How it all Began

[Jeff_Mash]

Hi there Amber.....

Welcome to the board.  You're experience was very compelling to read, and I look forward to hearing more from you.

Feel free to post any questions on this board, as there's a lot of helpful people with a lot of experience who'll be more than happy to offer advice.


Keep smiling,

Jeff Mash
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[Amber]

Jeff, hello! Thanks for hanging in there to read the whole long thing! lol You're a trooper. I guess I hadn't really written any of these experiences down for others to see yet and have them bottled up inside, so when I started to type, it all came flooding out.

I have lots of questions, so I will be posting some of them soon. Thanks for the welcome.

Sincerely,
Amber

[Amber]

When I was about 17 or so, I began having some strange experiences that I had no explanation for at the time. Idropped out of highschool to take my GED and had the entirety of my days free. Mostly, I hung out with friends and took plenty of naps. This daytime napping produced the strangest dreams, where I would find myself in a paralyzed state, either alone or with something else in the room and I would be struggling to wake up to scream. I would sometimes hear haunting music and would have a desire to get up and follow it out of my sleeping body or I would be able to see into my bedroom or the livingroom and find someone that looked familiar standing there staring at me. Once, I came out of one of these states screaming my head off that there was something like a big black bird in the room with us, my boyfriend was just as confused as I was.

When I was older, I discovered the concept of lucid dreaming and began to dream. Sometimes I would be dreaming and then find myself looking at something odd in the dream, a greyish substance that covered my entire feild of vision- it turned out to be my pillow! I was staring at it with my eyes closed.
Then they became more elaborate, I could stay lucid for several minutes, flying and exploring around my dreams, often looking for my best friend Elizabeth who was my roommate and fellow lucid dreamer. We would compare notes the next morning and even though we tried often, we never found eachother in dreams. I would find a dream version of her and put it through a series of secret questions, she would fail of course and I would wake up. I liked the lucid dreaming and it was exciting, I much preferred it to the other experiences I was having of waking up in my body, paralyzed and terrified. But those didn't go away either. And sometimes I would lay down to do lucid dreaming and once again find myself immobile on my bed thinking, "this must be how people in comas feel...sheesh."

Then something strange happened. I woke up early one morning to do some light housework and after a half hour or so, I got sleepy, laid down on the couch and fell asleep. I had a strange dream about being in my apartment, the dream was so strange that it made me realize I was dreaming and then I was suddenly in my sleeping body on the couch, but fully awake. I tried to stand up and it felt as if I were moving through molasses, but I managed to stand and started to make my way across the livingroom towards the front door! I knew that if I turned around, I would see my sleeping body. I also knew that I didn't have much attention or focus left for fooling around so, I put all my energy towards getting to the door. Slowly, I walked, occasionally having to bend down and 'physically' pick up my legs, I got half way across the living room which through the eyes of my dreaming body looked like I had a fish bowl on my head. At some point, my roommate's alarm went off just as I was standing in front of her door, and I was thinking that it should wake me up, but there I was asleep, but also awake and standing in the middle of the room. I rushed as quickly as I could to the door with a lurching motion and flung it open! I found blackness, nothing and that is when I woke up. I laid there for several minutes just mulling over my experience while my roommate started to get ready for work. When she came out of the bathroom, she started to make breakfast and asked me if I had been outside. "No", I replied, "I have been sleeping on the couch. Why?"
"Because just as I was turning off my alarm, I could have sworn I heard a door slam."

I was floored.
I still am and it has been more than 3 years later. Since that point I did some research about OOBE's and although my interest has waxed and waned according to what is taking precedence in my daily life, I more or less pursue it as often as I can. I haven't been able to reproduce my earlier success just yet, I have definitely made some progress. So, this is where I am right now, I am able to, just before I drop off, make a suggestion to have a lucid dream and surely I will have one. I can hold my attention on the dream for a few minutes or so and sometimes get overly excited and wake myself up. I also find myself in my sleeping body a lot, but only in brief flashes and then it disappears. I have been attempting some of the methods that I read about, starting with relaxing the body and inducing a trance state, I have had some mild success with these and I am looking forward to getting lots of advice and help with this new found talent of mine. I am so happy to have found several strong communities on this subject finally!

Sweet dreams,
Amber