The "dirty," yellowish figure

[hermes_thricegreat]

I wasn't quite sure which forum to post this in, but this seemed to be the most sensible since I did have a spiritual evolution of sorts.  The story begins when I was younger and feeling extremely depressed at that particular time. I had been going through a seriously "blue" period (yes, I did have recurring suicidal thoughts) and something happened that to this day I still cannot explain.  One day while feeling intensely depressed, I decided to take a walk. While I was walking along, I noticed a "dirty," yellowish figure about six feet behind me.  It did not have a distinct form to speak of, but I could feel its shape so to speak.  It did not have a distinguishable head, but the region of form that could have been it's head was bent down as if hanging it's head in sorrow.
    As I stated, I could feel its presence more than see it.  It was like as if I had one foot in this universe, and the other foot was somewhere else (?).  After a few moments, the figure was gone.  I have to say that I am the type of person that 'blue" periods are just part of my life.  I know that for some in explainable reason (as I'm sure many of you out there have felt yourselves) that I must go through these episodes in order to spiritually grow, at least that's been true in my whacked out life.
    To continue.  Several months later, after the "blue" period had ended so to speak, I saw the figure again.  When I saw it again, it was a brighter yellow, almost a grey-white, and it was moving shoulder to shoulder along side me as I was out walking again.  The figure's posture seemed upright and stronger, the color brighter.  I only saw the figure for a few moments, but like I stated, it wasn't behind me this time, it was "hovering" side by side with me.  
    Has anyone out there experienced anything similar to my experience?
Was it some sort of guide (?) or was it my fractured consciousness catching up to itself (?).  To this day, almost 10 years later, the experience is still very vivid in my head.  Thanks for hearing me out.

[Ybom]

hermes_thricegreat,
I believe you will get a common answer around here, that it is a projection of yourself. Strangely, you are able to see it where others are not. I suggest you try to unconsciously follow some, or all, of the footsteps you took directly before you witnessed this phenomenon, and then try to change something miniscule, like try a different emotion like anger, and see if the color changes at all.

With practice, diligence, whatever, you probably will be able to see this figure for longer periods of time, and actually be able to manipulate what it is, like a familiar.

Of course, this would be the ideal way to go if you gave me the same situations. This is what I believe and I could be wrong!