please help...

[kakkarot]

take charge of your life. don't let bad things happen to you, and most importantly, don't let thoughts about wondering if bad things will happen stay in your mind. decide that life for you is going to be what you want it to be, and that you will face the negative things and force them to be better. and then do it.

also, shield. doing what i said to do above is either going to get the thing attacking you to leave, or to confront you. if it confronts you, confront it back. tell it to get lost, that life will be pleasant for you because you will make it so.

next, trust in yourself that you CAN make your life better, and start doing it. stop putting attention on the negative things in your life, and start focusing on doing good things and recieving the good things that come your way.

~kakkarot

[Child of the Forest]

Thanks very much for writing back. When you said that whatever is attacking me may confront me, in what way might this happen? I don't understand why this stuff happens, I never focus on negativity, I always focus on positivity, especially the light of the vibrant loving spirits of nature...

...I have been intouch with my higher self for quite sometime now, perhaps that is why this is happening, someone or something is trying to drag me back down. Every night before I start doing energy development work, I always say that only positive spirits of the light are allowed and always make it a point to say that I don't even believe in the negative, but lots of times I still have the dreams of my father or something that I don't like and then I get attacks. I have tried this thing called the "deflect" method where whenever an attack thought enters my mind, I just say, "deflect, deflect" this works on the minor attack thoughts, but not really so much on the major ones. As you said, I am going to pay no attention at all to the attacks, hopefully they will dissapear as did the Skunk in my dream. Thank You again very much for your help, I am sure it will help me put an end to the attacks.
With Love,
Tom  

[Child of the Forest]

Hello everyone. I am in some need of help. I don't quite know exactly how to describe my problem, but here goes anyway...

I get these sort of psychic attacks where I just feel really badly about myself. It makes me feel like all the beatiful things I know are true in life, like the forest and the vibrant, loving spirits there, will somehow dissapear from my life (although I know as a fact they never will dissappear)It also makes me feel that I will accidentally hurt the ones I love in some way, somehow I will accidentally hurt someone, although I know that this also cannot happen. These attacks come and go, sometimes they will not bother me for a long time, but then suddenly one will come...
They are often accompanied by a bad headache and burning ears, also sometimes, the need to go to sleep. I don't know what to do with this, it pains me so. These attacks are also almost always preceded by certain types of dreams. usually about something non-specific, like a food item or something like that. When this food item that I saw in the dream pops up in the physical (usually within a few days), an attack begins. An example, one night, I had a dream that I picked a red pear out of a pear tree while in the company of an ex-girlfriend who brings back bad memories from a very bad period of life. I believe this all took place at night time. The next day, I was getting ready to go for a walk in the forest and wanted to bring a snack. I went to look for an apple in the fruit basket, but there were only red pears. I immediately rembered the dream and the negative feelings that came with it and wondered if eating the pear would cause bad things to happen. But I decided that I shouldn't be afraid to eat the pear and so, I took it with me. Everything was fine, as I remember, until the sun started going down that day. Then I began getting psychic attacks and feeling badly about myself. The attack lasted for a couple of days, and then went away. I have talked to my mother about this, she says the same thing happens to her. She has dreams of my father, her ex-husband, and every single time has something bad happen afterward, usually long days of depression where she feels like all she wants to do is go to sleep and never wake up. She also has dreams of my father's wife, one for example in which his wife was putting her arm around my mom, trying to befriend her, - these dreams too are followed up by negativity. I have always had these types of dreams about my father too, detalied and very threatening. I've even had these dreams during the short period of time where my father seemed to be nice. I once had a dream where he was trying to take my brain out, trying to get me to lie down on some couch in a strange room so he could cut my head open. I rember my sister being there as well, I think he was trying to turn her against me to help him take out my brain. I'm not sure if he was trying to do that, or was jusy obviosley not trying to get her brain out, only going for mine. Either way, my sister was still in the dream. I also had a terrible dream once that my father shot a dear. We were in some cabin and I had a video tape playing in the vcr. He recorded over it, and all I did was ask him why, in an upset way. He started screaming at me and grabbed my face, I rember the ferocious feeling of hate and anger eminating from his eyes as he screamed at me. Then I left the cabin and went outside into the forest. I was happy and alive. There was a deer, docile and loving. My father then appeared again and shot the deer who fell into some kind of ditch. I was extremely saddened and upset by this. Then I woke from the dream wondering why I would dream something like that, because at the time (about 2 years ago), I guess I didn't see my father's true intentions on just constantly hurting people, actually going out of his way to do so. It would take me years to explain this to you. The other night too, I had a dream of him. There were these buildings, my sister and I were in them, I don't rember what we were doing - all I know is that this building was surrounded by a baby blue sky and white puffy clouds. My father found me and wanted to talk, I got the impression he was trying to find things out about me. We ended up on the rooftop where I had already written in some type of line-language, a code of straight lines, my entire sppiritual beliefs. These lines tapped aloud like morse code and that is how they could be read. My father seemed very angered by my beliefs and was trying to extinguish them and repremand me in a very hosile way. I rememer looking at the puffy white clouds drifting from right to left, in the baby blue sky. My father wanted to talk to my sister as well, but did not know where she was. I hoped she was alright and that he wouldn't find her - I wondered where she was myself... Well, the day aftyer that dream was followed up with another psychic attack. But more so, was the day after. A major attack came and I was feeling extremely terrible. Normally, I never watch television, I strongly dislike tv. However, my little cousin, Rita, wanted to watch her tape of the Powerfuff Girls movie, so I put it in. I layed there, slumped in the couch, when suddnely, I relized that the clouds and blue sky in that dream had been a signpost, just as were the foods...

...the Warner Brothers logo came on to the tv screen, baby blue sky, clouds drifting from right to left. After that, I left my Aunts house where I had been watching my cousins, and went back across the street to my house. After eating dinner, I went back across to my Aunt's. My cousin James then asked me how to spell the word Skunk (he was finishing up some spelling homework) I immediatley remebered another dream from the night before the cloud dream. Me my sister, and some other people were sitting on some concrete steps when a skunk came along. Everyone was petting him. I pet him, and he dissappeared with a poof, kind of popping sound and there was a light skunk scent on me. Hopefully this means that the attacks will dissappear. I think these attacks at me and my mother are from my father and his wife, whether they know that they are causing them or not. Perhaps they think hostile and negative thoughts toward us which sends out vibes of negative energy. is This attack has been coming and going for some days now and I am in desperate need to some how alleviate them so that I can feel the happiness within. Can you please help me and my mother, these attacks really do a number on us and we have no idea how to stop them. If you can give us some advice or help in anyway, it would be greatly appreciated.
Filled with Love and Hope,
Tom