kundalini and horniness

[roomsearching]

Although, I personally have no problem with my horniness which was started after some kundalini process,
I think I might be giving off a horny wild man kind of vibe to women. When I walk on the streets, usually some man makes a coughing noise because I seem to be too aloof. In a way, after Self-realization, I have lost my inhibition. I treat everyone like a friend and I dont really care about people so much anymore. I try to keep to myself. I found that there is a huge amount of semen production and I have to release it twice a day not because I am horny but so that I don't appear weird to people.

[Xanth]

Pheromones.

You should look that up. 

[personalreality]

I don't really understand how your semen production is apparent to other people...

Do you feel "horny" or just friendly?

Others could assume excessively friendly is horny, but that doesn't mean that that's how you feel.

[CFTraveler]

Although, I personally have no problem with my horniness which was started after some kundalini process,
I think I might be giving off a horny wild man kind of vibe to women.

How do you know this?

When I walk on the streets, usually some man makes a coughing noise because I seem to be too aloof.

What?  This makes no sense to me.  A man making coughing noises has anything to do with your apparent aloofness?  Are you pretending to be aloof, and it's not working?  Sorry, I'm just trying to understand.

In a way, after Self-realization, I have lost my inhibition.

I suppose that's good.

I treat everyone like a friend and I dont really care about people so much anymore.

Another thing I don't understand- treating someone like a friend is caring about them, unless you mean this in a way I'm not getting.

I try to keep to myself. I found that there is a huge amount of semen production and I have to release it twice a day not because I am horny but so that I don't appear weird to people.

Why would having semen production appear weird to anyone?  How would they know?

[Naykid]

Ahhhh.. the monthly Horniness thread.    Where would we be without it?

[personalreality]

not distracted by sex.

[Stillwater]

I am glad someone else had trouble sorting this post out, and I am not the only one who had difficulty following....

[Xanth]

I am glad someone else had trouble sorting this post out, and I am not the only one who had difficulty following....

It's as clear as mud. 

[Naykid]

Could you possible translate that into English...?  Unless it's full of stupid crap like masturbation tips, I'd like to know what you are saying. 

[roomsearching]

Ok. I will rephrase my question. After self-realization, I am completely in bliss and so happy almost like a drugged state.

But sometimes I also have some anxiety in public places because I usually tend to look at people around me as I am interested in them.

Also the way I walk is probably very aggressive as I have lost any kind of fear about how I should walk. But I am still not sure of this whether my walking style is provocative.

All in all, something about me is provocative to people I think. Or maybe its not.

Basically I dont know why some people walking on the street have to hate me or make some loud coughing noises to show who is the man.

I am actually a bit hot and sexy guy. So it can be intimidating to some men, I agree. Maybe I give a player kind of vibe because I do have a hidden desire to pick up women.

Maybe I have a "bonk the world" attitude showing on my face. Who knows. Anyway, all this just makes me uncomfortable going out in public places. But otherwise I dont have a real problem with this. It is something like a fear of crowded places because sometimes I hate people crowding around me cos you know some people can be rude. I am scared of rude people because I cannot get back at them.

[personalreality]

First, that's hilarious.  You just fancy yourself God's gift to the world (physically).
Second, you shouldn't worry about the reactions of others.  Eff em.
third, one might think that someone who believes they have experienced self realization wouldn't be concerned with how they could "get back" at rude people.

[Xanth]

I'm gonna have to agree completely with PR.
You seem to have some kind of narcissistic view of yourself. 

I can assure you that nobody you 'walk past' during your day gives you a second thought.
That's the very nature of our society today.

[CFTraveler]

I have to agree with what the guys said.

Basically I dont know why some people walking on the street have to hate me or make some loud coughing noises to show who is the man.

It looks like you are projecting your own insecurities on other people, and interpreting the way they act in the way you understand.
Someone who is self-realized wouldn't care if someone else came up to their face and openly challenged them- because they know who they are and that is all they need.

[roomsearching]

I am not God's gift to the world. Good looking or not, its subjective.
But I am a non-white person not living in my own country.
I have had several instances where people use a racial slur against me or made fun of me.
I know people don't give a second thought about others, but when I walk by, some people do want to say something to upset me.
Its probably the way I look. 
You know,  people get stabbed for being a particular race or  for looking different.
Hatred is everywhere. People can hate.
I have had hatred from women for being a man.
I have seen hatred from young people who want to show that they are grown ups.
I have had businessmen just scolding me in their shops.
I have had terrible rude and racist stuff said to me by cab drivers.
I accept that these things can happen.
But I am just surprised why I just dont react in any of these circumstances.

Anyway, these things can happen and I dont have to keep focusing on them.   

[Xanth]

I fail to understand why any of that should matter to you.

Just live your life the way you want to and be happy. 

[horaciocs]

How old are you? What do you do for a living? Do you consider yourself happy? Are you satisfied with your life? What is the main issue you're going through? (summarize it into one short sentence).

We want to help you become a happier person (that is if you do need any help at all), we just need you to be a bit more concise and objective.


Horacio

[roomsearching]

Its alright. I think I am suffering the fruits of my karma.
I dont have any real problems as such.
Some people have spent a lot of time annoying me and trying to hurt my ego.
In a way, those people have helped me to question my own ego and destroyed it.
It is probably the remnants of that old ego which keeps coming up with these temper tantrums.
But I dont act upon them in any serious way as I think it is my victim mentality which is the problem.
Its all unreal. And yes, the best thing is that I know who I am and let everything go, forgive and forget.

[Xanth]

No "remnants" here... you haven't destroyed any ego.

Ignoring is your best bet really.

[gdo]

You can change the way you respond to 'horniness'.  You can change the mental images that occur then.   

Just as an experiment, try imagining that you are surrounded by a friendly halo for a few minutes and then go out and see how you are treated.  SMILE. 

[roomsearching]

I have doing well these days.

Have not had any issue with the sex chakra as I have totally ignored it.

I have stopped with the habit of master-bayshun.

So basically all that stuff was a paranoid illusion.

[horaciocs]

What's master-bayshun?

[personalreality]

self-love.

[horaciocs]

ok, call me slow, I only read that aloud right now

[personalreality]

slow   

[Naykid]

Really slow, but not perverted.