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One of my "goals" with Astral projection is actually to meet the girl I really love
Hope I'll suceed soon.

[agiofws]

24/05/2003
Hi to all,  I was really waiting  for an obe........since summer  came I thought  that something was disturbing me  and could not consentrate enough  for projection.........I tried to fall asleep, and at once I felt the sensation......so I decided to follow it.....i started to leave my  body slowly...I was floating  with my astral body  in my room, this obe  compared with other ones was quite consious.......i was pretty wide awake....At first I positioned my self  in my room due to that I was  sleeping on the wrong side of the bed, after I did that   I was orientated...so I could navigate my self in my room quiet easily.....after that  I tried to move my self in my room.......the picture was quiet blury so when ever  this happened I tried to speak to myself  outloud "I want to see" or  "clear view"and   the  picture cleared out....i also would like to project  in light but my room was dark at that time.....but I still could see my room quite well..after that, something pulled me towards my brothers room there I started to wonder what was my purpose there for.. ...I think I saw   my brother that was sleeping and I tried to talk to him...I think we had some kind of interaction but he does not remember anything when I asked him this morning.....but I thouroully remember that we spoke.....at this point   I lost  consentration so I was  back to  my body  ....but once I   put my self togethor I automatically projected myself back to his room.......before I left his room....i  was playing around,  and  from the corner of my astral eye I could see an old women that   was all the time  at my side,  she would not confront me as I turned she would turn aswell,   she was  chubby, and had her hair in curls,she also was caring a suitcase...I decided to talk to this character....."who are you?" i asked her... she told me that she was one of my grand mothers......but she    did not really look like  the one she refered to. I am really happy that  I spoke to an entity  at that kind  of level because I had never done this before, usually  nobody is with me in my obe's could this have been a guide.....?..
I again   passed through the sliding doors  that seperates my room from my brothers... then I decided to pass  the  wall that was next to my bed.....when ever I try to do this I usually black out because   I can't get my self up to it, logic usually wins , but this time I had it all figured out so I passed the wall, the trick is to feel really free and really believe it .......behind the wall I saw  some people that were sitting on a  sofa  watching tv...I also think I saw  a dog of somekind....the people I think ignored me......that's all I can remember......
The good thing of this obe was that  I could really controll my self  I had my mind set...the second thing is that whenever I project I try to come in contact with a person I really love..i tried to project to her  but nothing really happened, I try to think of her..but I have't got anywhere yet  with this one...I think the difficulty is that  I have only the figure to project on and not the physical surroundings....i hope that these obe's will continue..and not come to a hault as before....maybe this happened because of  practising some kind of thibetian joga ......maybe that's why I could controll my thoughts......I'll keep in touch if any new experiances...come up...
J
thankyou M