Wow, my first Psychic Attack!

[Wells]

Wow, I'm pretty sure I just fended off my first direct psychic attack!

OK firstly, for quite a few years now I've been having some rather unnatural thoughts about a certain person.  But it wasn't until about 2 weeks ago that I actually learnt about negs, neg attachments, and that these thoughts may not be my own.  Indeed I know they're not!

About 4 months ago I started to take control of my mind myself, pushing these thoughts away as soon as they appeared.  I've been very sucessful with this, the thoughts seemed to give way easily.

Then this morning I was in a dream.  The dream progressively became more and more uneasy, something wasn't quite right.  Then this person that I've had thoughts about appeared.  It was the source of the uneasiness.  This character was trying to... you know, with me.  Of course I resisted strongly, but it was persistant.  I wasn't aware I was in a dream but at some point I did realise this was a neg or something.

Then I was suddenly at this person's computer, and on it was a series of core images!  Loads of them there, like a gallery! I navigated around, looking at them, definately core images - that unique look I'm sure we all know, absolutely vile and disturbing, animated in some cases  (I'll have to tackle these later, although I'm having problems with the core images technique).  I wonder what would have happened if I had pressed the 'Delete' button

The person had dissapeared while I was doing this, but then shortly after it was there again.  This is where the action happened.  The person suddenly lunged forwards at me, and grabbed hold of my ear!  I was punching it in the face, but then I was no longer in a dream, I was in my mind.  There was a strong 'thing' in front of me in my mind (not visible, but 'there' nonetheless, rearing up and trying to engolf me.  I was much stronger than it (thank God!) althoguh it was still a battle!  I pushed it away from me and down, down and away (not sure if this is correct, have I just pushed this thing down into my subconscious?).  I was having problems with fully getting rid of it - it was lingering at a certain point.

I had to think quickly - "Dammit, I've forgotten everything from Practical Psychic Defence!", but then imagined a crucifix in my awareness/mind's hand and stabbed it onto this thing's face.  This had a reaction and very soon this thing was gone completely.  I awoke immediately with an 'omg' expression on my face!

Quite an experience.  It's almost a relief to have finally seen this thing for what it is - these thoughts are not my own, and I am determined to rid myself of this.  I'll be returning to Psychic Self Defence and refreshing my memory of the techniques.  Core images here I come........!

PS:  Actually, I'd better ask a few questions.  Why do you think I had this attack - does this mean the NEG is getting weaker, and attacked as a last ditch effort?  Was my pushing this "away and down" just pushing it back deep into my subconscious?  Is there anything else I could have done?  Oh and is there any significance in the fact that it grabbed my ear?  Thanks!

[Archnea]

Perhaps the person was trying to steal your energy. My mother does that to people. Just recently she tried to teach my 11-year old daughter to do it. Luckily my daughter asked me about it and I told her not to listen to her Grandmother and told her that nothing but bad karma will come from stealing other peoples energy. People like that are never really happy or fulfilled by their lives.

[Covelo]

I would suggest that you found something it may have implanted in your energy and figured out how to remove it, thus angering it into retaliating more directly.  I have found that these beings seem to target especially those who have greater potential for doing good things in the world and that you are 'on the right track'...keep developing your abilities and focusing on good deeds, my friend.

Good energy...

Covelo

[Van-Stolin]

Yeah, I had the same feeling when I was attacked, this neg was a tricky one, especually since it had attacked when I was only in middle school, I didn't know why I had no energy all the time and now I know why.

This neg was like a doppleganner, it would transform into the creature that I was most afraid of at the time and feed off of my fear.  Finnally I was able to get rid of it with the help of a friend that knew about these things.  

I had confronted it in a dream and told it that I wasn't afraid anymore, it seemed to shrink back, but then tried to attack, being a dream and one of the only lucid dreams that I had, I basicly went Goku on him and blasted it away with my energy.  Haven't heard of it since.

[mactombs]

It sounds to me like you had a dream.

[violetrose]

Dear Wells,

Yes, core images can be difficult to find if you are not used to the process.  It may be harder for a kinesthetic person (a more touchie feelie type as apposed to a visual person) to find core images.  You may find it easier to locate negative energies, negative stored memories and attachments by using the NEW method, which is a highly kinesthetic process.  

If you continue to have problems with finding core images I recommend:
(1) Use your dreams to help you find core images.  Before falling asleep request that your dream mind help you find core images.
(2) Go through past traumatic events.  Remembering past traumas can frequently bring up core images.
(3) Try using Robert's NEW method.  Get a good feel for your energy body and awareness hands and then start mentally brushing and even using a mental saw go through ever inch of your body.  Start with areas which are sore or have moles or the like.  You will notice when you do this it is easy to detect the location of negative energy.  What can happen as you saw or brush the negative energy, is that a core image will suddenly pop up in your mind.  Heavy brushing actions greatly help weaken attachment points and keep the energy body healthy.   Negs do not always implant core images they can use old memories or past traumatic events to work on.  

Note:  While I believe in negs I would like to state here that another possibility is it is a negative thought form created from events in your past (not likely but possible).  Fortunately either way the solutions to finding and solving this problem are similar.  Core imaging and NEW being very helpful in this department.

The ultimate solutions which fend off and prevent neg or demonic attacks require tremendous dedication and long hours of work on self:
(1) Know every aspect and inch of yourself inside and out.
(2) Be able to hold the mind perfectly clear without thought for very extended periods of time.
(3) Develop a God connection through prayer, meditation and devotion to love and light.

Best Wishes,
violetrose

[Wells]

Thanks for the help guys.  I know what needs to be done, and it means a big change in the way I live my day-to-day life.

I really need to get down to business and spend more time on NEW etc, awareness.  It's just tough with being a student, lots of work, I'm constantly tired and going to sleep at very early times!

The one thing I know I need is exercise - both for the physical benefits and for strengthening my willpower, taking control of this lazy body.  I think it's gonna be tough - but hey, that's the whole point isn't it?

Wells

[Covelo]

Wells,

I don't think it needs to be tough at all...I think it's all in how you look at things.  I find that excercise is one of the most enjoyable things to do, especially when working or playing some sport of some type.  It always make the body feel so good and cleansed.  I suggest you get more into feeling all the different parts of the body or more 'in tune' with it and just have fun doing it...That's what I believe to be the most beneficial approach.

I think that things we do are only as tough as we make them on ourselves, no matter what the circumstances are.  I think our mental attitude or feelings are really the keys that will help us get the most out of something.

All be well...

Covelo