hello. I have a Problem.....

[Dark Knight]

You're emotions are getting stuck?

Not allowed to feel your own, except anger, whether you need to or not, so it's like you're always in a state of an artificial grudge?

Yeah it's not good.

OK, let's get the punchline of everyone on this site out of the way first:

Get Robert Bruce's book, "Practical Psychic Self Defense" first. RB has really done an excellent job, blows the myths out of the water, and tells it like it is.

While you're waiting to get the book, what have you been doing to survive for the past two years?

Let me guess, if you're a kid (under 20), you're probably living with your parents and "parents rules" will probably dictate whether or not you can burn incense, oil, sulfur, or garlic for that matter.

Do you have any money of your own (to get the book and other little things too)?

Do you have any religous beliefs? Could you try prayer (I say that loosely because I remember how hard it was for me to start praying again in the begining...not because I objected to God, but because the emotional abuse and torment was so strong to overcome).

The best ward RB has suggested in his book is the writing of religous symbols on different parts of your body...middle of the forehead, across the heart, across the solar plexus, tops of both hands, tops of both feet, bottom of both feet.

Now with mom and dad running amok in the same dwelling it might be hard (Honey, why do you have that star in the middle of your forehead). In blue ball point ink, draw symbols on the places that can be hidden by clothing.

See if this works, if it doesn't, don't give up, there are a lot of other things you can try. It's just process of elimination and we have to go through it to see what will eventually work.

It's important to write back and tell us how you're doing, there's lot's of help here, there's only so much space and time to write []

[CRIMINALMIND63]

Hi
First you need to realize that anger is an emotion so you do feel emotions. It's something you are capable of. The anger that you feel is the emotion being sent to you. You will feel the energy around you if it's sent to you. Now there is also energy sent to areas of the brain to stimulate areas of the brain which will active anger, joy laughter and so on. It's good that you realize this anger is not really of you. There has been one thing I have learned through my attacks. My mind is still MY mind. My attacker can cause me to feel upset or other emotions but hasn't been able to change my mind. I'm still me. I may go more with the flow of things going on around me and get upset for my own reasons. If I get upset he feeds the fire. i won't let this stop me from being upset for I have a right to feel and think. What you need to learn when you get anger is how to react to it. Make sure you react in a positive way. Take the anger out on your attacker. Yell back. I learned if I'm alone and I yell at my attacker it stops even for a few seconds. There is something with hearing the tone of your voice spoken loudly. It's like saying hey I'm the one in charge here not you. It might even be a way to charge your aura through the sound of your voice. Yell this is my space. We are intitled to our own space or we would all be one, forget the we are all connected because you wasn't connected with your attacker before you were attacked. We are not all interconnected, what is connected is the space between everything. You can connected with this interspace and connect with what is in this space. Your attacker wouldn't let you connect with them and attack them.
You need to try and feel other emotions again. Here is something to try laugh about anything. When you feel anger laugh. If someone yells at you laugh. Laugh for no reason at all. It's good therapy.

[Dark Knight]

Crim,

but feeling anger doesn't mean it's your anger. For the first two years of my attack, I couldn't feel anything, I mean ANYTHING. If I had won the lottery, I had no capacity to feel or experience happiness it was like a wall had gone up. It's devastating over time becuase the mind takes everything literally. You try things to feel an experience. After two years of trying things and feeling nothing, I started associating the feelings of nothingness with the experience.

holidays meant nothing, love meant nothing, people's concern for me meant nothing.

Then I was partially freed, but the attack changed. MY emotions were blocked but I was channeled emotions to feel, often emotions which were not appropriate for the level and context of the situation...more mind bending.

Having the ability to feel something is not enough, you need to be free to feel you. That's part of how you are able to seperate between self and other, make dilineations...determine what reality is.

If the anger he is feeling isn't his, and if he isn't allowed to feel anything else (the way I was), it has a devastating affect, causes the personality to dissociate, it's a horrible, destructive experience.

[Xelios]

When I was a teenager, I had encountered some energy,in this house,which felt somewhat like electricity,but only it was in the middle of a room about four feet off the floor.
It entered my physical body,and afterwards all I could feel was anger,but as soon as I touched my girlfriend the energy went into her body,and she also said that all she could feel was deep black hatred.

When I think back to those dark days, I now believe a lot of my behviour was caused by those things.

Christian Prayers never worked for me back then. Strange since I was going to a christian church at the time.

The only christian prayers,which seem to work are the Lord's prayer and the 23rd psalm,but I find they need to be repeated a number of times before they have any effect on a negative spirit,and even then I have found that these prayers will not always work so great.

I make it a habit of saying that 23rd psalm,but today when I said that prayer it had no effect on the thing that was rushing toward me,so some negatives must have a very high pain threshold.
I had to fall back on what I was taught,and then I was able to chase it away.

[CRIMINALMIND63]

I'm sorry to offend anyone here. As for prayer, if your attacker doesn't have the same faith or religion, belief as you do prayer's won't work. I have rebuked my attacker in the name of Jesus, his God's and the most high God and it hasn't worked.  Time to put faith in yourself, God helps those who help themselves. They are just words. Work on your mind. Alot of attacks are mind games. Dark can tell you that.

[Xelios]

Prayer is the very last thing I do while under attack.
The other day while saying the 23rd psalm I had five warrior angels appear around me.
Like I said I was taught other ways of protecting myself,which I will not mention on such a public forum.
A lot of attacks against me are not mind games. Most attacks are of a physical nature.
I laughed at a negative who tried mind games with me,and that stopped him cold. I hear junk like you are gonna die or you will suffer greatly or other idiotic babblings and rantings from negative spirits.
I hit out,at the direction of the voice with white light energy or banishing pentagrams.
That is why these cowards now only attack me while I sleep.

[kutabare]

Let me post when the first time I started having block's in my emotions.

YR:2000 I was watching tv in the basement where i usually watch it and all of a sudden i felt something like a ki blast of some sort or a really hard punch in my right shoulder blade. it pushed me over a little and i got up in a fighting stance to see if anyone was around { no one was} and it felt like i was being watched upon without anything there. and from  that day on I had trouble to focus on doing whats right. and my emotions were crumbled to a little anger which I felt was not mine.

[kutabare]

hello. my name is Shawn Monk{ ya funny last name huh} well I have a problem with my phsycic attackers. I have been Aattacked for the last 2 years and I can't feel any emotions except for anger, and its getting worst. I was playing a game with my ex-friends{ who were my best friends at the time until after the axcident} a game of demons and angels i was acting like a demon{ problebly the opening door for the attackers} and I felt my self being taking a hold of from the inside and being forced to do things i normally wouldn't do. I would like to know if my attackers might be human or demon?