Help an empath out...

[Astir]

I grew up with the constant fear that average people could read my thoughts and sense my feelings...and this was causal of the fact that I knew that I could do it. When at school and around certain people I used to imagine with all my mental might, a brick wall to keep them out. I used to push thoughts and feelings away, afraid that someone would know exactly what they were. For years I didn't know what to call it, what it was...then one day when I was 7 or 8 my father told me that it was empathy, and that people in my family had very intense empathic abilities. After I knew what it was, yes, I was able to lighten up and see the benefits. Even though I've had my fair share of traumatic incidents because of it.

At the age of 10 I was left emotionally scarred after dealing with a teacher that hated my everliving guts for a good year. She hated me because I was from another state -- one she did not like -- if you can believe that. She wanted to clout me day in and day out, and I had never done anything wrong. In fact I was terribly shy. I developed migraines at the age of 10, threw up at school due to anxiety. Threw up BEFORE school due to anxiety. Missed school because of it. I was scared out of my mind...scared of her because I knew exactly how she felt about me. I had a warped concept of school and teachers for a while. But then as life usually delivers them, good people came along and helped changed my thinking again.  

Only lately have I begun to struggle with it once more. I am becoming an extreme empath...I can shield all emotions, but as of late shielding is not enough. Just sensing what people are feeling everywhere is making me crazy. I get on a crowded bus and I become extremely overwhelmed if I do not focus on blocking it out. Just sitting in a mall on a saturday, I feel like I'm going to faint. I'm being thrown into an emotional sludge every time I go out in public. I can handle my own feelings and a few others at a time...but I cannot handle dozens and dozens of other peoples feelings all at once.
I'm becoming a recluse. When I'm home alone -- unless there's an argument upstairs amongst the landlords family --. I am alright. My own emotions are all I can handle anymore...then again...even they are too much lately.

I do enjoy going to the cinema for a good movie on a crowded night. People are fun during movies. It's like riding a wave of unified emotions scene to scene, beginning to end..
Right. So that is how I've eliminated the possibility of it being a social anxiety disorder. Though I am quite sure if my other experiences keep up, I will develop one. And then how will I explain THAT to a psychologist?

Any advice would be appreciated. Thanks in advance...and for reading all this.

[fliesatnite]

Astir,

I can empathize with you.  Pun intended. I completely understand your thoughts and feelings.  I too have the same issues.  I have a terrible time going to the grocery store if someone standing next to me is in a bad mood or upset I feel exactly what they feel.  Compound that with more and more people... it's a bucket of fun isn't it?

I also had to chuckle when you said that when you were little you thought everyone knew how you felt, I used to think they knew what I was thinking too since I knew what they were thinking!  Again, I can relate.

The only suggestion I can come up with is a diversion tactic.  If you have a mini mp3 player, Ipod or something of the like I would suggest you keep one handy.  Download into it some music that soothes you.  I find that most meditative music, flutes, or even rain forest type stuff will calm my energy.  When you get the overwhelming feelings just pop the headphones in your ear until you are clear again.

Oh, and as far as your teacher goes, the one that hated you? It wasn't because of the 'state' you came from, it was because this teacher sensed that you 'knew' inside her and you made her incredibly nervous.  Go you!  Wonder what she was hiding... but believe me when I tell you this... she knew you could see inside her soul. She may not have been able to put her finger on it but I can tell you from many years of experience that was her core problem.  

Hope this helps!
Fliesatnite

[Vilkate]

Oh, then that's what it is called! And I thought I was mad since my childhood, or overwhelmingly emotional..

[kiwibonga]

Many things have happened to me since I started energy work and OBE practice... Small things that I don't know how I should interpret... Am I good at sensing and influencing people's emotions, am I getting incredibly lucky, or did I just gain confidence? Why do good things suddenly happen to me? Why does everyone smile at me? Why do I get a positive answer to every request I make, no matter how much the odds are against me?

I feel that with the power to sense comes the power to influence. Use it to your advantage, and you will find that suddenly, everything ends up working out... You lose the stress, and you start radiating pure positivity...

It just works :O

[Astir]

fliesatnight,

Thank you for the advice. I suppose I could save for an MP3 player...seeing as I hadn't even thought of music. I actually fall pretty deep into it when I have it on. It's a definite comfort. It may help!

Yes, that teacher was a scary person. Perhaps there was something more wrong with her than with me. Ever since her I began to put tremendous focus on reading my teachers, it eventually just became habit (especially since I anticipated spending tons of time around them). There were things with a few other teachers that were...more unusual, but nothing threatening. I had a few male teachers regard me strangely over the years but they were highly respectful, it was innocent enough.

