Telepathic exchanges and unconditional love in the AP

[violeteye]

Hi,
I'm new to the forums and excited because it sounds like quite a few people here actually have OBEs and APs.  I AP on a fairly regular basis.  However, there's a different type of involuntary AP that I've only experienced three times in the past year that hopefully someone can help me shed some light on. Sorry it's so long zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz....

I had an extremely intense involuntary AP this morning. The experience was like the very first one I ever had (almost exactly one year ago) and the circumstances leading up to it were similar. Both times I found myself wide-awake in a black space face to face with a man I had recently dated and recently become estranged from.  Today it was with the man I had recently been chatting with online for a few weeks.  We exchanged intimate details of our lives, hopes, dreams, fears etc... Then we met last weekend, turns out we only live 2 miles from each other. Everything seemed to go well right down to the passionate kiss good-bye (nothing else...I swear!).  Unfortunately, I haven't heard from him in over a week. I am devastated to say the least.  I did text message him, but got no response.  

Anyway, I was suddenly in the black space again and it's the chat guy.  I said, "oh my it's really you and you're here with me in the AP!"  I was checking out his face and was shocked at the detail I knew I couldn't have remembered on my own, but yet I knew it was right.  I was surprised at my level of conscious awareness and thrilled to be having such a vivid experience and to have him there with me. My senses were the most acute I've experienced thus far.  The only thing different about my "friend" is that in real life, he has one brown eye and one black eye (the left doesn't have an iris).  In the AP he had green eyes, the color of mine. But, he felt like him and smelled like him. We just hugged and kissed and I felt love flowing between us.  Then I was awake in bed...

Has anybody else experienced this type of thing? What about the lack of dream scenery?  Both people I've seen I have been estranged from. However, I did meet a multidimensional creature in that black space too.   The main thing that happens there is telepathic communication and love.  Beautifully intense unconditional love flows between myself and the other person/being and I never want it to end.  Also I jolt back into my body immediately afterward.

Is it just my grieving for the loss or were these people really communicating with me?  I haven't even been able to ask these people if they've had any weird experiences.  I probably will reach out one last time to the chat guy.  Any thoughts or ideas will be greatly appreciated.  I know, I know it's what it means to me.  But, that's the problem...I haven't a clue.  I only know that it adds confusion to an already confusing and distressful situation! I'm trying to let chat guy go and then there he is in that astral! Also, I had another heartbreak in between the two guys, but I never saw him in the AP.  So what am I to think?


Thank you sincerely,

violeteye

[stephen~]

I don't think it is grieving for loss in a kind of 'it wasn't real, you just wanted it so you dreamed it' kind of way. I had a similar experience with someone I didn't know, and I too did just not want it to end. At the time I was not in a relationship, it just happened out of the blue, so for me there was no one to miss, which is why I don't think you are just grieving. It was as vivid and wonderfull as you describe, fully conscious, rational and yes in total darkness with no dream scenery. The striking thing I remember is the feeling that we took eachother into a kind of wholeness, stayed there for awhile, communicated, shared, enjoyed, then parted. I wish I knew who she was or if she is someone I knew, know or will know.

I don't know the significance of the meeting you had with the 'chat' guy, maybe he's thinking about you too. Why don't you just try asking him straight out why he hasn't been in touch? Over a week is rude yes, but there may be reasons, good or bad, why he hasn't been in touch. Try to sort it out in this world first maybe before trying to find out what the meaning of it all was. Sorry not much help, but I just identified with your experience and wanted to share a similar one, which I believe was real also as opposed to dreamed. Good luck!

[violeteye]

Thank you.  It is helpful.  Just knowing that someone has had a similar experience helps.  I wonder what the heck that place is.  I'm not sure how the other being fits into it all either....

I couldn't sleep at all last night, no dreams no nothing!  I hate that.  I always usually have at least the subconscious spewing dreams.  I woke up at 5am thinking about it and couldn't get back to sleep.  I obviously need to work it out some how.  I can't have it interfering with my AP/dream time! I will most likely email him in another week.  With the first experience, I never contacted that guy again.  I slammed that door closed and have regretted it ever since.  

I have slight control issues and the need to know, now!    Oh it's work...

Thanks again.