The War In Phaentia

[i smoke and drink coffee]

I hope you do not mind if this is in bold text.  I like emboldened text, lol.

So, firstly, a quick rundown on what happened.

I was summoned to the shadow plane to free the Brane Domain.  This is a prophetic symbol of events which are now taking place.  Seems that there is a forcefield which prevents most people from leaving their own "Brane Domain", and meanwhile, their cities, farms, and lakes are being reaved.  The Planet Reavers, Mega Corporation.  I fought hard with amplified psionics, and eventually won, bringing the forcefield down.
Then, I was sent across the ocean to the Davoren Domain.  There, I embarked on a quest to free a fellow warrior who had existed some six hundred years ago, and had been sealed in a Pillar Of Frozen Sand.  He had more of the amplification crystal technology.  In that instance, in Earth Time, I entered a trance that lasted the better part of the day, yet time did not move.  I freed him, and we traveled to the past by means of a special gate, and fulfilled the prophecy of destroying an alien warship.  We then returned to the present, and he became my right hand man.
Soon, we fought against the Tyrant Vain, yet in doing so, we only released him into reality by breaking the seal on his temple.  This is where I met Tia.  Tia saved my life, and the three of us together fought against Vain, who became such a strong enemy that the shadow died inside of me.  I brought it back, with sheer force of will, and the battle continued.
Around that time, I encountered Chrono Trigger, and adapted the game to my imaginative shadow quest.  A whole summer holiday was spent in semi-trance while playing the game.  I still suffer a lack of completion due to the interference of the game.  Yes, other games had been used continuously throughout, yet, Chrono Trigger was the main one.  Also, pre-Chrono Trigger, by contact in time and eventual focus on the game, there was a dream about Schala, in which she offered God a sacred prayer for the safety of her people. The game environment was tranced directly into three times, with disasterous results for the Brainwave Shadow Of Reality.
Soon, due to the game itself, an advanced civilization popped up and it was called "Zaelea" after "Zeal" in CT.  My knight married Schala, I went insane, both in mental and phantasy worlds.  Tia and my rival who had been befriended helped me through.  It's a little sketchy, but it seems that an attempt was made to 'stop the shadow' but it failed, I was being sucked in more and more.  Events continued, the game remains to this day an important aspect of my life, though, I can no longer play the game, it drains me entirely, and makes me feel sick.
I obtained a certain scepter, and after a side quest into the Dark Domain, I sent the avatar away to the future of a parallel reality.  This is the so called "Forgotten Future", the future that I would have actually experienced if I had made three primary choices in my life.
1. one video game instead of another
2. defending my organism from the transplant
3. to never have touched the shadows in the first place

So, after that, after sealing the Forgotten Future with crystalic light and visualization in a deep trance, I began to intensively work on a video game idea, which remains an excellent resource of information related to real life.  The game was supposed to be 'as real as life', and I used that process to learn and develop real concepts for understanding reality.
Time went by, I began to skip school, drink, smoke, do drugs, and tried to party a bit but it never worked out.
Then, after a trip to Australia, I got involved with the internet, and began role playing on MSN.  I started out as a good guy, a time restriction cut my battle short, and he died.  And then he died again.  So I became a dark charcter, and continued to be satanized until I became in fantasy the very loathesome Perversion Of Evil.  Role play continued for many years, so it seems.
Now I'm on Paltalk, and just trying to make sense of it.  There is no more role play, no active cyber space or realms, it's all been bled dry, and the vampirism on my being has gone to the extent that they are now feeding on my lower chakra.
All through the years of internet, after drug use, psychosis, and being sedated so I can't think or remember anything, I went through a period where I remember that I had done something, yet had everything wrong and couldn't remember names or anything.  Details are still filtering through the time stream.  For the past, say, six years, I've been piffing with the shadows and helping Lacey, the former leader of the Mega Corp, to develop superior technology and science to base her powers on.  Events have progressed.

- after 'the sign', shadow questing started anew
- the creation of role play characters has hindered the development of a strong trance state
- we fought rebels trying to thwart the domains, we fought the Davoren cyborgs, we fought the Ice Magus, zombies, droids, aliens, the United Federation Of Androids, and now, the realm is so severely damaged that many in it are working towards full transcendence and removal of their energy from the realm
- we also fought the Perversion Of Evil, Thraft and Aloo, and other planet destroyers
- the realm has destabilized and is on the ever brink of destruction, it did not become 'phaentia', but remains a shadow of reality, phaentia, it seems, is the goal

So now, I have suited up, and night by night I go for walks and face the enemies which have arrived.  Many of them are my own reflection, my own fear, doubt, insecurity, and loathing of life itself.

To understand it better, here is an example...

A man pours a cup of coffee, and puts it to his lips.  It is too hot to drink, so he puts it down.  He picks up a book, and begins to read the book, and, on reading the book, becomes so engrossed in the story that he forgets to drink his coffee.  Hours later, he puts the book down, and stunned by the cup of coffee, he takes a sip, it is now too cold. So he throws it away, and makes a new pot of coffee.
coffee- the shadows
book- the internet, cyber space, mageddon

That is basically how it seems to be going.  As another example...

A woman likes her best friend so much that she decides to buy her a new purse.  She takes many days checking over every purse in the city, visiting every shop and looking at all the elaborate designs.  Finally, she chooses a purse.  Taking the purse to her friend, who was starving, living in a tent, and barely clothed or warm, she hands her the purse and says, "There, this is a gift I give to you because I love you."  and the poor woman says, "This is a very nice gift, but where is the money to go into it?" and the woman, in a rage, took the purse and tore it to shreds.  The poor woman remained poor, and could not even sell the purse back to the shop for even a fraction of what it was worth.  They were never friends again.
women- types of reality
purse- the gift of shadow sight
money- the substance or focus to fill the void of mind

So that is basically how it goes.  As another example...

A certain man enjoyed watching soccer.  He bought all the soccer videos that he could find, and watched them all over the course of three years.  After this, he was poor, about to lose his home, his wife, and his two dogs.  He watched so much soccer that his physical health and general well being had deteriorated to the point that he sincrely considered suicide.  Therefore, it came into being that he sold all of the soccer tapes to a soccer club, befriended a sorceror, and took his dogs to shows where he made money showing them off with radical hair cuts.  It is apparent, if you only sit there watching something that should be done, it will not only not get done, but your life will waste away.  You can recover in strange ways, stopping the obsessive behavior is the first step to regaining health.

And that's it.

[kurtykurt42]

Have you written any books?

[i smoke and drink coffee]

No... but would like too.  I have a stock of ideas and writings, I've been writing a lot in the last twelve years, a lot of it just blown out into cyber space.  Naturally, there is an immense reserve of knowledge, concepts, and ideas involved in anyone's shadow quest.  What I showed up there was just the bare scant minimum of knowledge of the sequence of events.

[JesseGRodriguez]

He bought all the soccer videos that he could find, and watched them all over the course of three years.

It might be so interesting Watch the Same Goal again an again when the power is in our hand