crazy story

[ssch]

i am 27, the last 26 years of my life was spent being totally oblivious to anything other than this physical dimension and the obsession with time and all the other small things that so many get fixated on.

i was in no way, shape, or form, spiritual- or at least i blocked it out. i do remember having LOTS of imaginary friends when i was little and having a very wild imagination, but i gave up on the idea of god or that there was anything beyond this dimension as i got older.

i remember right before my birthday feeling so incredibly lost, lonely, confused, and totally depressed- and i couldn't explain why. everyone around me kept telling me it was just the baby blues (I had a baby 5 months before), but i KNEW that it was NOT that. it was so deep residing and it was nothing i'd ever felt or known before and somehow even the mention of the words "postpartum depression" made me want to ring someones neck for being so ignorant to the fact that something else was going on. i got to such a dark place that one night i got down on my hands and knee's for the first time and begging that if anyone at all could hear me to please help me in a way i knew not! i just wanted to understand what was going on.

the week before my b-day, back in feb of '10, i started blacking out and had an extreme case of vertigo. it was literally like being totally wasted (drunk) and passing out only it never wore off like alcohol does. it lasted consistently through the week. i don't remember anything while i was passed out, and nothing unusual other than my body changes happened while i was coherent but having vertigo. i've always had excellent health and the two different docs i visited who did tests really weren't sure what was going on. the day of my birthday (a week later), it all disappeared, and i felt perfectly fine.

then from february to may i started changing into a totally different person and for reasons i couldn't explain. i didn't even stop to think about the things i was doing until after i did them, it was almost automatic. i became a vegan, i got rid of 80% of my belongings, i totally stopped watching t.v., i didn't like the same music, i couldn't stand my old friends (and i got new friends who are in a totally different catergory from my old friends), i couldn't stand to do my old hobbies anymore, i became very unhappy in my marriage, and totally switched careers on the spur of the moment, and it was like it just all fell into place and after i stopped for a second, i realized i had basically traded in my successful business of 10 years for a job that pays 1/3 the money, i became super eco-friendly, and many other changes.

then in may, my sis who i hadn't seen in over 2 years popped in and said something to me and it was like it just all clicked! i had never been a spiritual person and suddenly everything i'd ever wondered about, i just knew! i knew who i REALLY was, why i was here, where i was going, and what lays on the other side, and i didn't even have to think about it, i just knew! i'd start thinking of a topic, any topic and the answers would come to me and they felt so natural and so right. i was having awe-ha moments every second of every day. that weekend i decided to go on a run down the road (which i never do!), and half way through it i just started talking out loud very strongly and very loudly and it felt so unnatural- i knew it was NOT me talking! i stopped dead in my tracks and i said what the hell is going on!

then i said, don't fear, it's just me micheal, i am so glad you can finally hear me! i got insane warm chills all over my body, a feeling i had never felt yet in this life. i spent the next month going in circles trying to convince myself i was crazy, and then the next day i knew there was no way i could deny that something else was definitely talking as clear as day to me! finally i got smart and told micheal to prove this was ligit. he told me to go to this community garden and that there was a guy there who was waiting for me and would tell me what to do now. i looked all over town for this so-called "community garden" and kept coming up empty handed. i thought for sure i was loosing it. then when i finally gave up and stopped looking my friend and i were talking and she told me about this community garden she'd heard about. instantly i asked where it was and i went down there. i got to the plot of land and this guy dressed in dreads and hippie clothes approached me and said "hey sis, i've been waiting for you!" i was like who are you, and he goes, well you probably don't remember me, but i remember you, and i got some work for you. i was like omg! okay, okay, i'm convinced! since then i have been hearing and feeling things everywhere i go. my hubby thinks i am crazy (i am), and asks me what happened to his wife. were definitely headed for divorce, i still don't know what happened to me back in feb, i still have a bunch of questions about my some of the things i'm being lead to, and i my life has changed SO much that i feel almost lonely, no one i can talk to and so i figure why not do an out of body and have all my issues addressed fair and square.

so that's why i am here!

[Chris J.]

Welcome to Astral Pulse, ssch.

[Xanth]

Hi there ssch,

Welcome to the Astral Pulse.

That was quite an interesting story, and no, you're not crazy. 

I hope we can help you find what you're looking for.

[Greytraveller]

Hallo ssch and welcome

The revelation of the spiritual realm is one of the most powerful, if not The Most Powerful, experiences possible. Xanth is correct, you are not crazy.
btw, but if you are then are have come the right asylum for there are anay people like you here at Astral Pulse. lol 
Peace
Grey

[ssch]

thanks, i am so excited to find a community of people where i fit in. thank goodness for the internet!

[personalreality]

welcome