Ready for a Spirit Guide butt chewing.

[BOATS]

I think that I might be finally be starting to get it after hanging around these post and the experienced people like Frank, MajorTom, Selski, Nick and other moderators here.  I wish to humbly thank you.  I was reading a post about attending the Gateway voyage program at the Monroe Institute by oilfielfpilot.  This is something I hope to do soon next year while in Virginia.  I keep hearing about Higher Self, Spirit Guides and was under the belief that these were all objective entities outside me.  Is it that during OBE to focus 21 that I am actually running into me? My higher self trying to communicate with me and that I need to seriously consider listening to what he is trying to say and interpret it to apply to my life?  I have written in the past that during OBE a Spirit Guide seem to be looking for me and not the other way around.  One of my first posts I explained how I ran from two guides that said they wanted to talk to me.  Another time one told me to follow him and showed me diseased children.  It seems that not only is the Astral Projections going to be fantastic experiences in themselves. They are also designed to enhance my spiritual growth.  Certainly I have issues I need to deal with and this is actually one of the reasons that the OBE started in the first place.  At the age of forty and after twenty five years of drinking alcohol I decided to quit and discovered I could not.  Months of prayer and meditation to help me did not.  The death of my best field to suicide soon thereafter also increased my stress level.  I was beat and wore out and that's when the OBE started after bouts of Sleep Paralysis.  I never took much interest in dream interpretation but will begin to ponder this more.  However when I meet my higher self next I am ready to listen without fear and mea by take a butt chewing.  Thanks.

[BOATS]

Quite, Thanks MajorTom.  I need to look within and strive to be the best person I can be.

[oilfieldpilot]

Well Said MajTom!

And Boats, I am certainly Noooooo expert in this field; I am just beginning to crawl, but at least 'things' are happening; HANG IN THERE!

For you to just be Aware of your problems and stresses is an essential first step! Good for you and give yourself credit!

I can share to you that Gateway, as well as all the programs (which gateway is prerequisite) is YOUR experience. There Is NO course outline, objectives, goals; there is no dogma. You essentially go in blind and are encouraged to Not have expectations (which makes it sound pointless, but it has to do with the Faith and Trust-thing  )

For ME, and only ME (as every graduate will tell you)  the lessons and experiences I had were tailored just for me...I trusted that (here come the labels...) my Higher or Greater self; or even perhaps something external (but in hindsight, no) was there to guide me.  I made the effort to attend the program; thus this was my(lower-self) request for guidance. Once in the program, my INTENT was to discover....discover what? Well, whatever I needed to be able to Continue on this journey, this new path of (here come the labels again) ...Spirituality? Self Discovery? Discover Information/Intelligence? Access Information from sources other than the 3-D physical world?   All Inclusive.
Bottom line...I did not have a clue
I did not want to set expectations and thus be set up for possible disappointment.

Although I did have effects and little episodes of discovery throughout the program, I was starting to sweat a little (and realllllly telling myself NO Expectations!) when we were nearing the last day...and I felt I was still forgotten at the bus station!
Not to repeat my former post, but this reiterates the point that TMI (The Monroe Inst) programs are just a set of invaluable tools given to you so you can Access what YOU need to open your doors and receive whatever it is you request; You need to blaze your own trails; Monroe just gets you to each starting point, essentially.
In my case, my roadblock was ME. Thankfully I kept the faith down to that last session; 'cause that was when it alllll happened for me.  I was given an experience that was very personal, emotional, and enlightening.....AND life changing.

Yes I expected that SOMEThing would happen...just what, I did not know. But I sure Never thought THIS would be it. Am I disappointed?  NO WAY!
I have 180'ed my attitude and negative people and negativity avoids Me!  How nice that is! Since Gateway, I continue to practice with my own self-healing lessons and meditation-type exercises. The floodgates have breached and things that I have struggled with to accomplish are suddenly Right there! WOW!  
It is amazing how Easy things come when NO Effort is put into it....Just ask, and you Better watch what you wish for!

Good luck to you
you'll do great!

ofp

If you need info about TMI; look up the website and call; talk to Karen (she is a doll!) tell her A.K. sent ya!
The staff there treats you  like long time family!  It IS great!

[BOATS]

Thanks for responding oilfieldpilot, I look forward to attending and am going to talk to my Daughter who lives in Maryland.  I am sure she would like to go also.  She is very Spiritual in nature and always has me take her to Washington D.C. to a spiitial church there.  I already know something about the program as I have been looking at there web site on and off for about one year.  I"m sure the character of the people we will meet there will be great.

"It is amazing how Easy things come when NO Effort is put into it....Just ask, and you Better watch what you wish for! "

It,s amazing how often I come across this statement and it is true.  I always hear "Let go and let God" or "Turn your life over to a Higher power"