Flashbacks in Life

[Pauli2]

I wonder if other people who have started with APing also have experienced flashbacks from times when you were younger?

after I started with OBE attempts and similar activities, it seems that I get flashback from when I was young. Often the flashbacks involve something where I do something wrong. I make some kind of missjudgement or even act plainly wrong. Sometimes I wasn't aware that I committed something wrong when it happened, but now several years later I realize that certain act could have been performed much better by my. Sometimes I've not been paying attention enough or just walk into situations too fast with too little experience.

What surprise me is that these events pop up in my head from completely different times in life, and these events which I'm sometimes not too proud of comes quite frequently now, after my AP activities started. There must be a connection.

[Naykid]

I had an experience where I went back to a point in my childhood, (field day at school to be exact) and I watched the whole scene play out from a third person view.  It was wild looking at my younger self, interacting with other kids.   It was as I remembered, only difference was I could feel what the other kids were feeling at the time. 

I would love to do that with several different key points in my past but I've experienced it only that one time so far.

Great question. 

[TofuAttack]

I had an experience where I went back to a point in my childhood, (field day at school to be exact) and I watched the whole scene play out from a third person view.  It was wild looking at my younger self, interacting with other kids.   It was as I remembered, only difference was I could feel what the other kids were feeling at the time. 

I would love to do that with several different key points in my past but I've experienced it only that one time so far.

Great question. 

cool experience naykid!
how did this happen? was it while practising AP?

[Naykid]

I can't remember if I was trying for an projection but fell asleep and that was the dream I had or it was just a lucid dream.   I fall asleep trying quite a bit, but I usually have a vivid dreams, so I'm not too disappointed that I didn't have a conscious exit.

[personalreality]

this supports a theory i have that i hope to apply one day in my psychology practice.

part of AP is experiencing your subconscious in a direct way.  whether that means creating the inner kingdom i've been talking about lately or just dealing with suppressed fears and the like, you are still interacting with different parts of yourself.  i think that undertaking AP forces you to confront your life, kind of like your life flashing before your eyes at death or NDE.  it's also because you're growing and learning more about yourself and your reality.  you're healing yourself.

[Naykid]

I think you are right. 

The actual event took place the same year my step mother killed herself in my bed (I was nine) and left a note pretty much blaming my sister, brother and myself.  She was physically abusive and had already killed two of our dogs by kicking them to death, so that left some issues.   I think me watching the scene and feeling the other kids emotions about me showed me that I wasn't the useless, no good child that I thought I was. 

[Stookie]

Like Pauli, I have a lot of childhood memories I relive, sometimes things I've forgotten about for years. One thing I've noticed myself, is a lot of these events are things that have shaped my perspective in one way or another, but as I relive them, I see my perception at the time was wrong and I now have the ability to correct it, giving me a more correct perception of the world around me and my relation to it. I used to be really hung up on childhood and nostalgia, but most of those "great" moments I can see now as pointless, and the importance I put on them was all in my head. And other long forgotten moments that I thought were of no importance played a much bigger role than I ever knew.

It also reminds me of Carlos Casteneda's books, where Don Juan talks about "recapitulation", basically meditating through your entire life and reliving each experience.

[personalreality]

he also teaches the total deletion of a "personal history"

[Pauli2]

Regarding don Juan, beware of false prophets.

Amy Wallace wrote The Sorcerer's Apprentice. I don't know if she counts as a female shaman or a witch or just someone with magical powers. But apparently her book revolves around her 20 years as a follower to an inappropriate and dubious authority figure.

[personalreality]

people say the same about castaneda. 

it is what it is.

the books were good.

[Stookie]

Yeah, Castaneda books are fun to read. I always read them as fiction, but there is a lot of good stuff in them. I've always been aware that Don Juan may not have been real at all. But the descriptions of other states of awareness, and awareness itself is good reading.

[personalreality]

my boss always says that Castaneda's books were true/real and she says it with a confidence that makes me think she knows something that the average Castaneda reader doesn't.