my great grandmother and my friend cory

[hays1012]

when i was thirteen i started to have premonitions of what would happen a day, a week, or two weeks ahead when i went to sleep. this hasn't stopped since. the next summer when i was fourteen about to enter ninth grade i started to get disturbing visions, feelings, and premonitions of my great grandmother dying. this really scared me because i spent practically my whole childhood with her. she was my world. i would sit in my grandmothers office, my great-grandmother's daughter, for hours shifting uncomfortably in my chair trying to think of a way to tell her about what i had been "dreaming" about. as the summer went on the visions and feelings and premonitions happened more frequently. my family and i went on a trip in july and after the trip everything just started colliding like a train wreck. i kept everything i was seeing to myself but it was driving me crazy. i became a little introverted because of it. i would go to sleep have premonitions as clear as day and then wake up and live what i had just saw. it was confusing for me because it was all so intense.
in september of my freshmen year of high school my parents left town for a week for a business trip. i stayed at my best friends house. the friday they got back my dad came to pick me up. he told me we were going out to dinner with my great-grandmother because we all hadn't seen her in a few weeks. i threw a fit! i did NOT want to go because i had very intense gut feelings that SOMETHING was going to happen.
we went to dinner anyway and then everything started to crash around me. she had a stoke at the table. she was in a wheelchair in the hospital looking very embarrassed at me. she went brain dead. i became more and more quiet as the days went on. five days later she died. and i stopped speaking. i thought everyone was playing a huge joke on me.
for the next few years i would relapse and think everyone was against me. then one night in my room i was watching tv with the lights on a few years after she died. i think two. i was staring a little above my tv when all the sudden i got overwhelming feelings of my great-grandmother being sad and watching over me. she was sad because she didn't want to see me so upset over her death. these feelings were getting more and more and more intense when all the sudden a light appeared on my wall above my tv. it was a ball and it stretched down to for a bar of slivery light that had all the colors in it shimmering! it stayed there for about six seconds maybe five and then it was gone. i walked over to where it had been on the wall and touched that spot. it was her. and from that day on i was okay with her death.