My art teacher in grade school, the first time we met in class she had everyone draw from historical portraits of people. I chose to draw a young native american girl (the only thing I truly have in this world is the artistic talent I inherited from both sides of my family) when she saw what I had drawn in the span of 40 minutes -- all of a mere 9 years old -- she was aghast. Her eyes were wide and her mouth dropped. The funniest part was when I looked up slowly, stiffened and gazed back at her with the exact same almost-terrified expression. lol. It was like looking into a mirror, only my reflection was an elderly woman I had just met. lol. Momentarily we were as bushy-tailed cats surprised at our meeting each other in an ally. Quite an intense encounter.  



lol
Vilkate,
Poor thing. Now you can read up on it at least =]

[Vilkate]

Yeah, poor me.

Speaking of childhood experiences... I'm sure that almost each of us has something interesting to tell.
For instance, my mother was freaked out, when she got to know that my favourite game is "death" - I would lie on the ground and imagine that a poisonous snake has bitten me and I am dying now. Sounds fun, doesn't it?

[Vilkate]

P.S. - That was my favourite game at the age of 3 - 5

[fliesatnite]

Astir,

Just so you know, most of the portable cd players also play mp3, I picked one up for my 8 year old son for about 25$.  It doesn't have to be an IPod =]

Kiwibonga,

Great words of wisdom!  I will make a conscious effort to emit positive thoughts even though it's difficult at times.  I guess a combination of music to 're-set' the psyche and then an emission of positive thoughts.  Sort of like re-booting your self at that moment.  

Vilkate,

Too funny!  Playing dead!  I used to hide when I was a kid, and I don't mean for hide and seek.  I mean I'd hide for literally hours.  In closets, under beds even in the dryer!  What an odd girl huh?  lol

[Astir]

Oh that's quite alright, I think.

Imagine what parents think when they find you in the back yard building a hearth and erecting dozens of druid shrines before you're old enough to form a sentence. Hahahahahah. Ahh, poor Da and Mum =| hahaha.

[Vilkate]

And in the beach, I made "graveyards" - I would catch a lot of ants and then bury them one by one under little, round hills of wet sand, until I had a circle of graves around me, which I decorated with wild grass and seashells.
Basically, I was very interested in death and what comes after it.

[kizzyboy328]

have you tried shielding.....

i read that this is very useful for an Empath because u can make it to block out certain things.

If you havent and are interested here is a link to the place i found about shielding.

http://www.psipog.net/activepsy/book2.html#_Toc472931487

If you scroll down a bit you will fin in big black bold lettering the word SHIElDING.  Hope it helps.

[_Phoenix_]

Yeah, poor me.

Speaking of childhood experiences... I'm sure that almost each of us has something interesting to tell.
For instance, my mother was freaked out, when she got to know that my favourite game is "death" - I would lie on the ground and imagine that a poisonous snake has bitten me and I am dying now. Sounds fun, doesn't it?

When I was a kid one of my favourite games was similar, me and a couple of friends would play Death, we would see who could die the best, then the kid watching would choose the winner. I liked throwing myself down the  hill coming to a rolling crazy death.  LOL

[Vilkate]

LOL, now that's what I call a good game!

[Serins]

shut it out.  It is what I do.  I might be in a daze most of the time, but at least I am not suicidal or so.  Feeling what others are feeling can be traumatic, because you don't know why you have these feelings.
Also meditation helps.  you need to keep a positive energy field around yourself.

[Astir]

I know that daze well.

The shielding techniques tend to cause that in me.

Over the years I've been able to internalize the emotions of others without display. But I never really had a problem with that aspect of empathy in the first place (except among family members...ah, the raging battles that have passed :p).

What I'm trying to say, shielding or no shielding...a large problem is...my own emotions cannot find their way to the surface either. Feelings easily manage their way in but never find their way out. I've had people (even those closest to me) frequently mention and even complain about "how detached and apathetic" I am. When truly, inside, I am anything but. I've just become hardwired to no longer express. My body language is...nonexistent.

My only allies are language and caffiene. I can tell how I feel if I need to. And if I drink enough caffeine I can at least be more kinetic. Hahh :p

[Vilkate]

The same with me here. I am often told that I look as if I was sleepwalking. And, which I hate, no matter how emotional I feel or what I try to express, I rarely manage to show that.

[Diamondlady1025]

Dearest Astir~

Dearest Friends~

I saw you post and wish to help if I may....

I know how it can be to be empathic. As I share within the pages of the new book I have co-written and co-created with Spirit, my life is an open book; I am free from having any secrets. Spirit guidance to me is that secrets are for those souls who choose to live within The Ego Self of the Soul seeing themselves as separate from The Pure Consciousness of the Cosmic Infinite Circle of the Universal Source of All That Is that we are and emanate from, separate from themselves, and separate from other souls; and as perceiving themselves as such seek to hide behind a mask in that Ego Self of the Soul of fear, afraid to show other souls the light of who they are. I once was this to a certain extent as I chose to hide behind the mask of fear in shining the spiritual light of who I am choosing to BE as an Infinitely Spiritual Light BEing off and on for many years on this earth dimension. While there were infinite things that remained an open book within my Life Experience, the spiritual light of who I am as an Infinitely Spiritual Light BEing and the spiritual gifts that reside within me is what I chose to hide in what is known here on this earth dimension as being in the 'Spiritual Closet'.

