like... I go visit my teacher.. I want to visit her sleeping physical body and pull her out of it, well.. I see her sitting in a chair motionless, it's all very vivid, I touch her and it feels real... so then.. I'm trying to figure out how I would go about pulling her out... I dont' see her astral body... I start trying to stimulate her chakras and she turns into some sort of Tool video like monster and as I work on her crown chakra her head splits open.. I'm kind of weirded out and I stop doing it and then she's her again... so... I'm like "okay, let's forget about this" I instruct steve to tear the door down, and we exit....
Later on I go to this old western like place, seemingly back in time, yet absent of people.. I find a gun... which pleases me since I was looking for one fairly desperately... a few semi fun gun battles with I'm not sure who ensued.. I think I was back at my teachers place doing some battle here and there... then I was battling one of my friends.. he was hiding in my room.. I had steve cut the door down with his chain gun then we both shot and killed each other, and argued about who died first....
Then I was out in some real pretty yet empty wilderness setting flying around and it was very beautiful....
Lucidity left... I was with my parents.. they were talking about how I liked my teacher and should take her to disneyland with us, I was upset that they knew that about me... memory blur... i'm not sure what else happened...
edit: astral pulse island stuff being moved to new thread in that forum http://www.astralpulse.com/forums/topic.asp?TOPIC_ID=9230
I was quite busy last night.