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[knucklebrain1970]

Is it me or is it my perception of this that bothers me so much? I don't know why this gets to me so much. It seems that since my spiritual development, I've come to see the downfall of humanity and it's so hard to not let the hate I've come to pigeonhole resurface and get the best of me. I'm struggling to learn to love life and all of humanity, but it's tough, especially after what I've come to see in people. I'm listening to a particular type of meditation that explains how the Earth is a living organism and the nervous system is of the planet is made up of living things (US) and nature that keep things in balance. It goes into explaining that there are red cells (sleepers) and the white cells (struggling to awaken)

Although this might not make much sense, you have to listen to it to understand it. Now lets just say I'm a white cell, stuck in with a bunch of red cells. I have the understanding that there is more than what we just see and I'm stuck in a place where everyone just does not understand. Not that I am trying to get people to understand as I pass my days without judgment as best I can and try to have no need to voice my opinion over others. Nobody I work with even knows what I'm into and I could care less.

Anyhow, my point. As I've evolved slightly spirituality, I see the downfall of humankind. I see where it's all gone wrong. I myself have contributed to the process and ego has created a debt filled rut that I don't know how I'm ever going to get out of, but that's besides the point. I see how the evil of the ego has tried to suck me in and has succeeded to a point in trying to make me a permanent part of the matrix as I call it, the fabric of reality, which for most is what they see with their eyes and experience through their limited senses.  I however am not a willing participant/product of the matrix and like to envision myself as a product of self-realization instead, although I'm not completely there yet.

I see the people. I see them rushing to work as if there is no tomorrow, or there is a suitcase full of millions of dollars waiting for them at work. I see people drive and risk life to get to work, to make the money that fills the ego and weaves further the further extending fabric of the matrix. I see how work becomes them and how they have become a robot of society for their little slice of pie to build the small wall of greed that is ever so important to them, all the while, making the rich elitist at the top build his or her wall of greed higher and higher. I see the people so dedicated as if work is all there is to life. I see them at 5pm each day, still on the phone, spreadsheets open, working busily away as if it's 9am. I walk past them as soon as the clock strikes 5pm and I'm always the first one out the door. The hours are 8-5 mind you, with a 1 hour commute each way, equating to a 55 hour week as far as I'm concerned. Why is it so hard for me to deal with this? I see them and I get sick. I hear all the talk of work, even on break, the smiles on their face, not even knowing how asleep they really are.

Is there anyone else that feels this way? How do I overcome this anger towards it. Should I cave in and become a corporate robot? Sometimes I think if perhaps I just cave in, I'd be happier. It however sickens me to no end to be around MINDLESS people, dedicating their lives to work so they can feed their ego through meaningless possessions all the while not realizing that their only concept of reality is the reality of their only perception of themselves which is based upon primarily on what they perceive others to think about them.  Does this make sense? Am I going insane?

Kevin

[VesAn]

Some workaholics may be greedy/mindless as you say, but there are many others who are not.  There are those who are busting their behinds so that they can support their children, put them in college and whatnot.  Some simply work hard because if they don't, they'll be replaced, out of a job, and with no ways of making a living.  Some may actually enjoy the work they do, hence the long work hours.

 No need feeling angry toward them, you're not gonna be able to change everyone whose behavior/living style you don't like, if you let this thing gets to you you'll be angry forever.  Nevermind the people, just do what you like and live in a way that you enjoy the most.

[Nostic]

In general, I understand where you're coming from knucklebrain. It is very important however to not give too much attention to the ills of society. Everyone is just doing what they know how to do. One of my favorite quotes is from Maya Angelou; she says, "When you know better, you do better". It just hasn't hit most people yet that their whole life is a facade.

I wouldn't call this anger that you feel wrong. But it is something that points the finger towards you. Anytime you have strong negative emotions about someone, or people in general, imagine a huge hand pointing its finger at you. Ask yourself, what is it in me that is causing such a reaction? I would assume that you're so angry because you've fallen into the trap yourself- you're seeing yourself in those other people. It's very good however that you have become conscious of the shallow game that society likes to play, and takes so seriously. Becoming conscious of the game can be VERY painful. Most people walk around unconscious because the notion that the life they're leading might be a huge facade is just too overwhelming- so they remain in the endless cycle of pursuing ego-fulfilling endeavors. When you begin to wake-up to a greater reality, it will surely be painful, but this pain is only temporary. As long as you keep moving towards the direction of growth and knowledge, you will eventually come out on the other side of the tunnel.

[You]

I've felt similar disdain and hate for the hivemind... yet it is necessary for the power we need for our dreams so I make an attempt at it. The overtime I do is more for fear than for money and success.

I doubt you'll become one of them, you're too aware to be. It's the guys who don't question it that fall into it. Sort of like how only a sane person can question his sanity.

[knucklebrain1970]

In general, I understand where you're coming from knucklebrain. It is very important however to not give too much attention to the ills of society. Everyone is just doing what they know how to do. One of my favorite quotes is from Maya Angelou; she says, "When you know better, you do better". It just hasn't hit most people yet that their whole life is a facade.

I wouldn't call this anger that you feel wrong. But it is something that points the finger towards you. Anytime you have strong negative emotions about someone, or people in general, imagine a huge hand pointing its finger at you. Ask yourself, what is it in me that is causing such a reaction? I would assume that you're so angry because you've fallen into the trap yourself- you're seeing yourself in those other people. It's very good however that you have become conscious of the shallow game that society likes to play, and takes so seriously. Becoming conscious of the game can be VERY painful. Most people walk around unconscious because the notion that the life they're leading might be a huge facade is just too overwhelming- so they remain in the endless cycle of pursuing ego-fulfilling endeavors. When you begin to wake-up to a greater reality, it will surely be painful, but this pain is only temporary. As long as you keep moving towards the direction of growth and knowledge, you will eventually come out on the other side of the tunnel.

Makes sense man, thanks.

Kevin