As a child, I would see, hear, smell, feel, sense, and have an inner knowing and wisdom of Spirit. I could see auras as early as the age of six while sitting in church on Sunday, I astral projected (or OBE) out of body as early as I could remember at the age of nine, I have died (or what we call as an NDE that Spirit calls a NTHE or Near Transitional Home Experience) ten times thus far in this life experience the earliest of which was when I was 15 when the physical body my soul resides in experienced a rupturred ovarian cyst and the body bled to death on the operating table, and many other such experiences that I write of within this book. Yet, when I would go to school, friends' houses, or even within being at home in my own family, I quickly came into the illusion that I was free from being "safe" to discuss this spiritual wisdom. The other children, adults, and well meaning family members would make fun of me, roll their eyes, or even laugh when I would talk about Spirit's wisdom.

It seemed that my childhood peers, well meaning family members, and other souls I knew, were firmly entrenched in the illusion of this earth dimension's material mindset. This illusion is an axiom within The Ego Self of the Soul that we are victims of outside circumstances, dis~eases, victims of what other souls 'do to us', and victims of events that occur in and within our lives. It is also the belief that you 'must' compete to get ahead in this earth dimension or world as we call it, because there is not enough to go around. This mindset is also the belief that each souls is separate from one another, from what we desire for our lives, and that we are separate from The Pure Consciousness of the Cosmic Infinite Circle of the Universal Source of All That Is.

So when I would talk about or share my experiences of Spiritual Oneness, I received icy~cold receptions. At first as a child, this was free from making any sense to me. After all, I thought that they would enjoy the Soul Rememberings that I brought forth as a child with such Absoulute Love, Bliss, Awe~Inspiring Wonder, Peace, and Spiritual Oneness ~ the gift of how through the resonance that I am BEing that they could too choose to BE The Pure Consciousness of the Cosmic Infinite Circle of the Universal Source of All That Is that we all are and emanate from in Absoulute Love, Bliss, Peace, and Spiritual Oneness infinitely. Yet, it soon became apparent that this spiritual wisdom was free from being seen as when we choose to be in resonance of "only's" within The Ego Self of the Soul we are then free from merging it into the Soul as a Whole in Spiritual Oneness.

That is when I chose unconsciously to BE in the Spiritual Closet. I chose to keep my mouth shut, and some moments, I even went along with the crowd. When other souls would discuss how "awful" or how "unfair" life was, I would solemnly nod in agreement and even during certain moments, I would delve down The Ego Self of the Soul Rabbit Hole with other souls of just how "unfair" life was. At some moments, I even created my own (as if I owned this, like it was mine) Ego Self of the Soul Rabbit Holes of how "awful" or how "unfair" life was, and I unconsciously invite other souls to join me in the Rabbit Hole! By going along like this, I was readily accepted and soon became fairly popular, as the resonance that I chose to BE within then was what other souls thought of me. After awhile, I began to develop a form of amnesia about my spiritual connection. I talked less about them at home, and I gradually adopted the material mindset of this earth dimension.

Thus, within this Ego Self of the Soul illusion I chose to resonate within, the resonance that I chose to BE within was a very angry, depressed, soul who thrived on controlling people and situations to my liking. The resonance that I chose to BE within was a soul who went around playing the victim crying "Why me!" in every moment. The resonance that I chose to BE within was a soul who thought it was every other soul's and everything else's fault that I was unhappy. The resonance that I chose to BE within was a soul who constantly blamed her husband for what a supposed 'miserable life' I had and I too blamed my mother who was what is known here on this earth dimension as physically abusive, and my father who was what is called as e~motionally abusive to me. The resonance that I chose to BE within was a soul who used to tell other souls what it was I thought of them no matter how rude or mean it was because after all I was teased, bullied, and picked on as a child, so why not do this and tease another behind that souls back to make myself feel superior and in control. The resonance that I chose to BE within was a constantly physically sick soul ~ from what Conventional Diagnosed the physical body in which my soul resides in with Mono as a teenager in this Life Experience to Lupus to ruptured ovarian cysts, to Pelvic Inflammatory disease, to endometriosis, to asthma, you name it the physical body was diagnosed with it.

I stayed in the Spiritual Closet until a series of profound teenage and adulthood experiences, assisted and shifted me into the Soul Remembering of The Pure Consciousness of the Cosmic Infinite Circle of the Universal Source of All That Is that we are and emanate from, shifting me into the axioms (beliefs) and Soul Rememberings that I experienced in my childhood but were free from sharing out of fear. At the moment that all of these events occurred, I was a mother, a wife, and a public/private school teacher, with moments where within the physical material earth dimension I felt as if I had it all, which gave the illusion of the resonance that I chose to BE within is what I do and what I have. However, I always had that Ego Self of the Soul e~motional (energy~in~motion) experience of "something's missing". Even during these moments of spiritual awakening and re~awakening in which I would tip~toe out of the Spiritual Closet briefly, I rarely spoke about spirituality with any souls, because of the leftover perceptional fears from my childhood that any and all souls might reject me for the sharing of this spiritual wisdom.

