How can I trust the astral to live in when things so often fade away?

[beavis]

I know I am forever in some form or another but that could be randomized across galaxies not in any shape resembling consciousness until after some huge time I happen to form into life again. You can randomize me and delay me but never permanently destroy me. But theres not much practical difference for those billions of years or more I'd be randomized.

When my body dies I'll probably have a choice to again be absorbed into the Earth energy structure or to explore outward and need to build much of the things I lack instead of having them given to me. The problem is I'll probably be very confused at the time, maybe feeling a strong need to get back what I just lost, not thinking straight, and I dont know if I would resist mindlessly coming back to spreading myself across maybe thousands of Human minds or just one I'm not sure the combinations. It seems out there to be a mess of low density partial worlds fading away from lack of use and a bunch of empty space of many dimensions which you can easily form into new things. In the best case I'd build my own forms of reality from that emptyness and divide 1 into 2 into 4 into 8 and so on multiplying dimensions until I have a well ordered system like I'm used to building things with. But something is bound to come up unexpected that I'm not able to deal with, and I'll have to leave for a while to figure it out, maybe after forming other shapes.

I just dont trust things I dont have a good statistical model of their behaviors, either things I've built or observed for long enough in contexts they didnt expect to find themself in.

If I choose to go outward after this Human body dies, I'm merging myself with a different energy system that may gain control of me in ways I wouldnt accept. Certain thought patterns might not be available anymore, that brains are so good at. Even while we're out there temporarily while body is alive, it could be partially the brain doing some of it.

Theres lots of things I dont trust in this world too. Everyone seems to be trying to grab a piece of the world to control and get me to use it under their control.

But a time will come I'll have to make that choice, and theres risk either way.

[baro-san]

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When my body dies I'll probably have a choice to ...
But a time will come I'll have to make that choice, and there's risk either way.

Don't worry, you won't make your choice with your Earthly brain / mind.

[ThaomasOfGrey]

You are probably correct to not trust this reality or any other beavis. Ultimately trust has to be earned to be useful or we are just talking blind faith vested in anything or anyone.

There is a chance that what you experience after physical death is such a radical change that it effectively is true death. I think it could be useful to accept that outcome in the same way an atheist might accept mortality in this life.

Don't worry, you won't make your choice with your Earthly brain / mind.

From some perspectives this could be even more worrying: "Choose carefully Neo, red pill or blue pill? But first you will drink this mind altering potion that takes the choice out of your hands".