Lately I've been removed from my practice mentally, mostly due to stresses within everyday life. Consequently the theater has been closed for about one month. Last night though I had the following experience.
I was having a normal dream full of inconsistencies, believing they were real, etc. when suddenly I found myself semiawake in bed. Through my closed eyes I saw dream-like scenes unfolding, but I was fully aware of my waking state too. Or at least that is how it felt. I decided to focus on the scenes and this quickly induced vibrations throughout my body, but very pleasant ones. I immediately new what was going on and attempted a separation. I tried to follow the flow of the vibrations, to allow the separation to occur, but as is typical for me, my legs flew up into the air and my upper body stayed on the bed. I then found myself fully back in body and this time my whole body involuntarily rolled over. Again, I hoped I had successfully rolled out, but to my dismay I opened my eyes and realized that I had just rolled my body over. Here's the catch though - I wasn't in my room at all even though my mind at the time was registering the locale as "my room". I was in a western bed and the room was entirely wrong. My real room is totally Japanese style and I sleep on a futon on tatami mats, not on an elevated bed.
So, a couple questions. Was this a real attempt at separation or was I just dreaming of it? Was this a false awakening since I obviously wasn't in a room that even remotely resembled my own? Also, why am I having such a tough time getting out of my body? I easily get to the vibrational state and am not fearful at all, but I just can't seem to separate at will. When I have separated it has always been an automatic thing happening "by itself" or I had to make a really strong command.
Any input is most welcome, thanks!
Well... all of the 'signs' were there.
For example, Vibrations and a separation feeling...
I'd say you were pretty damn close. :)
It sounded like a dream-tinted near-obe :-) You were almost there :lol:
Thanks guys. I know I'm close, in fact I had another near separation last night. The vibs came again and I felt my body sit up, then nothing...I just seem stuck at that point. I've wondered that perhaps I am having complete separation, but simply not remembering my experience after that. Robert Bruce says that is quite common. The times I can remember leaving I had little control over myself, so perhaps this is all a focus issue. :|