Re:Strange session!

[Seraphis1]

10/17/2010 - morning session:

Now I am out-of-body

My session mantra.

This was a very odd session... I was on the edge of projection all the time... energy was streaming off my left thigh, and mostly left side... I was unable to even imagine the TMI crystal... great pressure in my forehead... I just kept letting go or seem to be letting go... I don't know what could be holding me down that I am not conscious of... but I could not let go any more without evaporating and can feel nothing to let go of yet nothing wants to happen... and I left the session soaking in sweat. And I did none of the my usual exercises.

Any ideas of what is happening here gang.

S.

[Xanth]

You could probably drop the "now" and it'll have the same "message" on your subconscious, just in fewer words. 

As for what's happening... no idea really.
Trying too hard, perhaps?

[Seraphis1]

10/18/2010 - morning session:

Now I am out-of-body

The Buhlman seminar's after effects... a belief system crisis.

The Ashkenazi belief system shake up. My present belief system crisis began on 10/16/2010 when that session produced a demon in the form of an Ashkenazi Rabbi:

http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_d4zmqSfE-J8/THG4YPeEdcI/AAAAAAAAFQw/mGui06dRV38/s1600/Chief+Rabbi+Yona+Metzger3.jpg

Since then I have developed a welt on the right side of my head. Came out of a session soaking with sweat and a left side energy streaming effect... and now this dream which suggests I have fears I did not know I had and they are a barrier to moving forward...

The Dream:

I am in a kind of warehouse setting with a Hispanic type character who is preparing heroin. I am adamant that I will not partake... he agrees... then suddenly I am overwhelmed by him and a female addict and given a shot... I stumble into the street headed for my Mercedes... in a daze... a big black man comes out of no where and says he wants a ride... I yell, '...get away from me...' I am alarmed I am in a gang neighborhood...  he opens the door to the back seat... I scream, '... I am going to call the police...' I run looking for a phone... I am on a street car track platform... can't find a phone... but realize I have a cell phone... attempt to call 911... Can't do it... numbers won't form... in a panic... wake up...

Interpretation:

In the last few sessions after the Ashkenazi signal some ominous looking beings have been trying to come through I have attempted to allow them to materialize since I know they will dissolve when they are exposed to the light of recognition but they seem elusive and fade back into the ethers as soon as they begin to appear... I think this dream represents lost of control... the heroin represents the non-physical world of stochastic event potential of which I will have to flow with and not necessarily have any control of... my underlying belief system is apparently ...looking for control and predictability...

The big black man... represents my fears... they are want to ride in the back seat and be there as a threat all the time... I don't want that... I want police protection...

This belief system crisis is a problem since I have no answer to its resolution accept to adhere to the concept that... The way out is the way through... perseverance... try to allow everything to come up... I don't know why the dream didn't go lucid... there were so many signals that I was dreaming... that might have helped.

S.

[Seraphis1]

You could probably drop the "now" and it'll have the same "message" on your subconscious, just in fewer words. 

As for what's happening... no idea really.
Trying too hard, perhaps?

Hi X: You may be right.. but Buhlmann says the 'now' keeps you in present time... I do not that as I do the mantra it automatically drops the 'now' and I have to keep adding it on. Not sure what is right... but results will tell over time... this exercise is to be done for a minimum of 30 days.

S.

[Seraphis1]

10/18/2010 - morning session:

Now I am out-of-body

The Buhlman seminar's after effects... a belief system crisis.

The Ashkenazi belief system shake up. My present belief system crisis began on 10/16/2010 when that session produced a demon in the form of an Ashkenazi Rabbi:

http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_d4zmqSfE-J8/THG4YPeEdcI/AAAAAAAAFQw/mGui06dRV38/s1600/Chief+Rabbi+Yona+Metzger3.jpg

Since then I have developed a welt on the right side of my head. Came out of a session soaking with sweat and a left side energy streaming effect... and now this dream which suggests I have fears I did not know I had and they are a barrier to moving forward...

Hi All: Little by little the significance of the key symbol in my current belief system crisis is unfolding... the Ashkenazi symbol represents orthodoxy... as a Cancerian conservatism fits well with my underlying belief system structure... (none of these things are known to me directly) I am only becoming aware of them as I continue to attempt to get into the non-physical universe... I have now hit a clear subconscious substrata of belief system barriers that need to breakdown... when you get beyond the Monroevian focus 21 territories... the mind communicates in a non-verbal language... orthodoxy and conservatism cannot understand symbolism, innuendo, subtlety and intuition... they can only grasp objective reality... the focus 21 and above territories are all subjective/objective reality...

