Damnéd fear

[GorillaBait]

When the lights go out, especially when meditating, I get this sense of fear.  Strong fear.  It's very hard to ignore.  The biggest fear, which would drive me into absolute gibbering insanity were it to occur, would be to turn around and see, right in front of me, something too scary for words to describe, a hideous face right in front of me, leering with red eyes, out of nowhere in the dark.  I'm so afraid that I have to close my eyes, and then I'm so sure something is right in front of me I'm afraid to reopen them, yet when I do there's nothing, except the fear is still there.  I don't know if it's in my mind, or what.  I sometimes burn herbs, sage rosemary lavender and such, but they don't help a lot.  All that does help is turning on the lights.

I would appreciate any advice, any at all.  Thanks tons.

Michael

[CaCoDeMoN]

I would try shielding.

[Tyciol]

Why is it with you people that the eyes are ALWAYs red? Try changing the colour of the eyes, make them yellow, white, neon green, pink, purple, whatever. I'm sure you can do that, even if it's just imagining it. That feeling of control will eliminate any fear you have of it.

Seriously, if something is going to screw with you, it's not just going to try and scare you by looking at you. If you're that easy, you're not worth it's trouble.

[Mahavyra]

that's the results of what you've done...

[Tyciol]

Right.... okay so if you think that, do what I did... though I don't think it's so much doing something as realizing something.

[Jaime Hester]

The only thing you have to Fear is Fear itself.
The only thing you have to Fear is yourself.
The only thing you have to fear is _______
The only thing you have to
The only thing you have
The only thing you
the only thing
the only
the

You get the point- and please don't sing that BIngo song.

[Tyciol]

Actually Jaime, I don't really get the point, what were you trying to say with that? I'm sorry... just don't get it.

[patapouf]

Tycol, probably Jaime wants to tell him to clear his mind (mind taming maybe) since Robert is using a similar approach in Astral Dynamics.

[GorillaBait]

I think more than anything I'm afraid that when I project, there will be, waiting for me, something that will be so frightening it will drive me insane.  When I wrote this original post, I was absolutely certain that there would be some dweller waiting for me on the threshold.  The only few times I've felt close to projecting, fear kept me back.

The next time I feel this close, or feel this sort of fear, I'm going to just continue anyway.  Lets see how that goes.