Protecting Yourself from your Past

[Ybom]

Many many years ago, in what us Americans consider to be 10th grade, I had a relationship that I wanted to last forever, until 6 months into the relationship it was made known to me that she was in fact sleeping with a friend, although I had never considered the things people were trying to tell me. "No, she would never do such things!" or some off the wall naive comment which is usually heard from the sound of a breaking heart.

Anyways, to this day this experience has affected me in one way or another, and if I am separated from someone I love I start getting strange thoughts about dishonesty, and at certain levels unfaithfulness. Pictures flood my mind about actions going on that most likely or definitely are not happening. Sometimes I feel as if it is genuine psychic activity, but the sheer randomness of some of it makes me feel uneasy about the whole thing, and even a bit more shaky as to the source if it is clairvoyance.

Above all else, I am concerned about my stress levels and any level of depression and energy draining that's going on within me due to these feelings. Could anyone offer suggestions as to what to do to help me keep my sanity up and my stomach cramps down? Also, if you need additional info, I will try my best to provide it.

Thanks APers.

[IequalMC2]

Hello Ybom!

This is a reply Ybom but is also here for multiple reasons most of the end is irrelevant to your post. So i'm sorry about that.

I had these kind of feelings too, I think if you hold someone deer to you, it's only natural that you'll be wondering what there up to. And if you've been betrayed before, then you would be a little more paranoid about your lady.

I'm not really the person to answer this because I except anything life throws at me, its almost as if I like to suffer but i'm pretty sure I dont.        

Now about your low energy and stress levels. i'll share somthing new now Despite how mental my life is I always stay good, even if I feel like giving up and dying on the spot. This is how I stay permanently UP! When I first read this I immediately knew the answer for I had been thinking about the UP (Unmanifested Presence) for along time. The book came from my Grandmas my Mum got it from there one day, when she brought it me I knew I had already seen it before (Visualized it) David's into the Kabbalah so it probably came from him. A few days before I brought another Kabbalah book, 'Qabalistic Conceps by William G. Grey living the tree' I decided to buy this because I had been writing backwards and I click with Hebrew when I've got it out in front of me and when I need to see it.      

Anyway God was talking to Moses, I can't remember when, but I think it was before he lead them somewhere I did read this in a book though, 'Kabbalah And Exodus by Z'ev ben Shimon Halevi' that came to me via coincidence.

Anyway I think its so important that I'll quote: I am absolutely petrified of the number 33!

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Illumination Exodus 33

The conversation between God and Moses in the tent meeting outside the camp may be considered a metaphor of the dialogue within an individual between Thou and I. The level at which it takes place would be between the self, where the three lower Worlds meet, and the place where the three upper Worlds meet. The position is the sefirah at the centre of Jacob's Ladder which acts both as the knowledge of the psyche and the foundation of the spirit. This station is also associated with Archangel Gabriel who is the Annunciator. Here to is the place of the Holy Spirit as it manifests to the phyche.

The Kabbalistic significance of this position is that it enables man to hear and even see the upper worlds, even though he is still in the flesh. It moreover gives him facilitates his communication with the Divine at the crown of the psyche. Thus it was possible for Moses to converse with God while at ground level in the lower worlds.

The tent of Meeting became the place also where the children of Israel came to Moses for advice and intercession on there behalf; here, beyond the frontier of their mundane camp life, was a sacred space beyond the frontier where the teacher could enter into contact with Divine to petition and praise for them. The parallel may be seen in the individual as ego perceives the developing Soul rise up to enter into spiritual conversation that it cannot directly participate in. Experience shows that most dialogues often go on deep within the unconscious, although the ego can sometimes sense some hint of what is going on by the peace or disturbance participated by interior changes. During the time Moses was not in the tent, Joshua, his young assistant, remained on watch, as he did on the mountain. He was already trained to be Moses' successor. The same occurs with the individual as the yet inexperienced spiritual aspect of self is trusted to watch and follow.

'Moses said to the lord,' (Exodus 33:12) 'Thou didst lead this people up, but thou has not told me whom thou will send me [to lead us]. Thou has said to me, " I know thee by name and thou has found favor in my eyes." If I have found favor let me know thy ways that I may know thee?' This double request is most revealing of the process of spiritual instruction. The first is concerned with a guide. If the Lord will not accompany the people, who will help them? Moses obviously doesn't see himself as the guide either because, as the Bible later notes, he is a humble man or because while he is capable of prophetic revelation he is not yet a man of secure inner knowledge: Although he is a leader of the people, he can only assume the place of self, but not hold it as a permanent state. This symbolizes the role of any teacher as the makeshift self of the disciple until the Jacob in the disciple, the psychological self, becomes transformed into Israel, the spiritual self later represented by Jahua.

The second question is concerned with being known by God. To be known by name is to be individually acknowledged, and here Moses claims, by this privilege, to be shown the innermost ways that he might come to know God. In answer to the question 'who will be the guide of the people?' the Lord says 'My presence go with you in person.' But Moses is unsure of the meaning of this, because the lord has said he will not travel with the people, and he asks for clarification, saying, 'How will it be known thou art with us except that Thou go with us?' Here Moses seeks to draw out God's mercy into the open that the Israelites and the world at large may perceive it. But the Lord, indicating a difference in Divine Ways, avoid a direct answer and speaks only of regard to Moses by repeating that he is known by name. Here is a chain by which all esoteric teaching is imparted. The Divine instructs the teacher or the higher psyche which passes on knowledge in an intelligible form to those below in ordinary consciousness.

[Wizard of Light]

Hello Ybom,

I have had some rough relationships in my life as well.  Something that I have learned about and found rather useful when needing to severe connections of this nature, is what is called a 'tie cut'.

I use Archangel Michael for this.  Call on him and he will appear with his blazing sword.  Ask him to remove all ties associated with this relationship.  You can also ask him to remove all ties and fears related to infidelity.

He will use his sword to cut the ties between you.  You may even see the ties while he is doing this.

Then call down healing energy to heal the wounds from the severed ties.