Yet, the Spiritual Universe made it clear that if I so chose it, that my Soul Life Purpose as being within my Soul's Purpose was for me to be a mentor to, with, and for all souls, to when they would come forth to me, to share with them about spirituality and the Soul Rememberings Through Life Experience we all come here to choose to remember, embrace, and treasure within this game called LIFE (Living Infinitely From Experience); as well as assisting all souls through the written channels in books written by me through Spirit's guidance, through spiritual circles and workshops gifted.

At first upon receiving this message, I chose to be in the experience of The Ego Self of the Soul in the e~motion of being intimidated. On the one hand, I definitely wanted to assist all souls here on this earth dimension to remember, embrace, and treasure The Pure Consciousness of the Cosmic Infinite Circle of the Universal Source of All That Is that we are and emanate from. However, within this field of The Ego Self of the Soul's earth dimensional duality, I experienced being terrified that if I took this risk that I would lose everything: my husband, my reputation, my friends, and my family. I became within The Ego Self of the Soul as who I believe I am is what other souls think of me, what I have, and what I do.
After many moments of shifting back and forth, tip~toeing in and out of the Spiritual Closet, I finally chose to step out of the spiritual closet. It was the coming into the resonance of The Ego Self of the Soul's e~motion of anger at myself for choosing to sit in the stands of my life rather than being on the court playing the game, that caused me to utilize this e~motion for the Soul Remembering tool that it is.

At first, I tip~toed again out of the closet. For instance, I would mention certain spiritual aspects in a passing remark, or I went back to gifting spiritual readings and posting to group lists that I was a member of on the internet. When tip~toeing out, I still within The Ego Self of the Soul of doubt, braced for the sky to fall on my head in response to my candor about spirituality. Yet, I discovered that many souls positively embraced my words and guidance that I shared that was being gifted to me from Spirit and asked me for more details about how these messages could assist them in their lives.

Within a couple of years, I was fully out of the spiritual closet. The feeling of freedom, of Absoulute Love (Absoultue Love meaning a soulful love AB "SOUL" ute Love), and of Bliss that came from shifting out of the illusion that I was free from any longer censoring my words or censoring the way I chose to BE in this Life Experience was deliciously blissful! Today, I openly share with all souls who ask who I am BEing within this Life Experience of how it is I came into such Absoulute Love, Bliss, and a sense of purpose within my life. Of course, I use the all inclusive inner wisdom from Spirit as to the how and in which manner to approach these discussions with all souls whom I meet. I also continuously remember the Soul Rememberings and receive Divine guidance as to the inner wisdom of whom will be coming forth to me to remember through Spirit's wisdom channeled through me of their own spiritual light and also of what to say, with whom, and when.

I discover that nearly every soul I meet is open to discussing spirituality. Perhaps it is because all souls have an inner knowing already and always that they know that I am free from having any agenda of persuading any soul to Spirit's guidance, that each soul will come into this spiritual wisdom when and if they so choose to. I am a light gifter who desires to share Absoulute Love, Light, Bliss, and Peace throughout this earth dimension. And how we are to BE in this resonance of this is free from being through arguing the fine points of spirituality, but by modeling a Absoulutely Loving, Blissful, Peaceful and Spiritual Oneness nature ourselves.
In my travels and connections globally, I talk with many souls who are still choosing to be as I once was in this Life Experience, in the Spiritual Closet. They desire to talk openly about spirituality, but they reside in that Ego Self of the Soul resonance of fear for the social repercussions. It was through this avenue that The Infinitely Spiritual Light BEing came to me and invited me to gather of all of the channelings through them expressed within this earth dimensional names of Nenari and Natu, two BEing as One Spiritual Soul BEings of Light of who I am choosing to BE and of who we all are (which I explain more of within the Stepping Into Spiritual Oneness book), to share these messages of Infinite Absoulute Love, Light, Bliss, Peace, and Spiritual Oneness with all souls; so as to assist all souls within the remembering of The Pure Consciousness of the Cosmic Infinite Circle of the Universal Source of All That Is that we are and emanate from. So that within this remembering that as we assist all souls with remembering, embracing, and treasuring of The Pure Consciousness of the Cosmic Infinite Circle of the Universal Source of All That Is that we are and emanate from, that we are walking our walk, and talking our talk. That if we are choosing to share of these Soul Rememberings with all souls that we are BEing that of which we are sharing with all souls.

