Please, help me!

[jeame]

Hello all,

This is a true and deep request for help, from the bottom of my heart!

Any shamans or other healing experts, please, consider this charity, i will be forever in your debt, or i will find a way to compensate you, energetically/etherically or other.

Thank you very much in advance for taking the time to read this, i will be as concise as i can, for now, so it doesn´t get too long...

I am 44 years old, the son of an abusive/sadistic father and an emocionally absent/cold mother. i have been depressed deeply all of my life. i have been living a night/escapist/excessive live, all my life; until three years ago, when i moved to Rio in search for change, peace, healing, a new life... back home I did therapy, medication, etc... Nothing really helped...

The beggining of this year i discovered my spiritual existence, at last! It was in a Ayahuasca/bioenergy/healing ceremony, and i realised the imense potenciallity for cure that lies in the spirit world. I have been a Tarot reader for over three years, and i truly love helping others in their path.

I am very interested in shamanism/healing/reiki/spiritual awareness, and these are all paths i am pursuing and want to deepen in my live. Not just in order to heal myself (first), but also to help others (after). (currently studying Sandra Ingerman and Michal Harner)

I am going trought a very difficult time at the moment, it probably also is the dealing with the new boundaries my awareness brought, realising and curing my spiritual condition, etc... My first experiences with Ayahuasca were very intense and i basicly was posessed by several evil spirits that i had to process/expell/bring to light... My last experiences have been much more controled, open, luminous, and even helpfull to others....

to make this short for now; i ask from the bottom of my heart, to any experienced shaman reading this, to please help me with guidance, healing, feedback. I truly believe i need some soul retrieval, to get in touch and consolidate a partnership with my spirit guide, and other shamanic practices.
My finances are not very good at the moment, so i can´t offer payment for now, but i will be very thankfull and truly believe that we all reap what we sow. Please, help. Thank you!

[Lionheart]

 Hello Jeame and Welcome to the Astral Pulse! 

I feel for you. I travel and am a merchant at various Renaissance Faires across the country. While traveling I meet "special people", like you. I say that because I know exactly what you are going through. In the last couple of years, some even longer, these people have been going through all kind of trials and tribulations. They have either lost someone in their family due to break up, divorce, death, lost their jobs, been alienated by family and friends, some of them all of the above.

Every year I would see how broken down they were. How depressed and sad they were on the inside. They always hid it on the outside. They still helped others, but couldn't help themselves anymore.

Then last year, when I went to one of their cities, I found that life had changed completely for this one lady. She was finally free and the most important thing "clear".

I called and talked to some of my other friends and found they too were coming out of their "funk". I could see why. For a couple of years they were going through a clearing process. For some reason, they all had to be "broken down", before they could be built back up again even stronger then they were in the past. They all stated how they felt different for the first time in their lives. Almost like some kind of "inner peace" was flowing through them. They could also feel a new awareness. But we will save that conversation for another time.

Two of them, that were from Kansas, owned a new age store. It burned to the ground, the lady told MJ and I that she had the Fire Fighters go in a pull the large Dragon sculptures we had created for them in the past years. We were amazed that that was the only thing they wanted to save, actually we were humbled as well. When I talked to them, they had no remorse for losing the store. The man said that the "Universe" had been pointing them in a new direction for awhile now and that they ignored the signs. He knew that something positive would come out of this.

I am saying all this because I know and I will say that again, I know, that there is a light at the end of your tunnel. You just have to trust your inner voice and instinct and listen to what it is telling you.

You can PM me any time. I will help you where I can!

Good Luck and Safe Travels! 

[jeame]

Hello Jeame and Welcome to the Astral Pulse! 

I feel for you. I travel and am a merchant at various Renaissance Faires across the country. While traveling I meet "special people", like you. I say that because I know exactly what you are going through. In the last couple of years, some even longer, these people have been going through all kind of trials and tribulations. They have either lost someone in their family due to break up, divorce, death, lost their jobs, been alienated by family and friends, some of them all of the above.

Every year I would see how broken down they were. How depressed and sad they were on the inside. They always hid it on the outside. They still helped others, but couldn't help themselves anymore.

Then last year, when I went to one of their cities, I found that life had changed completely for this one lady. She was finally free and the most important thing "clear".

I called and talked to some of my other friends and found they too were coming out of their "funk". I could see why. For a couple of years they were going through a clearing process. For some reason, they all had to be "broken down", before they could be built back up again even stronger then they were in the past. They all stated how they felt different for the first time in their lives. Almost like some kind of "inner peace" was flowing through them. They could also feel a new awareness. But we will save that conversation for another time.

Two of them, that were from Kansas, owned a new age store. It burned to the ground, the lady told MJ and I that she had the Fire Fighters go in a pull the large Dragon sculptures we had created for them in the past years. We were amazed that that was the only thing they wanted to save, actually we were humbled as well. When I talked to them, they had no remorse for losing the store. The man said that the "Universe" had been pointing them in a new direction for awhile now and that they ignored the signs. He knew that something positive would come out of this.

I am saying all this because I know and I will say that again, I know, that there is a light at the end of your tunnel. You just have to trust your inner voice and instinct and listen to what it is telling you.

You can PM me any time. I will help you where I can!

Good Luck and Safe Travels! 

Hello Lionheart, thank you for a kind and positive reply!

I was happy to hear about your friends, good that it finally changed for them!

Me, i have been broken all my life, and now i feel it´s the time/process to clear that. but i need help! I know i can´t do it on my own, so i ask!
Thank you for your words, i will PM you.

Thanks!