Burning of Desire

[Tony M.]

I can really relate to that! I've experienced similar things and only until recently I began to see these things happening around me.

Lately, I sometimes have this thought combined with a feeling that's trying to tell me something. The thought is that I live in some sort of Matrix and that I can do everything I want, that I can attract anything that I want.

Can't tell you more right now because I'm tired...[]

Greets,

Tony

[Lighthouse]

I believe this point of view is completely valid.  I am going to relate a story to you that happened to me about a year ago...

I had the most wonderful experience that very clearly showed me exactly how I create my experience and exactly how powerful my mind is.  I entered a speech competition.  I thought I wanted to win and actually joined a second club with the hopes that by joining the second club, I would increase my chances of winning.  The way the competition works within Toastmasters is that first you compete at the Club level against 3 or 4 of your fellow club members.  There are 4 or 5 clubs within an Area so the next level is Area, then Division, and so on until you reach the International level.  

In this second club I joined, there is a guy named Ryan who at 8 years old, won a public speaking championship for 4H at the state level talking about Lego's.  Even before joining this other club, I was a bit intimidated by this guy and viewed him as the one person I had heard speak who I might lose to when competing against him.  Why shouldn't I be intimidated? At the time of the speech competition, he was about 26 and had been a public speaker for about 20 years when we competed against each other in this speech competition.  Additionally, in the last contest he entered, he went all the way to the District level competition which means that of the 3500 people who entered the competition in the district, he was in the top 5.
In preparing for my club competition where I was to be competing against him, I concerned myself with 2 things: I wanted to make an impact on as many people as possible and I was concerned that I might lose the contest to Ryan.  Low and behold, sure enough, I did make an impact on many people who were present for the competition and sure enough, I came in second to Ryan.

That was okay though because I still had my other club that I would be competing in and even though the club was four times the size of the club I was in with Ryan, that I had no fears about winning.  Sure enough, I placed first in that contest and won the opportunity to compete at the Area level where I would be competing again against Ryan.  

This time, I concerned myself with 3 things.  The first was that I was concerned again about losing to Ryan, the second was that I was told that a certain judge who would be judging my speech is notorious for not understanding the types of speeches I give.  So, I was concerned that the judge would not "get it."  Because of this, I spent hours trying to improve and simplify my speech in hopes that this judge would actually get it and not mark me down on his ballot because he didn't understand the speech.  This I thought would then allow me to come in first, ahead of Ryan.  The third thing I was concerned about was that I wanted to make an impact on as many people as possible and help them see themselves differently.

The Title of my speech was "Whatever Doesn't Kill you Only Makes you Stronger" and I talked about how we draw certain experiences to ourselves through our thoughts. I went on to talk about 3 rather "negative" expereiences I had in childhood.  I explained to the audience that I had the thoughts first and that I drew these experiences to myself in order to provide me with the context to understand what I had been thinking.  

I explained that before my Grandmother ever told me that if I wasn't skinny, I couldn't be a singer, I believed that if I were not skinny, I couldn't be a singer.  I talked about a Ballet teacher who called me a "Fat Tub of Lard" and that the ballet teacher wasn't telling me anything I didn't already believe to be true... I already thought I was fat.  I further explained that I met my first REAl crush who was also the boy on the bus who called me fat, it was right after my parents had gone through a really tough divorce and I had not been receiving the love and attention I needed.  I internalized these feelings of not feeling loved and determined that I was unworthy of being loved because I was fat.  My experience with the boy was merely giving me the context to understand what I had already been thinking about myself.  

I then told the audience how they can change their thoughts and focus on positive things in order to filter out negative experiences and therefore they would draw more positive experiences to themselves.  I delivered the speech with poise and purpose, my gestures were right on, my eye contact was perfect and I knew that my speech was filled with great content.  I knew that it was the best damn speech I had ever delivered up to that point.
After I delivered the speech, I was getting thumbs up all over and many people told me that they really were affected by my words.  

Then, after the Area competition was over, the Area Governor stood up and said, "The person who will represent Area 48 in the event that the winner can not be present is, Kerri."  I couldn't believe it, I didn't win.  

Then, a few very interesting things happened.  First of all, Ryan won.  Then, that judge who I had been concerning myself about "not getting" my message came up to me and said, "You know, your stories were really good, but I just didn't get it."  Also, there was actually a line that formed of people waiting to talk to me and tell me what a great impact I made on them with that speech I had just delivered.  

It took me about an hour of feeling sorry for myself then it hit me: I had drawn to myself the exact outcome that I had been focusing on.  I thought I was focused on winning because I was thinking about Not wanting to lose to Ryan and Not wanting that judge to miss the point.  The only thing I was focusing on in the positive was that I wanted to affect as many people as possible and that happened too.

I tell this story in order to illustrate 2 points.  First, we do indeed draw to ourselves the exact experiences that we focus our thoughts on and our minds are very powerful.  Second, that the universe is unbiased and nonjudgmental, it will not negate what we are focusing our energy upon.  If we focus on what we do not want, that is the experience we will draw to ourselves.  If we focus on what we do want, that is the experience we will draw to ourselves.  We need to always think in the positive and this will bring us positive results.  If we choose to focus on the negative, those thoughts will bring us negative results.  


Kerri

[Comokisadore]

I don't know if anyone can relate but I want to share my experience about physical manifestations in my life that lead me to beleive that everything I desire comes true around me constantly yet I have been unaware of it until recently.

Its complicated but I will try to explain, everyone has this gift,
When we desire something very much and totally forget about the desire to the extent that we really don't care anymore, the object of desire will come to us.

This has happened to me while on the bus many times, After a long time of riding the bus, I have been conditioned to automatically go into a trance state and I have just recently noticed that some women get attracted to me when I have no desire for women at all ( for that moment, anyways).

This beutiful cool heavenly feeling comes all over me and I am in a perfect state with my higher self, and I do not think or say anything, this sometimes is a problem because I am not functioning 100% in the physical and I would later understand everything that happened and get the whole picture.

It takes some patience to get into this state of bliss and people do it all the time without knowing.

For me this state usually comes when I am about to receive something that is important.

This is the way I have met my first girlfreind.

I have passed on so many opportunities for finding the right mate in this state, but i have recently discovered that the women never stop coming so no need to worry. This is a perfect way for me to meet a person that is right for me, with the right personality, as oppose to finding any woman and later discovering that we are not right for each other.

This phenomenon also applies to other aspects in my life including self defense ( a feeling of heaviness and burning in my throat from anger which leads to releasing of dangerous kundalini energy at the target), and job that is vital for my living.

This phenomenon makes perfect sense, and Quantum physicsts back it up by stating that two electrons can communicate faster than the speed of light despite distance.

I beleive when two objects distant objects are in harmony with each other, they attract each other possibly because they are vibrating at the same rate.

this phenomenon is also mentioned in the books, how one of the prophets resisted illegal sexual intercourse with a beautiful women because he knew resisting that desire would bring him in peace and harmony with the divine.

Because I beleive that God is free from all wants and desires, we become more perfect, more divine and move closer to him when we are free from desires and wants. <--- This probably doesn't make sense, but thats the best way I can put it.

I hope I did not offend anyone with this post. This is my opinion based on my personal experience and may not be necessairly true for all people, but because all of us are made of us are divine in nature, I assume we all have this gift(at least the good people anyways)

PEACE & Love,
Como