Hence, who I am BEing in this moment is completely free from this illusion of The Ego Self of the Soul as separate, for I have chosen to merge it into the Soul as a Whole. I choose to be free from blaming any and all souls, or my soul, or anything in this Life Experience. I choose to see the reasons why I went through this earth dimension labels of abuse. I choose to be in a constant resonance of Radiant Infinite Well~BEing in each moment. I choose to be in resonance with the spiritual guidance that I gift to all souls, as I live within this resonance as a Spiritual Soul BEing, an expression of The Pure Consciousness of the Cosmic Infinite Circle of the Universal Source of All That Is, that we all are and emanate from, choosing the gift of the human physical form in this Life Experience. The Absoulute Love, Peace, Joy, and Bliss that I was longing and looking for was within me all along, I just chose to be free from seeing it.

We all are the children, an expression of The Pure Consciousness of the Cosmic Infinite Circle of the Universal Source of All That Is. A Pure Consciousness of the Cosmic Infinite Circle of the Universal Source of All That Is that we all are, emanate from, and who is continuously broadcasting messages of Infinite Absoulute Love, Light, Bliss, Peace, and Spiritual Oneness outwardly always, In All Ways. This Pure Consciousness of the Cosmic Infinite Circle of the Universal Source of All That Is is free from editing or censoring these messages out of an illusionary Ego Self of the Soul fear that another soul might be free from being ready to hear them, or because of political correctness concerns. This Pure Consciousness of the Cosmic Infinite Circle of the Universal Source of All That Is simply broadcasts messages, with an inner wisdom that whoever chooses to receive them will receive them. Whoever chooses to embrace them and treasure, will embrace them and treasure them, illuminating the spiritual light of who they are. Is it any wonder that our natural impulse is to BE the same as we are the expression of this pure Consciousness of the Cosmic Infinite Circle of the Universal Source of All That Is?

As we come out of the Spiritual Closet, we come to the inner wisdom as I did, that we were free from ever being in a closet at all, that it was merely the illusion of The Ego Self of the Soul's self~imposed limit that we were that kept us there. In seeing our soul as free from this illusion of the Spiritual Closet, may be free from ever knowing how many soul's lives we can assist. Our offhand remark about spirituality, axioms, Soul Rememberings, Absoulute Love, Bliss, Peace, Spiritual Oneness, or manifesting Infinite Possibilities, might be the catalyst for another soul's life~changing spiritual path. If they are free from being ready to "hear" or remember, embrace, and treasure these Soul Rememberings through Life Experience we bring forth to them in spiritual wisdom, this soul will simply tune us out. Either way, we have come forth with this spiritual wisdom in Infinite Absoulute Love, Light, Bliss, Peace, and Spiritual Oneness from our heart and from our soul. And that whoever chooses to receive them, remember them, embrace them, and treasure them will.

On Being an Empath

The word "empathy" derives from this earth dimension's Greek words of "empatheia" meaning "passion" and "pathein" meaning "to experience". Another earth dimensional definition I discovered in my research is ~ "Empathy is the action of understanding, being aware of, being sensitive to, and vicariously experiencing the e~motions, feelings, thoughts, and experience of another, without having the feelings, thoughts, and experience fully communicated in an objectively explicit manner."
As Spiritual Soul BEings in human physical form and as human physical form we experience our Spiritual Soul BEing this BEing One in an infinite circle ~ our empathic gifts are always turned on, as with all of our spiritual gifts. It is just how open and tuned in we are to receiving the messages. It's like a radio, it may be playing, but are we listening? Some souls are always, In All Ways, listening, or tuning in with our intuition (intuition meaning 'BEing tuned in') to the e~motional resonance of all souls. When this occurs the empath is perceived by other souls as a 'sensitive soul' here on this earth dimension. Empaths can pick up on or in tune with the e~motions of other souls and also project these e~motions back to other souls in reflection as well. When this occurs, Spirit invites us to take a moment to see if these e~motions are the ones we are choosing to experience for our soul Rememberings or if we have simply been the unconscious state of 'picking up on' another soul's e~motional way of BEing.

I was one such soul. For many earth dimensional years, from as far back in this Life Experience as I can remember (around the age of 5 or 6), I was unconsciously choosing to pick up on other souls e~motional resonances. It was as if these e~motions and my ability to take them on as my own had a life of its own, that I was free from being able to "control" it. I experienced as a child this empathic nature what we call here on this earth dimension as inanimate objects such as desks, dolls, stuffed animals, chairs, walls etc.  As a child, I could feel, hear, and see spirit in all things. I have always had an inner knowing that even inanimate objects had "feelings" as I would say back then. Whenever someone bumped a table, or a chair, or slammed something or was careless with toys or stuffed animals, I could feel their pain, and feel, hear, see, and sense the objects vibrations. I would make comments such as "Please do not hurt that doll it is my friend" or would feel the anguish of a toy hitting the ground or hear it say "Ouch!"

