depression, breathing

[Rastus]

Been there, and somewhat recently too.  I have it so bad my wife didn't recognize me as 'me'.  PM me if you want to talk about treatments.

[SmileySpirit14]

exactly...find someone to grump it all out on, just spill ur guts...i have the same problem, believe me it works

[Jenadots]

Hi, Kasbadan.  Having had many periods of severe, even suicidal, depression, I can sympathize.  It is the dark night of the soul and people around you do not understand it is like an emotional and spiritual paralysis.  

They tell you to go out and "do something" without understanding that in a depression, that is precisely what you are most incapable of doing.  Yes, it has to do with all sorts of rage and anger and helplessness and hopelessness, all of which create or exacerbate the chemical imbalances within the brain.  It becomes circular, one thing leading to another which leads to more depression.

I tried prescription anti-depression meds which helped short term but didn't help much on the spritual level and not at all in the long term.  And the side effects were not pleasant.

There are herbal remedies you can try.  Personally, sublingual B-12 helps me when I feel myself sinking.  But there are many other things if you do a bit of research on the internet.  

You don't have to suffer.  And once a bit of the depression lifts, it makes it easier to look at your issues and really think about them and feel your way through them.  

Depression is something that can permeate you self - you described it well by saying it was physically attached to you.  Everyone has periods of times with it, but if it goes on too long and deepens, please do see someone, even if it is a herbalist.  Sometimes it helps to talk -- and sometimes you just need somone to sit with you while you cry.  Let it all happen as you feel it.  

Consider that it is your inner self letting you know that something is not right with your life on some level.  Not that knowing that will make you feel any better, but it might lead you to a way to cope with it, and hopefully, get past it.

[GANAMOHA]

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depression is rage turned inward
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no rage no depression no hate no sadness

[bluelite]

Hi kazbadzan
           Your depression is not uncommon so you should not feel alone in your ordeal. There are millions of sufferrers worldwide and many have been sucessfully treated for this condition.  Have you tried seeking any professional medical help for this problem,this might be a good start.

Also do you do any forms of chakra development or other forms of energy work?
Energy work if done incorrectly can wreak havoc on the body and can cause all types of illnesses both physical and psychological to suddenly manifest.
Focusing on joy and other positive things in your life can eventually help with your condition.  I must say that I also noticed very poor air quality conditions where you live.   There may be a connection there.


Bluelight

[Logic]

I take medication to deal with mine.

[Kazbadan]

quote:Originally posted by bluelite

I also noticed very poor air quality conditions where you live.   There may be a connection there.


Bluelight

Sorry to ask, but what makes you think that? I didnt heard anything but now i am curious.

Thanks anyway.

btw, my problem, it is caused by other fact that i recognized, facts about my life that i will not post here (sorry, but to me it was  agood thing post here the fact that i have problems).

Thanks all the other people too.

Special thanks to Runlola and Rastus that talked to me in pm. It´s better to end this thread now: as i said, i only started it to breath a little. I dont want start sad things inthis beautiful season.

[nrishiraj]

Kazbadan, My brother is going through severe manic depression to, so I can understand how you feel. His mood swings are high at times, each day he feels different, however I know what caused his depression, he use to get beaten up by my Dad when he was a kid. He's older than me so I'm ok.

I strongly recommend hypnotherapy, I have persuaded my brother to see one, but he hasn't the motivation to go, he says it depends on his anxiety on that particular day. Well, for the past few days I had given up a hypnotic induction mp3 for relaxing purposes, he listens it before bed and he says he has a wonderful deep sleep. This just a tip of the iceberg, when he has a proper one to one hypnotherapy session, I truely believe this is the way out of this depression. It makes sense, hypnosis works the core of the subconsious mind and it released trapped emotions.

If you need more info, PM.

Take care.

[Kazbadan]

Sorry to post this in a time that it is not supoosed to do it (summer + hollidays), sorry for being so sad with this but believe me when say that i dont know where to find more help.

At some weeks ago i started to try to change my point of view with things, trying to be more optimistic, but that seems impossible. I suffer of depression (not an easy one), one that seems almost physical, attached to me.

Sometimes that depression atacks with no reason (it´s so imbued on me that there is no need for an emotional event to "awaken" it) and other times it will attack because of things in ly life. There is no people in wich i can trust or ask for help when i am in my worst moments (believe me, i am not paranoic, and i even have people "hurting" me because they are blind).

I am tired, i know that one of this days maybe i will awake up in a good mood, but i am really tired of everything. I know what you are thinking by now: "F$##, this guy it´s crazy! At a few days ago i could see happy posts in this forum, posted by him, but know i see the opposite! He is always changing it´s attitude!"- ya, i know that, what the hell can i do?!

What can i do to stop this horrible depression?! I wouldnt even call it depression, it´s far more than that because i am touching paths that are horrible. My life doesnt help to much too,  neither people that i know.

sorry again.  This it´s just a letter to no one, it´s a way to "breath" a little, so DO NOT ANSWER to this, because i dont want to start such a stupid thread/discussion in this beautifull days.