black magic possession and attacks

[pleasehelp]

I have severe brain damage, caused from a bad reaction to psychatric medication, that I was forced to take for years despite complaints. I am 20 years old girl and it ruined my reptilian brain, I can not feel ANY emotions . I got getting Stem Cell therapy for the brain damage last week. However, a black magician/telepath has been following me for 2 years now ruining my life, breaking down my immune system, ruining my healing, i have been through hell and I have no defenses because without emotions i am an empty vessel. i can't heal with all his dumping of negative energy, torture, sick spells, Do you know anyone who can help fight him, that is light and has the power to possess bodies for me so I can continue on my path to healing?

i don't know if this helps but this is my artwork http://flickr.com/pacifictheme and i stopped making it after the brain damage happened... but maybe it will inspire someone to help me because i want to change the world world with it. thanks <3

[Bluefirephoenix]

What your being chased with is your own thoughtforms. It's a partial spirit that is generated from your own mind. I've posted elsewhere on these forums about this and your experience is typical of it.  It's a very terrifying experience and can have physical manifestations if you have mediumistic abilities. No spirit can manifest through you oir possess you without your willingly opening and placing the spirit in there. Your hardwired to your body.  The way to get rid of the thoughtform is to first understand what it is and why you created it. It will always comply with your beliefs to an extent. You have full control over what it does even if you don't realize how it happens. Understanding that is the first step. The next step is to withdraw energy from it meaning getting your attention away from it and on something else and keeping it there. It cannot survive if you do not feed it and it is fed by your fear and attention.

When I first developed clairaudience I had problems with these as well and learned to control and prevent them from forming to a large extent. Basically every thought becomes a living thing. If your thoughts are negative your going have negative manifestations.
The primary characteristic of spirit is love. Evil has no power except that of illusion. There are beings out there that I've met and spoken to personally that are far more powerful and loving than anything that can possibly exist.

A black magician isn't going waste time on you and there is not a thing they can do  anyway. I know a number of left path magicians and they're not after other people. Most don't want to have anything to do with anyone except themselves and the people they care about. Most want money and a decent life that's all. The more advanced ones are spiritual explorers and are not interested in people at all.
Even then they have absolutely no power to do anything to you against your will. I know their methods and most of their motivations. You are doing this to yourself.
Likewise there are beings who are willing to help you both physical and spiritual. But unless you open to them and let them help .. like the magicians that you fear, they cannot do anything until you do. your fear will prevent you from opening to anyone. Anxiety is probably due to the brain damage in part this can be controlled with the medications.

   if your mind isn't working properly. you cannot focus at all. The medications will help you focus until you can get a handle on your subconscience manifestations. Don't taper or wean unless you have a doctor helping you. If you have siezures getting off the medications suddenly can harm or even kill you.  You have to sleep to focus and if your trapped your not going to sleep well or function in day to day life. Right now I venture to guess that your not sleeping much. Your fear is taking over everything and you have to have some help to bring that anxiety under control. Unfortunetly medications that will help with this have side effects. You do get used to them to some degree but without them, and without the focus they help with your not going to gain much and may put yourself into a life threatening situation.


I am not discussing this from a book I have first hand and personal experience with this. What your experiencing I know it seems very real and your suffering is real. The key is not in attacking someone but in learning about how your mind and spirit work. Mastery over these forms is true spiritual mastery it takes time and hard work to do it.  You choose now what to do about it.

[soarin12]

Excellent post, Bluefire.  I began generating thought forms too, after I started projecting.  They came right into the physical.  It all seems VERY real and everyone assumes that they come from someone else -an outside source of some kind.  Most of them come from your own fear and negative emotions.  They only have the control over you that you give them.  Once you realize and embrace this, their apparent control over you will be gone.  Even if it was a black magician, which I highly doubt, the same rule applies.  You can 'disallow' all attacks on you.  Never forget that YOU are in control and that will empower you.  You must not allow yourself to feel like a victim. 

Your photography is beautiful!!  You are very talented!!

[Luthor]

A year or so back I ended up in hospital with a life threatening illness and on making it out was prescribed Oxycontin, aka hillbilly heroin. I took way too much one night and ended up on a metaphorical another planet. My fiance woke up to find me bug eyed and wired - she was seriously unimpressed we fought and for a second I had the terrible thought she might leave me.

That's when I saw what looked to be a white spider crawling towards me.  The damn thing stalked
Me from room to room. Even took a run at my face.  The more scared i got the bigger, faster and more aggressive it got.  Eventually she put me to bed and all was fine. for months afterwards i was plagued by bizarre illness's and anxiety and felt what I can only describe as a malign presence around me.

Waiting it out didn't work so I ended up googling things like 'psychic protection' and came up with a whole bunch of hermetic stuff like the LBRP.  It seemed to work but the fear would always return, usually stronger. I beefed up my rituals, burned the right incense, evoked powerful protectors. Still I
Felt the insidious presence, I was a regular doc bothered with some outright weird illnesses which
My doc filled away under stress.

Thanks to the advice I was given and posts I read on this site my thinking changed and for the first time the idea began to take root that  the predator who's presance i constantly felt and had actually seen that night might just be an embodiment of my own fears (fear of rejection is my biggest fear + spiders) Being in an altered state where thought = reality my fears took on shape and form & stuck around for months afterwards.

It didn't happen overnight but as my thinking shifted I became empowered, felt the presence less and less and thought of it less until eventually it just faded away. The strange illnesses and anxiety stopped.  The advice others have given you is golden & whether you believe the cause of your woes is a thought form, demonic entity, neurotic thought pattern what you believe will(I suspect) in define it.

Self knowledge + knowledge from senior posters on here + a decision to try and focus on compassion, love , gratitude did more for me than any mystical banishments. Not that those things don't have their place its just that my problems were closer to home.

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[Stillwater]

Welcome to the Pulse.

I am incredibly sorry to hear about your troubles with the medication, and the harm it is has caused you. I am also sorry to hear that your experiences are leaving you ill at ease.

What I would say about the brain injury, is that brains are a remarkable thing; when there is damage, even though the damage is to a part of the brain expressly intended for a certain purpose, other parts of the brain will often take over these functions, and perform them just as well. This effect is known as neural plasticity. Sometimes the functions come back on their own as other parts of the brain re-adapt, and sometimes certain therapies can help a person develop them elsewhere. You are not broken beyond help or repair, and you are and will be every bit of the person you were before- the same person who made the art earlier.

As for the black magicians accosting you... I can't claim to know what they are. I tend to agree with Blue in thinking they are likely your own thought-forms tormenting you, but in some way it doesn't matter if they are or aren't. From your question and your work, I gather that you are familiar with the lore of magic. If so, you probably know how powerful human wills are.

I can say with pretty much certainty that no one is powerful enough to harm you in this way against your own will. Simply saying no to it, and refusing to go along with external forces that wish you badly is far more powerful a force in your life than they could be.

Controlling others is mostly about allowing them to feel powerless to resist. You are not powerless in truth. You can choose to be unaffected. No one of us can help you as much as you can help yourself!