My mother used to say that I was an overly sensitive and e~motional soul who "would cry at the drop of a hat". I would be often told by my teachers and by other souls in school that I was just too sensitive or that I should learn to "just lighten up". Of course, my mom was free from knowing any better as she too was unconsciously choosing to be unconsciously unaware of what being an empath was as a spiritual gift, nor did any of my teachers or peers at school. As a grew older, I chose unconsciously to "shut this off" by attempting to ignore what was occurring, as I was told things like dolls and stuffed animals they have no feelings and do not speak, and I was often laughed at for believing so. So again, I unconsciously chose to "go with the crowd" so to speak, and believe in this axiom and "ignore it".

This worked fine or so I thought, until one earth dimensional night, as I was sleeping, I had what we call here as the most horrific nightmare. By this linear time, I was married to Aaron and had Chris who was about two. In this earth dimensional definition of a dreamish nightmare, I saw Chris as this earth dimensional concept of dead, bleeding. I was holding him in my arms almost as if he were a rag doll as he was limp and I was running, crying, and screaming "HELP! My baby someone HELP!" Of course what I was free from knowing at that moment was that I was enacting this in my dreamstate as if I were awake on this earth dimension, so Aaron had come back into the physical body that his soul resides in hearing me screaming and crying in my dreamstate. He shook me and then I could feel my soul just plunk back into the body. I opened my physical eyes to see that I was sobbing, shaking, and the heart was racing what felt like 100,000 miles a minute.

When Aaron asked me what had occurred, I was free from speaking for what seemed to be an eternity all I did was just sobbed as Aaron held me. After some moments, I relayed to him what this dreamish like nightmare was. He immediately took me into Chris's room, as I was still so seemingly shakened by what had occurred, and showed me that Chris was perfectly fine and he was sleeping away. I was so relieved and went back to bed with Aaron and he held me until I drifted back off.
I would soon discover what this dream actually meant. I had unbeknownst to me as I was unconsciously choosing to ignore my empathic gifts, been gifted with was Spirit's way of re~awakening me to that of BEing an empath. What had actually occurred on this earth dimension was that I was empathically telepathically picking up on my brother's then girlfriend, whom I had just had an abortion that same afternoon, who was distraught with grief over what she perceived, as the "killing" their baby. This is what I was empathically telepathically picking up on.

This then did what I call as "opening the flood gates" to remembering the empathic gifts that I had chosen to "shut off." I would often become cranky in a crowd of souls; in fact I perceivingly had a "hard time" being in a space with more than a few souls at a time. And even if I was in a space of a few souls at a time, I could hear their thoughtenergies, experience their e~motional resonance as if these souls were physically talking to me, although I was free from hearing any physical language coming from their mouths. I would also experience this with plants, trees, birds, animals, minerals, everything here on this earth dimension and in all of the infinite dimensions of the Universe just as I had as a child. I would develop the physical sensations of headaches, stomachaches; crying or wanting to cry for seemingly 'no reason at all'; becoming angry or frustrated for seemingly 'no reason at all'; yelling, screaming, and flying off the handle as they call it just 'out of the blue'. I was residing within the illusion of The Ego Self of the Soul of "I have no control over this and there is nothing I can do about it" and experiencing the e~motion within of the illusion of helplessness. It seemed the more I projected all of these e~motions, the ones I seemingly chose of my own volition as well as the e~motions that I was empathetically 'picking up on', the more these e~motions reflected back to me showing up in my Life Experience.

It was within the channeled messages that Spirit had gifted me about being an empath that I also came into the Soul Remembering of what it means to be within The Ego Self of the Soul's illusion of 'being cranky' here on this earth dimension. Spirit shares that there are a few reasons for this perceived crankiness. It can be due to choosing to empathically, telepathically, and unconsciously to pick up on or be in tuned with another soul's e~motional, thoughtenergy, and axiomal vibrations. It can be from within the physical body's need for water to sustain itself (which I write in~depth about within the Spiritual Treasure Gift (Chapter) on Vibrational Healing). Or it can also be that we are simply resonating within the Spiritual Universes and other Infinite Universes rather than resonating within this earth dimension. Spirit shares that when the physical body is tired, it is a sign that we are desiring our Spiritual Soul BEing to shift out of the physical body and into a Spiritual Soul BEing who is consciously shifting within the Infinite Universes free from the physical body.

The illusion of crankiness comes in when we sense this with our intuition and within The Ego Self of the Soul perceive that we "have to" do this or that, that this keeps us within the physical body in human doingness rather than in the resonance that we desire to BE within; thus the illusion of the e~motional experience of crankiness and somehow being free from being able to shift within Infinite Universes. As Spirit gifts us the wisdom of within the Spiritual Treasure Gift (Chapter) in Infinity, it is Infinitely Possible through meditation and the messages within the Infinity Spiritual Treasure Gift for us to BE in Multi~Dimensional resonances at once. Thereby, between this wisdom and the wisdom of shifting the axioms of who we believe we are within being an empath and other axioms, we can then shift this perceived illusionary crankiness into Spiritual Oneness.

