How to find my soul pieces and put my metaphysical self back together?

[beavis]

The following thread is a bigger subject. It contains the quotes below which are relevant to my lost soul pieces, at least I think thats what happened. I've been through some bizarre things, even by the standards of astralpulse forum, how I became mixed with various things expanding myself and how I lost other parts of myself with some overlap. I'm asking for help in how to figure out what happened, look for whats missing, and get it back where it should be, so I can continue where I left off metaphysically.

"From zero to bending space in 5 months - It changed my life forever"
http://www.astralpulse.com/forums/welcome_to_metaphysics/from_zero_to_bending_space_in_5_months_it_changed_my_life_forever-t44400.0.html

A big part of how I became more skilled at these metaphysical things was something I did while listening to music. There are many spirits, or whatever you want to call those life forms out there, who never did or dont anymore have the ability to hear music like we do, so when I telepathicly broadcast my experience of listening to music, they experienced it with me. This became stronger over time as more of them came to flow with us as we all experience the music together. I eventually lost count of how many spirits were there with me, probably in the thousands. Many of them wanted to amplify this process so they continued to flow energy to me with no obligation of what I would choose to do with it. Spirits came from very far away, other galaxies or dimensions or who knows how far it went, to get in on this musical experience we were all having together. My telekinesis and other metaphysical things became stronger fueled by it.

These thousands of spirits (or whatever you want to call the many dimensional life forms) who experienced the music with me, became mixed with me and I'm not sure what parts were me and what parts were some of them, what I was before and what I am now, and it really doesnt matter because we are at every moment of here and now what we are and should proceed from there. This mixing will become important later in the story when some parts of myself are lost.

These amazing things continued, it appeared with no limit in sight, until I had an accident on a bicycle where I broke my leg, which is now healed but at the time it set in motion states of mind that my metaphysical abilities could not survive in. Just before the accident, maybe I couldnt handle how fast my concept of reality was changing, the new abilities that came with it, or where I thought it was leading. It was all very distracting. Living on Earth didnt feel like the most real thing at the time. Theres other forms of reality we can touch at any time and place, and I was touching them continuously all the time. The 5 months that changed my life forever ended.

Parts of myself metaphysically separated and went their own ways. Those parts could not stand to exist in such a damaged mind and body, the mental damage resulting not from any physical damage to the brain but from the continuous physical pain for months. After the leg healed, which was not completely healed for a few years, I had become used to not having metaphysical abilities and those parts of myself as a spirit being gone, which made me think I would always be stuck that way. It felt like what I had near the end of those 5 months, I would never have again, but today as I write this I think maybe I could.

I need to get back those parts of myself that went their own ways in metaphysics because I had given up. I need to let them know I changed my mind and choose to become what I was and continue where I left off. But how would I find them? And if I do find them, maybe they've found other forms of reality they like better than continuing this with me? Would they want to come back and become part of my whole metaphysical self again? Would we be compatible after so long? I have become spread across the galaxies and many dimensional forms of reality, and I don't know how to put myself back together. What a strange problem to have. Can anyone help me find those parts of myself?