The plot thickens.

S.

[Seraphis1]

Hi All: Little by little the significance of the key symbol in my current belief system crisis is unfolding... the Ashkenazi symbol represents orthodoxy... as a Cancerian conservatism fits well with my underlying belief system structure... (none of these things are known to me directly) I am only becoming aware of them as I continue to attempt to get into the non-physical universe... I have now hit a clear subconscious substrata of belief system barriers that need to breakdown... when you get beyond the Monroevian focus 21 territories... the mind communicates in a non-verbal language... orthodoxy and conservatism cannot understand symbolism, innuendo, subtlety and intuition... they can only grasp objective reality... the focus 21 and above territories are all subjective/objective reality...

The plot thickens.

S.

Outstanding!!! No sooner than I am able to interpret and recognize the meaning of a non-verbal communication something happens:

10/18/2010 – Evening session:

The session progressed very well... energy streaming right side, off buttocks and thigh... well being... a lot of itching around the face... began to use the itching not there technique that seems to work... some fundamental body activity... then in the center of my brain... a shattering of like shale... crumbling off... I think the disintegration of my encrusted belief systems are now beginning to fall apart.

S. 

[Seraphis1]

Hi All: Little by little the significance of the key symbol in my current belief system crisis is unfolding... the Ashkenazi symbol represents orthodoxy... as a Cancerian conservatism fits well with my underlying belief system structure... (none of these things are known to me directly) I am only becoming aware of them as I continue to attempt to get into the non-physical universe... I have now hit a clear subconscious substrata of belief system barriers that need to breakdown... when you get beyond the Monroevian focus 21 territories... the mind communicates in a non-verbal language... orthodoxy and conservatism cannot understand symbolism, innuendo, subtlety and intuition... they can only grasp objective reality... the focus 21 and above territories are all subjective/objective reality...

The plot thickens.

S.

Outstanding!!! No sooner than I am able to interpret and recognize the meaning of a non-verbal communication something happens:

10/18/2010 – Evening session:

The session progressed very well... energy streaming right side, off buttocks and thigh... well being... a lot of itching around the face... began to use the itching not there technique that seems to work... some fundamental body activity... then in the center of my brain... a shattering of like shale... crumbling off... I think the disintegration of my encrusted belief systems are now beginning to fall apart.

S.

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10/19/2010

Very encouraging dream:

I was in my garage looking out on a street in which in the middle of it was my car (a mustang or Mercedes) which was for sale... it was blue... people were looking at it.

Interpretation:

Looking out of the garage door... this symbolized my shift from my personality (the car and the pituitary gland... the seat of the personality) to my watcher self which is seated in the pineal gland... looking out from an inner deeper position into the wider world or universe... I want to get rid of my current belief system mindset...
Resolution:

I am looking forward to the coming sessions... stay tuned..

S.




[Seraphis1]

10/22/2010 - Morning session:

Now I am out-of-body

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The workman like day to day progress is a big surprise to me. From the books you get the idea that one day you just o.b.e. and live happily ever after. I don't remember any book talking about the day to day physiology of one's progress to being a Traveler. They always have some earth shaking experience and suddenly they never look back. Monroe fell out of his body and had a few years of anxiety over the experience... but what happened before physiologically, of course, he didn't know where he was going I do.

I just came off a dry spell in which I could not even visualize with imagination.

But this morning I was right on the razor's edge of a very powerful o.b.e. event... the buzzing came in, the vibrations which with me usually start in my feet and legs and defy my commands to spread... this morning they spread... the click off of auditory happened for a longer period...

What I haven't got and it is frustrating is the ability to 'intend' and have my intent obeyed or executed... this is a big secret... volition!!!

Potpourri session: AKG disc 1: cut 1-relaxation exercise; cut 5-Silly Little Finger Exercise; cut 6 - Perceiver/Intercepter exercise: disk 4: Imagination exercise 1; joob condition d

Relaxation phase:

There is something odd about my inability to consistently get into the f10 state quickly I was well into the Perceiver/Interpeter phase before I reached f10

Silly Little Finger exercise:

Only vaguely aware of this exercise being prompted.

Perceiver/Interpreter:

Only vaguely aware of this exercise being prompted.

Imagination exercise 2

Only vaguely aware of this exercise being prompted.

joob d

See opening blurb... the whole session is intergrated into one experience. The mantra is really powerful now.

S.