Many souls here on this earth dimension Spirit shares are labeled as Schizophrenic, crazy, or hearing voices, when really they are empathically telepathically picking up on or tuning into the e~motional resonances of other souls thoughtenergies, e~motions, and ways of BEing within The Ego Self of the Soul. Some souls whom hear 'voices that are evil' as we perceive them within this earth dimension, are actually reflecting one many Infinite Possibilities. Those possibilities being they are hearing and experiencing that of The Ego Self of the Soul of fear or that of other souls Ego Selves of fear that there is a perceived "good" or "bad", "right" or "wrong". It is when we are able to assist these souls to see that of what Spirit shares in the Spiritual Treasure Gift in The Language of Spirit about Spirit Souls and this information that Spirit shares on BEing an Empath, that these souls who are empathic that have been labeled by this earth dimension as Schizophrenic, crazy, or hearing voices that these voices are then able to be transformed into the Absoulute Love and Light of who we are.

It was through a vision I experienced just after taking an Aura sensing and reading class, that I was gifted with the messages of what being an empath means to us here on this earth dimension. Spirit shared that I chose to incarnate into this Life Experience as an empath, as so many of us souls choose to, it is that we merely are unconscious that we have. That being empathic means BEing one with another soul in its' plethora of physical form ~ be it plant, animal, human physical, mineral, molecule based, or universal oneness of All That Is. We can connect with plants, animals, just about anything including the Universe itself. It is a form of what is known here on this earth dimension as remote viewing. We align both the physical form and the Spiritual Soul BEing we are as One in synchronicity with another soul. We can read e~motions and thoughtenergies of another through vibrational frequency as if we are One. Two BEing One. Just as Spirit gifted us with the wisdom of the praxis's of within the Spiritual Treasure Gift (Chapter) of The Infinite Rays.

There were other messages Spirit shared with me during this channeling vision however, I was free from understanding their wisdom in that moment, thus I simply placed in the back of my thought process for later remembering it seems. As I shifted from being a soul who was playing the perceived victim of these empathic gifts of "I cannot control it and I am helpless to do anything about it", to being a soul who went into The Ego Self of the Soul's "protection" mode. I began a circle of Soul Remembering in which I had read about this thing called protecting yourself from other souls what they called as "feelings". Upon reading this I was gifted with the inspiration of envision an egg shaped aura of light around me that was crystalline like in its color. Within envisioning this I could also envision that when other souls would come forth to me or be in my presence or I in theirs that whatever e~motions, thoughtenergies, feelings, axioms, and experiences that I could see these coming forth to me and merely bouncing off of this egg shaped crystalline aura sending it back to the soul in Absoulute Love regardless of what e~motions, thoughtenergies, feelings, axioms, and experiences that I was picking up on and mine or any soul's perceptions about them.

This message was exceptionally freeing to me at that moment, and so I began this circle of "protection" mode. It would be something that I would be in praxis with for quite a few earth dimension years. And it seemed to work and resonate within me. That is until I experienced the Phantom Transformation I speak of in the Soul Remembering Through Life Experience in Forgiveness, in which those messages that The Infinitely Spiritual Light BEing shared with me that I was free from understanding at that moment several earth dimensional years before, came forth into my consciousness and instantaneously enlightened me. Spirit imparted that while envisioning this egg shaped crystalline aura and utilizing the messages that they gifted me initially were wonderful in and of themselves, that this was within The Ego Self of the Soul as 'only' part of the puzzle, the part of the puzzle that resides 'only' within The Ego Self of the Soul perceiving itself as separate. That the "protection" part of it was really a defense mechanism to stay within The Ego Self of the Soul seeing ourselves as separate from the souls whom come forth to us with these e~motions, thoughtenergies, feelings, axioms, and experiences that I was picking up on.

Spirit explained that energy is energy, in whichever form we perceive that it comes in. That it is our perception of energy as being high or low, up or down, good or bad; that has it be labeled as such. Thus, Spirit brings forth the wisdom that when we say things such as "Oh, my energy is really low around this soul or that soul" or "That soul has a good vibe, but that one over there gives me a bad vibe" or "his energy vibrations are lower than mine" or "Spirit 'has to' lower their vibrations and we 'have' to raise ours 'in order to' connect"; that these are all perceptional judgments about energy and about another soul. The Infinitely Spiritual Light BEing says that these perceptions reside within The Ego Self of the Soul perceiving itself as separate from all souls, separate from the energy that is within us always, In All Ways, and separate from The Pure Consciousness of the Cosmic Infinite Circle of the Universal Source of All That Is that we are and emanate from and separate from Spirit.

Now, we may say that we are tired and that this is a resonance that means that the physical body that our soul resides within is physically tired, that the machine is asking for physical rest, but that our energy is low or high due to another's energy or that we somehow have to lower or raise energies to connect is simply an Ego Self of the Soul separate resonance. This then gifts us with the "I am better than you" or "I am good and they are bad" or a "us vs. them" way of BEing that we see occurring within this earth dimension at this moment. Spirit says that the experience of whatever earth dimensional "level" of perception that we wish to choose to place on energy is simply related to what it is we are choosing to experience. They gift the example of suppose one is choosing to be in what we call here on this earth dimension as a "bad mood", then the energy that resonated within the physical body that their soul resides in will be perceived by other souls and quite possibly even by our soul as a "bad" energy or a "low" energy. In earth dimensional conception of duality if one is happy and full of love and light, one is seen by other soul and by one's own soul as of "high" energy or "having a good vibe".

