Since meditating and projecting I notice everything that pops up in my mind. But a lot of times REALLY negative thoughts pop up. They have no control at all over me and I am disgusted with them but I will them away pretty easy. Only the positive actions/words are in control though.
To give an analogy: It's like my mind is a room with a control center. An angel is manning all the controls for everything that I do. But in that room is a demon caged in the corner. He can NEVER get out(and he knows this) but he spits every curse he can at times.
Has anyone experienced this at all? Is it just my conscience?
Yes, I have experienced this. The demon is you and you are the cage. Let him be. He has a lot to get off his chest. He needs to let it go. You keep him with the cage. The energies are divided and segregated. The flow must be allowed to be restored. Good / bad are just labels that you have applied to certain energy form configurations. You allowed the energy to form in that way. Let go of the form and it will be allowed to balance itself out.
So how do I accomplish that? Like when I am alone with my thoughts the negative is never there just when I am around other people really.
You might need to find out what the demon is so cranky about. These might be repressed emotions that eventually need to be confronted and acknowledged. That doesn't mean you have to let them have control, but instead get to the root of the problem and try to come to terms with it.
I will just have to meditate more I suppose. Thanks!
I know VERY well what you are talking about. I have the same problem during my meditation and during my normal state. It's like this "thing" is trying to push my mind into insinity, keeps saying bad stuff that I KNOW are not mine. Try to block him as much as you can and do the following exercise every day:
Stand with your feet on the ground and imagine that roots begin to grow from your feet into the earth until it gets to the core, then imagine that white-golden-pure light is pooring over your head and it cleans your mind, soul, body and imagine the dark energies going out into the earth's core...Then imagine that a pair of hands keeps bringing the energy from the core and cleansing you.
I think the demon just wants attention. He needs to express himself, and he expects to get a rise out of you. The typical response, of course, would be to want to fight him. However, I believe that that just gives him more power. Let him say what he has to say and then move on. He is a part of you, and therefore needs acceptance- even though you do not condone his behavior. I think he's mad because we like to reject him.
I think facing things like this is just part of the human experience. Our dualistic minds are defined by opposites. If you're defined by opposites, you'll always have something to oppose you. The only way to resolve this is through transcendence.
I meditated the other day on this and the past few days it's lessened. I will still have to try that meditation that you suggested Night Mist.
Yeah it seems just accepting him and realizing that if I just let nature take control he will go away.