Help!

[besenok]

To add to my previous message:
There is a person also who I beleive would want to hurt me.  Is it possible that she has done or is doing something that is hurting me like this? As I have mentioned, just everything happening at the same time, and before I was usually reasonably lucky.  That person is also related to my ex boyfriend (its his ex-wife) and was in our house a number of times when we were already living together.

[PeacefulWarrior]

Besenok-

I hope I may be able to help in some way, or at least help you to begin helping yourself, for true change and positive energy comes from within youself.

First of all, the problems you mentioned where very general, at least in the sense that you didn't give any details about your beliefs or your spirituality.  Do you pray?  Do you read spiritual books?  Other questions I might ask would seem personal, but I will anyway: do/did you or your boy friend do drugs or indulge in any strange or perverse sexual acts?  These are the kinds of details that one would need to know in order to direct you to helpful sources.

In my humble opinion I would recommend that you begin praying to God for help.  YOu can do this in your mind, but perferably out loud.  I would also suggest you take practical approaches to your financial situation... do you have family or friends with whom you can talk and or find help?

I hope to see another post from you soon...

-Dan

[besenok]

Hello, Dan!
Thank you very much for your post.  I will try to provide you with more information that you asked for.
I'm baptised, but am not relegious.  I used to go to church on the regular bases for the feeling of calm, not for religious/spiritual guidance.  I beleive in a higher being, I don't follow any organized religion.
I do some meditation, I practice reiki, I have been giving myself reiki on a daily bases lately.  I follow a number of different cleansing rituals for the home and for the soul.  I do not usually pray, sometimes I do.
               
As far as your other questions, no, neither me nor my boyfriend do any drugs, we are both social drinkers, I smoked, but I have just very recently made a resolution to quit.  No strange or perverse sexual acts...

Thank you for your suggestion to pray.  Also, I have taken some practical steps to resolve my financial problems, my family is helping me there and I am continuasly looking for work.

Thank you for your help.

[Bhikku]

Hi there! Sorry to hear about your situation. It is possible that someone has hexed you or something similar- but that may not be the case. I think that the main cause of you anxiety was probably the living situation that you were in with your boyfriend, and all the negativity that surrounded it. If you continue with your Reiki and meditation, as well as possibly adding some Feng Shui or some other positve energy raising solutions to your lifestyle, this aniety of yours will slowly deteriorate. There is an online course that is free of charge starting on April 1st @ www.mysticweb.org that focuses on self-awarness. I think that this will drasticlly help you along with your self-stiuation. Just try to read up on as much as you can about esotericism and self-improvement, and seek as wide a range of advice as you can. Many of the techniques in Robert's book Astral Dynamics can positivly influence you as well. Good luck and let us know how else we can help you in anyway. It will turn around for you, I promise! Peace, Love and Light -Bhikku

"Look within, thou art the Budda"

[besenok]

Thank you everyone for your response.  Here is something else that happened just last night.  I woke up because somebody was very loudly talking outside.  I didn't turn lights on or anything, and in a very short while I started smelling something, a smell that I really detest - you know when wet clothes are left somewhere for two long? this sour yucky smell?  And it was getting stronger.  I was definetely not sleeping at that time, at first I thought that maybe I spilled something on my bed or something, but then I realized that the smell was getting stronger.  at first I was gonna get up, then I changed my mind and stayed in.  And then the smell went away, and then another one - smell of burning tires when a car gets into an accident - came in its place.  It went away rather quickly too.
Its really strange.  Nothing like this ever happened to me before.
Also, when I was leaving for work in the morning, there was a dead bird by my door.  
Any comments from anyone?

[Nita]

Hi Besenok
  Maybe the question should be what does his ex-wife believe in and do? Who is your ex-boyfriend with now that you have split-up? I have a few ideas. You can burn cinnamon, cloves or coffee to remove strong negative vibrations in your space.
  To bring properity and remove negativity sprinkle majoram, rosemary, and foenugreek in the corners of the rooms. They can also be sprinkled in your car. You don't have to do so much that anyone would notice just enough to bring up the energy. You pray over the herbs before you burn or sprinkle them with what you want to achieve.
  It should help your life to go better.
    Nita

[MJ-12]

zx

[besenok]

Others have addressed the spiritual side of things, so I'll just bring up another angle briefly.

Thank you for doing this.  I guess I am not explaining myself clearly.  I have had some slight problems with my heart before, and I know how to deal with them.  What I am experiencing here is ia heartache, but its not physical, as far as I can tell.  Its just I wake up in the morning and I feel like something is really wrong, although nothing is.  You know the feeling that I am talking about?

[MJ-12]

ghj

[Flying Free Bird]

Dear Besenok.

If you're under psychic attacks, then you should read all the stuff under this forum. There are many pieces of information that you can use.

If I were you, I would focus on building myself a strong protective shielding around me. This would help both mentally and emotionally.
You could try this:
Gather all your goodwill from your heart, and see from within that there is a light glowing around you made from this goodwill. It will protect you from negative influence. Make it whatever color you like, perhaps white or golden. Keep this shield up all the time you feel like this. This works in a double way as well, because you need to concentrate on the shield, and then you won't have the time to be afraid. And one other thing on that afraid-stuff. Don't be afraid. Because then your energy level drops somewhat, and that's unnecessary. The key to fear is information. Read all you can, and practise. This is a test on your character that we all get from our supreme spirit. Be cheerful!

Good Luck!

Edited by - Flying Free Bird on 16 March 2002  08:48:54

[besenok]

Hello, everyone!
First of all, I have to admit, I don't know very much about the subject.  There has been a series of events happening to me lately, and I wanted to see whenever you might be able to help me understand what is going on.   I would like to appologize in advance for the message being too long.
It started approximately in May last year.  At that time I was living with my boyfriend, and we started having real problems - he lost his job, I was getting sick all the time.  The new troubles seemed to be adding up every single week.  At approximately the same time I started getting this feeling in the mornings.  At that time, it didn't happen every day, but about every 4-5 days.  I would wake up and my heart would be aching, like something was really wrong, although nothing seemed to be.  I also started having difficulties sleeping through the night, and I was having nightmares.
So, it was happening for a long time, every day almost would be brining us new troubles.  Then we went away for Christmas, and at the time of vacation everything was perfect. Then we came back home, and moved from the old apartment to a new one, that I liked very much.  After living there for 2 weeks, I lost my job, my boyfriend told me that he doesn't love me anymore and I should move out, I was financially broke, I had a miscarriage, and my car broke down in the middle of the freeway.  Its a lot of very bad events that all happen within 3 weeks.  I was under so much stress that I could not sleep or eat.  My boyfriend through all that time was acting very strangely, absolutely not like himself.  He was saying things like - oh, nothing is wrong, its just in your head, he started screaming at me (we had 1 fight for a year we were living together), he is acting like a total inconsiderate jerk, although its not what I have seen in him ever before!!!
I moved away, now I'm living on my own for about 3 weeks.  I can not sleep through the whole night, not one night, I have really strange dreams,  I have anxiety attacks almost nightly, and sometimes when I wake up, there is a presense in the room, I can't explain.  I also often wake up in the morning, and I could here my ex boyfriends voice calling my name desperately.
From what I understand all of this sounds a lot like a psychic attack.  My ex-boyfriend on the other hand looks like he is being controlled by somebody, he is acting that strangely, not like himself at all.
I'm open to any advice or opinion anyone mght have!
Thank you