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Hi, I figured I would take sometime to explain something's to you. Understand what I say I might not use the right terminology and what I feel I use my term as to what I sense in my own definition. Where I might call what I feel as stinging sensation one might call it a burning sensation. This causes a problem with clarification.
I want to start with the mind games. The mind game is just a psychological mind game played with you. It's based on your needs and dislikes. Understand that this can go in many directions. John used this one you in a positive way when he was painting your house after a time he turned it to the opposite. He uses your good against you and the dislikes as a way to get to you. Other words what you don't like he places in front of you, it's like saying take it whether you like it or not. It takes the good you have and want in your life so you don't have it. You have your opinions and perspective and they have the opposite and they are trying to show you the opposite also it's a part of their perspective they are showing you. I say this because in order to attack someone they must have a perspective. They may claim to be free flowing and changing their views but they don't.
Proof is 1. They believe they have a right to attack people, they prove that by attacking people.
2. They only change their perspective which isn't really their perspective it just the opposite perspective you have at the time. If I make myself so negative I then make my attacker positive. If I'm positive I then make my attacker negative.
The point behind all this is just a mind game. It's a way to toil with your mind. It's a game of, manipulation of mind thought's. It has no real purpose but to torment you. It will go until you start to wonder if anything you have done in life is right. you wonder if there is anything good or worthy, right, I could go on with many words. You start asking what is wrong with me. You need to realize that there is nothing wrong with you, it's not you it's the other person they are an abuser.
I have to say I had experienced with this in an abusive relationship before. Everything started out fine, the person then starts to change, actually back to the normal self which is aggressive but to an over extreme on the negative side. You wonder what you have done to make this person react this way. You will also be told that's it's your fault for the actions and words that has happened. It's a part of their personality, attitude, disposition they need to change. As time goes by the incidences get worse and you keep getting told that it's you, all you, you are the reason. It's part of your personality to accept this, call it your weakness. After you have taken in enough of the blame you come to see hey wait a minute it's not really me it's you. This is where the reversal starts to take place. Where you start to fight back. Understand when I say fighting it doesn't mean physical or psychological. It's hard in our situation because we can't just walk away from these people and just end it as other ways of abuse can be ended. Attackers are people who can take no for an answer. They don't understand the mean of no for them just for you and other people. The are the taker's of the word. All of victims a few aspects that are the same. One is a giver, sensitive just to name a few.
Understand that psychological attacks are on several levels. We do this verbal when we disagree. What need to be understood is what we are doing being fair to each other.
Right now I can said to be an attacker because I'm writing what other's believe doesn't exist. I have another awareness they haven't learned let. It's not a perspective it's an awareness. A perspective is just a belief if something can happen or the cause of the happening. There are many people that argue their perspective from the awareness they have obtain but to reach another level of awareness they also learned what wasn't possible has just became possible.
I also want to say that our physical expression is also a form of attack. We use this also to express like or dislike of things.
Then we have the psychic attacks, I use this as a term for attacks used from mind to mind. It's needs to be understood that you can be attacked in your mind without your realization of it occurring. This can be done in meditation. I have read that you can come into contact with negativity if your not aware of what or who you are speaking with.
Meditation is a form of trap to say. I say this because when you meditate you communicate with something, someone (I leave this open for interpretation). When you mediate it becomes a philosophical game. Which can become tricky. There are many double standards to all this. Someone may tell you what is right for you but it very well may not be. They can also tell you what is good for you. Don't take what I say as all negative. Many thought's are flowing to me and to fast to be able to keep up with each thought.
One key to attacks is to keep you in your mind and not to live your life. I experience most of my time in my head. These isn't a good thing to do. You will lose your emotions due to this not just from being attacked and the attacker not letting you feel your emotions.
I do this because it serves me a purpose. One I have been in my mind most my life which is a hard habit to break. I would have to say it comes with the ability and I need to learn to turn if off. I also do it because I need to understand things about myself not just myself but I haven't found the information I have received. It's lock up in my mind. Part of my being is here for this exact purpose to stop what is being done to us through attacks. Each one of us attack people without realizing what extent we are attack people to. Through attacking other people we can also harm ourselves. I was given some information as a child which has to do with power's of the mind. This came through a voice in my head. I never developed it to the extent I should have not just because of the attack I'm going through now. They gave this information to me because who I am and because they don't want it to be used to attack people.
When I was a child I could look into people. I was no more then 7 and I know a handicapped person. He had downsydrome. I knew people made fun of him. I looked into him. I saw more then what people could see. He has the same consciousness we have. He knew people made fun of him. They have the same mental consciousness we do they just can't express it as we do. Most of it has to do with the physical body and the expression of the physical body and not the mind.
I also want to say there is another type of attack. This is an energy attacker. I have had much experience with this but don't know the correct terminology to use. This is the manipulation of energy. I won't go through this I'm still learning the aspects of it and have to redefine my terminology of my experience and knowledge for a better understanding.