Sammie
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« on: September 16, 2018, 03:37:56 » |
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So as usual I felt like taking a walk and ended up in my "flower park". I sat down where I don't usually sit because other people were close to my usual spot. After a while I saw a newspaper in the trash with: "stop looking", as if I should stay there a little longer. As I did and suddenly a woman showed up and sat down next to me. This is highly unusual in my country and has never happened before(for me).
This woman started speaking in english with me since she thought I was not from my country(I don't look european). Then we spoke my language(the country's language) since we both spoke it. I don't know if she was high or what, but she was highly unusual but didn't exactly emanate pure love either. She was not like anyone of the regular people you meet, which I told her but she seemed to think of anything in a negative view even though that is not so.
So she asked me where I was from but couldn't believe I was born in the country because of my looks. She kept looking at me with her cold eyes and asking over and over until I said I had parents from different countries, then she was satisfied. She kept saying "be proud of yourself, be proud of who you are". She also kept claiming she could "feel it", she was 100% certain that I carried a lot of baggage. I guess everyone has some and I have had more recently, but was feeling very neutral at the moment. She kept saying she could feel it and I just smiled because it was an intresting experience, but she said "you think im stupid, huh?", which I clealy did not, I don't think like that. She clearly could feel something, but she was not really correct. I mean I was just sitting in the evening in the park looking at flowers before she came, which is not common for people my age I suppose. She also said "don't think so much", I think a lot at times but I was not thinking but rather confused with her statements, which contained wisdom and confusion.
She also seemed to attract random people's attention as someone came right away and asked her for help, but clearly didn't know her(this is unusual). Then someone else passed and she kept saying "she could feel it", and yelled like: "what is it, is everything okay". I couldn't stop thinking she must be pretty "low" if she thinks I am somehow "lower" than her, but she had some sort of wisdom and was so different from people. She kept waiting for me to tell her something deep, like I was keeping some in... She had those real cold eyes, yet her words were speaking with compassion, her voice not. She then had to leave and told me she was there for me or something similar 2-3 times and just left as if the universe will bring her back to me..?
What was that all about? It seemed to have a lot of meaning and felt "strange" somehow, I don't understand how a person like that can exist in our world, because she was so different. Her voice and expressions seemed dead and she was extremely condfident, yet her words had wisdom. I am so confused.. I don't understand anything but there was something to this experience.
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