Spirit says that when we shift into the Spiritual Oneness Multi~Dimensional perception that they share about with the Soul Remembering Through Life Experience in Choice, that we are then able to see that the e~motions, thoughtenergies, feelings, axioms, and experiences that we pick up on as empaths can resonate within us simply if we choose them to. That it is within our choice of whether we choose to experience the "taking on" another soul's e~motions, thoughtenergies, feelings, and experiences that has us take them on. The thing of it is that we are unconsciously choosing to be "taking on" another soul's e~motions, thoughtenergies, feelings, axioms, and experiences and this is what creates us taking on another soul's e~motions, thoughtenergies, feelings, axioms, and experiences as if they were our own. This then manifests itself within the physical body as a signal to invite us to look within to see this Soul Remembering of BEing an empath through something we call here on this earth dimension as a headache, crankiness, stomachache and so on. The Infinitely Spiritual Light BEing reveals that it is when we are unconsciously choosing and these "symptoms" come forth that we choose to simply treat the symptom rather than seeking the root cause. Once we are able to understand and embrace the wisdom that resides beneath the symptoms, then the symptoms subside, as we are free from taking on any souls e~motions, thoughtenergies, feelings, axioms, and experiences unless we consciously choose to. We may still choose to be compassionate of another soul as Spirit shares with us within the Soul Remembering Through Life Experience in Compassion, however we are free from having to embody within the physical form our soul resides in and within the Spiritual Soul BEing we are as One, any soul's e~motions, thoughtenergies, feelings, axioms, and experiences.

Given that we have a conscious choice in the matter one would certainly choose something other than BEing that of another soul's e~motions, thoughtenergies, feelings, axioms, and experiences. Thus, this Ego Self of the Soul's perceived need to somehow "protect" itself ceases to exist, as conscious choice of Multi~Dimensional Spiritual Oneness now resides where the unconscious choice of "taking on" another soul's e~motions, thoughtenergies, feelings, axioms, and experiences was. It is through this then that we can see other souls' e~motions, thoughtenergies, feelings, and experiences that we telepathically empathetically tap into as simply energy being exchanged and transformed into other energies; that in envisioning this egg shaped crystalline aura that we can see these e~motions, thoughtenergies, feelings, axioms, and experiences going through this egg shaped crystalline aura and through the physical and Spiritual Soul BEings as One, being free from choosing to take these energies on as though they are ours thereby sending these e~motions, thoughtenergies, feelings, axioms, and experiences back out to the Universe and to all souls in Absoulute Love, Infinite Light, and Bliss. This then gifts us with the ability to be in that state of Compassion for another soul, allowing them to BE simply as they are within that moment free from changing or fix that soul bringing the Soul Rememberings of being and empath and in Compassion full circle.

Within treasuring the Soul Rememberings Through Life Experience of being an empath and in Compassion, I am being this conscious Spiritual Oneness empathic compassionate soul in each and every moment. This has brought me full circle to a resonance where I am free from the perceived signals of headaches, stomachaches, crankiness, and so on any longer. I am free from these because I took the moment to listen to and embrace Spirit's wisdom here within this Spiritual Treasure Chest which is why these signals occurred as they did. Once I saw the root cause and shifted into alignment with these Soul Rememberings I was free from these signals as I "got it" as we say here on this earth dimension. It is so freeing as I am able to simply BE there for another soul, BEing in that resonance in Compassion free from any perceived illusions of signals being there for me to view for a Soul Remembering. In being compassionate with and for another soul is such a beautiful gift we can gift to another soul, and thereby we also gift this to our soul.

This is the gift that Spirit gifts to you in this moment in Absoulute Love and Light ~ may you choose to embrace it and treasure it, determining what these messages may mean for you.

[Pasco]

maybe the people at psipog.net can help you.

[Alaskans]

Thank you 'diamondlady' for pouring out your wisdom. I havent read it all, it's alot to digest, and to read (maybe you should have left out some of the earth dimension talk), but I promise to chisel away at it, I'm sure you have gleaned alot of wisdom from the Spirit.


Astir, I modified your shell technique and was using it to remove negs. I originally tried to make it impenetrable but that took alot of energy to keep out negs trying to get back in. Then I got the idea to imagine my aura encased in a mirror, it worked very well. Only it worked TOO well, and had the side effect of disconnecting me from the spiritual world around me completely. Luckily I found a way to destroy elemental negs, and dont have to use the shell anymore. But if others' thoughts are really bothering you then maybe you should try the mirror shell for a bit, perhaps try to make it only reflect other people's emotions.