the second time this happened was 2008. again in the summer. i had a friend named cory whos parents weren't in his life. his mother died when he was younger. idk what happened to his dad. i am friends with a lot of kids who do drugs, drink, don't do very good things, and all listen to alternative music. the "wrong" crowd i guess you could say. i have other friends too but anyway. cory was in this group of friends. i hadn't seen him in a year. and all the sudden i was thinking about him when i was in the car with my friends ashley(i mentioned her before) and whitney. i looked to the seat next to me(i was in the back seat) and swore that it was like he was sitting right there! then the date Saturday November 1st kept repeating in my head over and over and over again. all day. it dawned on me there in the car that if i had a daughter i would name her November. I still am going to name her November. i went home and wrote this in my journal, about the november 1st thing. that whole summer i kept thinking about cory and how he should come to my school. because if he came to my school he could really turn his life around and get into a good college! he could get off bad habits. it would be great for him.
it was no surprise that he came to my school a month after school started in september. he would sit next to me everyday at lunch because other people in my school didn't like him. i love cory! i always thought of him as my little brother even though he was only a few months to a year younger than me.
then the date kept repeating in my head and i knew..it started to dawn on me what was going on.
on the 28th of october after band practice i stretched in the car and felt a pain in my abdomen. the next day i couldn't walk. i went to the doctor, i had an ovarian cyst. i missed the next day of school also. my first day back at school was halloween. i went to lunch and cory was sitting next to me and i was freaking out because the next day was november 1st! he was talking to my friend at lunch when all the sudden i turned to cory and looked him dead in the eye. he looked at me back.
then this fish-bowl affect started happening around us. like..we were in a bubble and the noise of the rest of the cafeteria was muffled. i tried as hard as i could to make a connection with cory. i repeatedly in my head said "DO NOT GO TO THAT PARTY. CORY LISTEN TO ME, DO NOT GO TO THAT PARTY. IF YOU DO and then i saw images of my head of a car crash and drinking. i tried SO HARD to stop him from going. i said it over and over and over and over and over again. i tried! and then i broke the connection and looked away. my two other friends at the table kinda went "heh..." like they tried to not really notice and act like it was funny. but cory didn't say a word for the next five mins until the bell rang. he walked out of the cafeteria looking all shooken up. that was the last time i saw him. i also tried to make a petition for the band to not go to the football game that night because it was halloween and all. honestly i just didn't want to be away from cory.
at 1:00 in the morning that night he drove his car into a tree by accident and died because the seat belt cut his throat and hit his adams apple. no one told me that weekend that he died. i had to go to art school for a portfolio review. a bunch of my friends were at my house when i left for it. as soon as i left my house they got the call that he died and a car crash happened at the front of my neighborhood. all at the same time.
i came home and all my friends had left.
i went to school monday and i just KNEW that cory wasn't there physically. his first ever girlfriend who was one of my friends told me he died. i closed my eyes and everything went black. i saw a grey-greenish cloud that had holes fading in it. it was the same thing i saw when my gram died. it is what death looks like. i'm synesthetic..so idk if its just what i see or what other people see. for fourteen days i didn't cry about cory dying.
but then i was on the phone with my friend chris and i just broke down sobbing and crying and blabbing about cory. he was there for me. but then i got off the phone with him about an hour later and still continued crying and sobbing and talking TO cory. i closed my eyes and tried to fall asleep and then felt something laying on top of me. putting its cheek against my cheek and its hand in my hand. it was cory. and i FELT SO MUCH LOVE. and he FINALLY understood that i loved him with all my heart like a sister! and he loved me like a little brother! and then i got all these mental images of a tree that kinda looks like an olive tree but bigger and with yellow, light orange, and light green leaves. it was like autumn. its what cory's spirit looks like! and hes pruple. and all these other mental images of a field of rye and a tree and some other trees in the distance. and then all white and i fell asleep.
and when i woke up i felt so much better about cory passing on. and i felt him go up. he is with his mom now.

and i knew when my other great grandmother was going to die. my mom says i don't have any emotion about people dying. but thats just because i don't fear death and i know that they aren't dead, they just leave their physical body. i've never felt a person go down below the earth, just up. i don't go to burials. i do have emotions when people die, just not in front of other people.

thank you so much for reading this! i know its  long!

hayley

[Dragohad]

Sounds like your a true precogatory visionist. I've had this ability too, although to a lesser degree. I predicted my 12 yr old brothers death a year before he went. Most of the time I'm a telepathic, so i send excrement to ppl's heads like words, pics, noises, ect...and so i don't get precog visions that much, so when i do i pay attention. Yet I was unable to prevent his death.

I don't think that those that see the future are meant to change it, it still happens.
Til this day i still havent shed a tear. don't know why, he was my best friend, needless to say he was also my brother.

I think that instead of changing things like we want, but never really doing so, I think that the precog visions/dreams are meant to get us prepared for what will take place.
i dont know the truth, but i can guess that this might be 1 way of going about it.

[hays1012]

thank you so much for commenting this and finally giving me a name to what i am. i don't try to change anything. i did all i could to warn cory, but i going through that really helped me realize that i do not control other peoples fates. every death after him (though they weren't as close to me) has been easier to handle. and going through that, and then learning so much about astral realm and everything we're capable of has helped me feel more comfortable with my abilities.

[Inkheart]

Wow thoase sound like they where some pretty emotional experiences. I wish you lots of luck with the gift that's been given to you, and hope you'll make the best of it no matter what it brings you.

Inkheart

[hays1012]

they were. i went crazy when my great-grandmother died. oh thank you for that kind message inkheart i will. and then i will post about it on astralpulse.com ! hahaha

[Inkheart]

I'll be more than happy to read it Quite interested in this stuff, and trying to improve on my own abilities myself.

[hays1012]

i'm trying to improve my abilities as well but have no idea what i'm doing. i'm randomly projecting in my house and moving objects around in front of my mom (which i found hilarious anyway) but would love to have more control over projecting but i know that just takes practice.