How Do I Have More Profound Experiences?

[Aros]

Lately I have been wrapping myself around the general theories of the various planes of existence including the astral plane. One that has me absolutely transfixed is the notion that for every thought humanity has, it's created somehow- somewhere - on the astral plane.

You've heard of the Akashic Records. The "Library of the Universe" that literally holds every record of every thought and deed of every living being in existence. The idea is that you can access this magnificent library and see every past experience as if you were living it in 3D, full color.

Further, the notion that time and space is a mere concept of the 3rd dimension/Earth Plane experience and not reflective of the True Nature Of Reality spell bounds me. I'm envious of those astral travelers that can (quite lucidly and vividly) share communion with dead relatives, various astral beings, guides and Masters. For some reason, my OBE/Astral excursions seem to remain foggy and dream-like, even when I think I am being In The Moment and conscious of my experiences, driving them with ever-increasing commands and consciousness.

Sometimes, I wake early morning without even thinking about OBE/Astral Projection for days or weeks and BAM, the perfect vibrations hit, I roll out of my body as easy as taking a drink of my bottled water, and there I am. ME. Outside. Of. Myself. Conscious. ALIVE!

Other times, I am reading every Astral/OBE book I can get my hands on, doing the exercises and meditations and....

...Nothing.

Of course, inevitably I begin to question my spiritual evolution. Maybe I'm not ready for the fully conscious astral journeys. Somehow, I've missed a step or lesson or meditation that will get my chakras spinning at optimum level, or getting my vibrational frequency to be in sync with the very act of separation from physical that I crave so much.

Perhaps this is all part of my journey. I'm far from pure. Lord knows. I drink more than I probably should. I smoke Cubans when I have the chance. I crave flavor in the foods I consume. Perhaps I just love the pleasures of this dense reality a bit too much. I wouldn't argue that point.

Still, deep down, I feel extremely psychic and intuitive and "tuned in" to the deeper, more profound layers of consciousness. It seems so obvious to me that I almost catch myself laughing at those who are still sleeping.

So why am I struggling so much?

[xxsicknessxx]

I duno Ive gotten as far as the humming but I can tell you the more I try the farther I go from it.. it seems I only get it when I dont try ... anoying isn't it? but there are people that can obe almost at will so I assume sooner or later I can reach that level or so is my hope.. rec. a good book? btw?